up at 6:30 again. iono why. so i submitted my schedule change for psych to journalism. hopefully it'll be approved. then off to practice. practice went pretty well. OMG. i found out we're starting matches tomorrow!!!!!!!!! they're not challenge matches so they dont determine our position on the team...but the coach is randomly pairing us to figure out our skill and who works well with who and what not. and im missing TWO FREAKING DAYS OF THAT!!!!!!! omg, im so mad about that. cuz three days all we do is drills. but for the next two days we're doing matches and im gone!!!!! damn, i got so pissed at my dad right there...ergh.

so i came home and showered then i went back to school. i have no life. haha, i go back to school at any chance i get and school hasn't even started yet. o well. for some reason i hecka like orientation. i have fun there. wherever there are friends things are fun. and whenever i go im supposed to be working for interact but i end up working for asb. o well. so i did the temporary id's today during the FRESHMAN ORIENTATION. yes, all the lil' freshmen came with their parents. so i was talking with sarmad and we agreed that the title "junior" holds so much more weight and power than sophomore. sophomore is better than freshman. but being a junior...oo snaps that's so tyt. haha, u can feel the power of an upperclassman. but according to alex since he's a senior, we're upper-lower-classmen. yeeeeah. newho, sarmad always has his scooby doo cards with him. like he brings them EVERYWHERE. we were playing while working at orientation. haha, i beat him in speed. speed is hecka tyt <--that didn't sound too good....

so afterwards i went bowling with scott, ariane, and percy at cloverleaf. we played three games and my scores were 64, 80, 106. i won the last game =D. hahahahhahaha. after the first game i told percy i would kick his ass, and lookit that...i DID!!! so we got jamba juice and were supposed to go to percy's house after but he was locked out (smart one...) so we went to the cornfield next to his house. haha, i was SO amazed. i can't beleive there was a cornfield in the middle of all these houses. we wanted to get lost in the field and play marco polo, but the stocks of corn were too thick and planted to close.....dang.

then we went to the park and just played around and talked. percy was throwing around a tennis ball, and he throws it up but it hits the swing so when it comes down it bounces off his head like ten feet. hahaha. sooo funny. and i got him back for punching me at the president's meeting....i may have overdid it. o well =P. ariane drove me home in scott's car. she is sooooooooooooooooooo bad at following directions. when it should take like five minutes to get to my house it took her like ten. haha. she kept on passing the streets she needed to turn on. now im home and im leaving for this gay ass vacation with my parents tomorrow. i come back sunday. joy. this is gonna suck so much. sigh. im out now. later

so today i woke uP at 6:30 and went to school. jacked my schedule cuz we weren't supposed to get them if we weren't asb. but neways here's a stupid story. i go there in the morning with all my tennis stuff EXCEPT my glasses. i DONT have my glasses. i mean what idiot goes to practice W/O glasses????????? ME! that's who. so i call my sis to bring them on her way to work, and i have sarmad run to the other side of school to pick them up. i didn't really feel like running and all THANKS SO MUCH SARMAD.

so tennis was a lot less hot than yesterday. but i'm freaking sore. ergh, liners...those squat liners things. but we actually did drills today. and we STILL couldn't get the shed with the tennis equipment open. cuz the boys tennis coach locked it and didnt give neone the key. and the big cutter things wont fit in the opening to cut the lock. so we're getting a BLOWTORCH from the district office tomorrow....yeah, pretty sad.

i tried to get my schedule changed cuz they gave me psych and not ap psych. so i talk to the counselor and i find out ap psych is full. so i try for two hours to get my schedule changed. cuz changing psych screws around everything else so i have to get approval from the three teachers whose classes im changing. so im resigning to taking journalism which i was gonna take next year but now ill just take ap psych next year.

in a way, i see this as an answer to my prayers. cuz i didn't know what to do with my activities...to do both job and tennis or pick one. now with one less ap class i think i can do both (granted i get the job BUT i haven't gotten a call yet, so yikes im kinda freaking out) but i do beleive this is the answer i was looking for. God does work in mysterious ways.

oo! and THANK YOU SLAVA SO MUCH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! YOU ARE THE BEST!!!!!!!!!!!!! since i playted tennis for like two hours came home and left to orientatino i didn't eat lunch. i was sooooo hungry. so slava gave me his burger that he bought from wendys. omg u are the freaking best!!!!!! thanks a million. he's always getting me food. like the last day of school i was dying from hunger also and he bought me fries. haha, such a good friend =D.

so this is my schedule:

1) Honors Pre-Calculus (Clevenger)
2) AP U.S. History (Morse)
3) Honors Chemistry (Raymond)
4) AP French IV (Kamei)
5) Honors English (Wallach)
6) Journalism (Miss Marie)

and i got mrs. morse....which totally sucks. anyone at whs knows the story. kinda funny how EVERYONE knows though. haha. and today at practice ester asks me "so how long have u been going out with peter?" im like WHOA....how did u know. i mean for one thing it was summer. and i dont talk to everyone so word got out and spread FAST. haha, reminds me of the time me and ash started rumors about ourselves and slava. haha, good times.

i made a new friend...ahmer. he's a junior coming from ahs. he should've stayed there. our school is bs. go huskies and husky pride and what not...woohoo! but honors and ap classes are hecka full, we're limited in our selection of classes, and we dont have block schedule. egh, kinda crappy there. anyways. im supposed to go bowling tomorrow. then off to my gay vacation with my paretns. that will be so boring ill wanna die. later.

first day of tryouts today. DAYAMN IT WAS HOT. we rallied first then we ran the track once. then we ran the track again but this time we didt it with bleachers. up and down, up and down all the way around the track. then back to the courts to do liners. and the sad thing is that wasn't even full out conditioning. during the school year we do like double that two days a week. erks. and the fact that it'slike 90 degrees makes u wanna die. i wanted to blast the sun with the shotgun i dont have. lu stopped by around the beginning to watch us practice..our team is gonna suck so badly this year. sigh.

newho so aftewards i go with jo to check out the new lockers by the E-Building....DANG THEY ARE HUGE. they can fit my tennis racket. they are so tyt. i luv them. only bad thing is they're kinda far from everything. but i have three classes on that side of the school so depending on what my schedule is i might get a snazzy big locker! haha im so excited about this.

so lu was walking me home and we're talking outside my condos. then like i suddenly notice this one guy behind lu pushing his car into his parking space. the parking space is on a kind of slope so he's totally struggling. he's like pushing so hard on the drivers side. i show lu and he starts cracking up. he's like burying his head in the corner of the garage. it's so funny. once the guy gets his car up the slope it starts slipping back and he runs to the back and starts pushing back. when he comes into our view again we start laughing so hard. it's so pathetic.

neways. it's dead hot today. i just finished packinng for vacation. i cant find my other matchbox twenty cd. so of the two i have i cant find two. that's just crap isnt it? and ppls keep stealing my words. peter....

i am peter T: spiffy
LiPsOnFiRe19: u took my word
i am peter T: i know
LiPsOnFiRe19: its okay i have a new word
LiPsOnFiRe19: snazzy
LiPsOnFiRe19: but i use spiffy too so dont steal it eitehr
LiPsOnFiRe19: haha
i am peter T: :-P too bad...i find spiffy a snazzy word
LiPsOnFiRe19: whoa whoa whoa
LiPsOnFiRe19: u just used TWO of my words
LiPsOnFiRe19: that's a direct violation of my rules
i am peter T: thats fine
i am peter T: nice combo huh?
LiPsOnFiRe19: ARGH
LiPsOnFiRe19: take that combo backt his instant
i am peter T: nope
i am peter T: cant do
LiPsOnFiRe19: this instant peter t.
i am peter T: no steph w.

haha....i dont like it when ppl steal my words. especially two in one sentence. well im out.

so my dad is downstairs in the garage fixing something and he tells me to watch the porridge on the stove while he's down there. so when he comes back up im on the phone and HE STARTS YELLING AT ME. like he's freaking out. he's yelling SO LOUD...and he's SO SERIOUS. he's yelling like i just got laid or stoned or sumthing. and WHY is he yelling? cuz the stove was turned on too high and i was letting it boil too much. im like if i turn it lower then it doesn't boil. and he goes DONT U DARE ARGUE WITH ME!!!!!!!!!!!!!! im like....wth. it NEEDS to boil. and he's all "then u turn it down first and then turn it up. find the right notch for it." i tried to point out the pointlessness of his yelling and all he says is "I CANT BELEIVE U CANNOT DO THIS ONE SIMPLE TASK. LOOK HOW OLD U ARE AND U CANT EVEN HELP ME TO MAKE LUNCH?!?!?!?!!?!?!?!!? DONT ARGUE WITH ME." and through all this michelle can hear on the other side of the phone. AND im like so shocked. cuz it's so weird why he's yelling. im also freaking amused cuz he's making such a big deal out of this...im just like w/e, ur being dumb.

so i eat then leave to go to an interact poster making/meeting thinger at slava's house from 2-7. hahahaha, it's so fun hanging out with the officers cuz even though it's a meeting and we're doing work there's always stuff to laugh about. michelle was asking what alans' cell number was, so i say "the last four numbers are his name...alan." i totally thought i would fool all the officers except alan. instead all the officers are skeptical and alan like leans forwar, eyes hecka wide and goes "ARE U SERIOUS??? THEY ARE? NO....ARE THEY?!?!?!!?!?!?!?". at that point i cracked. i was laughing so hard my stomach hurt. hahahahaha. of all the ppl to fool i fooled him.

well tennis tryouts tomorrow at nine freaking am. for three freaking hours. in the freaking hot sun. damn, it's always hot at tryouts. ergh, i gotta get up early cuz im going to the park at eight to hit by myself for awhile then going to tryouts. so that means im up at...7:15. great. omg today i went to the park at around 7:45. i left at 8:40. THERE WERE SO MANY DAMN BUGS. I MEAN THEY WERE EVERYWHERE. they always come out when it's hot. and they were like flying into my eyes by the hundreds. it got to a point where i jsut couldn't see. and they were like sticking to my face and my clotehs. it was so sick. so me, lu, and kabilan jetted out of there.

so i got home and went swimming for half an hour. it was way to hot. it's nice swimming at night. clears ur thoughts and all. im so like..iono...worried i guess, about next year. i dunno if im going to do tennis or take the job. im still gonna wait and see. but i just feel like im going to have regrets in my decision. and i need to get this straightened out. cuz it jsut started totally eating me today. i have no clue what to do. i wanna concentrate on studies but then i need a job. but then i wanna do what i like. i mean my job wont be a piece of shit. i wont hate it. ergh, i dun even know what im trying to say. but neways ill talk to God and hopefully ill feel less burdened by this.

i just wanna say thanks to all my tennis buddies. esp all the guys for helping me out. lu, sarmad, and kabilan. but most of all kabilan. u were a snazzy coach, thanks sooooo much for coaching me and teaching me a lot. backhand, BENDING MY KNEES, serves. i know i wasn't the easiest of students =P. and yeah yeah i know im still late. ill never be early. hehe. (not like u were the easiest coach though with ur damn water pistol. haha). neways u guys are the best. luv u lots!!!!! i just hope it all pays off this week. wish me luck ppls!

fobzrock 1 5: call me so i can hit with u to warm u up

and im getting up at 7:15 to be at the park at eight....that is so sweet of him since i know he loves his sleep. i have the bestest friends in the world! =D

i wake up today to my mom yelling at me to get up. it was like 10, so what can i do but get up. i was sitting on my bed and looking at the wall next to it with my eighth grade panaramic picture and i remembered amina's wall. she has the BEST poster ever. it's a pirates of the carribbean poster with JOHNNY DEPP, keira knightley, ORLANDO BLOOM, and some other dude. but omg, i saw that and i was freaking staring at it. orlando bloom and johnny depp...sooo hot. and haseena shows me her two magazines with orlando bloom and her desktop with a pic of him. im like omg.....how can anyone be that hot. PLUS he has a british accent....=D. i REALLY luv amina's wall though....two of the hottest hollywood actors on her wall. dang. haha

and i totally forgot to mention the buses in martinez yesterday. THEY TALK!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! seriously. u ring for ur stop and the bus goes "stop requested". and it says which stop is next and what bus it is. it's sooooo cool. it's so tyt...i mean THE BUS TALKS!!!!!!!!!!!!! hahaha, i was hecka freaking out.

and let the world know that i have a purse with my initial on it. "S". well it's actually my sister's. but w/e same thing. =D. and this does NOT mean im conceited *coughcoughmatthew*. i just like collecting this stuff. well im out now.

OMG i got my STARS scores finally. and i didn't find them in the mailbox, where i should have found them. nope! i found them on my mom's table. i was like wth.....she said she got them on thursday and took 'em cuz it was addressed to "parents of stephanie wu" and she wanted to know what i got. im thinking well if u gave them to me it's not like i would've RAN AWAY from you so u couldn't read it. so i took the paper and then i was like HA WHAT NOW WHAT NOW...ADVACNED IN ALL OF THEM!!!!! WOOT! not like i really care, but my mom really stole them for a pointless reason though.

well today was mucho fun. got out of my freaking house and hung out with Tew for the day. andrew was supposed to be there too, but he went to a banquet for this one year old kid in sf. i was like what the.....that must be one special kid. so neways im on BART for a freaking hour and ten minutes. (next time, tew, YOU come to FREMONT). i get to martinez and wait with matt for freaking 35 minutes cuz SOMEONE doens't know how often the buses run in his own city. (btw, thanks for the wake up call at 7:30 peter. *muah*)

so we go back to his house and tew gives me the picture frames he got for me in thailand. they're very snazzy. AND i got a spiffy flower made out of soap. thanks a bunch matt =D. then while matt's out of the room me and his sis, angel, have some fun with his wallet. i took five bucks and his bank card and stick it in my pocket. so while we're gonig downstairs he asks where his stuff his and i tell him angel has it. angel says that she had it but now it's in the room somewhere (which is true..i WAS in the room). and it's so hilarious cuz she is so good at making matt look dumb and she gets him good. and his mom also. he gave khoa a flower made out of soap and his mom goes "i didn't know he was ur type tew." they're so mean to him it's freaking funny. and when angel tells him he's stupid he goes "i know". lol. haha. i get a kick out of the luv in his family.

so we go to KFC and eat it back at matt's house. so i tell matt that once angel gives him his five bucks ill give him the bank card. he looks freaking everywhere so i finally give him the money cuz i wanted to watch 28 days later...which btw is A CRAPPY MOVIE!!!!! DONT WATCH IT. IT SUCKS SO MUCH. it's not scary, the storyline sucks, and we were laughing at it more than being freaked out. afterwards we watched finding nemo AGAIN while playing monopoly. khoa came over for like ten minutes....and contributed to my, erm, my non-victory. neways tew could u stop rubbing it in. now moving on. here's something funny. i found out today that lil tew has 101 DALMATIONS blankets, tweety bird slippers, a badtz maru clock from Sanrio. snazzy isn't it? exactly what u might find in a lil girls room. haha. THAT'S what u get for rubbing it in matt.

yeah but today i directed like at least 100 death threats at matthew, threw money at him, threw dice at him, a pillow, flicked him about fifty times....and yeah. well he had it coming. he's hella mean and insulting. but it's impossible for me to win a pillow fight with him. but it was a snazzy day. had fun hanging out with matt and what not. just be glad i never got the chance to kick ur a$$ in tennis =P. and i can never get sick of finding nemo. haha, esp the part where dory speaks whale. "maybe i should try a differently dialect. humback maybe?". haha, and her facial expressions are soooooooo hilarious.

so now im home...my parents are back from l.a....joy. im out now. bye

omg vanilla pepsi tastes so disgusting....NEVER TRY IT IN YOUR LIFE. if u do u will die. it tastes so HORRIBLE. omg it made me wanna barf. ergh.

so yesterday at amina's house i found out something very disturbing.....she plays final fantasy. i was like wth??????? no u dont. but apparently she's like in luv with it. im like whoa.....no this can't be! ur like a typical asian guy! haha, i was making fun of her.

EyE AmNuMbEr OnE: <-- Lucky litte bastard
i dunno about the lucky part....but i DO agree with the little bastard part. hahaha.

neways....for what im about to paste, viewer discretion is advised. i was talking to matt and then max jumped in. so basically i was talking to the both of them....and i did NOT have a good night's sleep.
EyE AmNuMbEr OnE: sex
EyE AmNuMbEr OnE: great sex
EyE AmNuMbEr OnE: loving sex..
EyE AmNuMbEr OnE: it's SUBLIME...
EyE AmNuMbEr OnE: pwahahahahahhhahahahahahahahaahahahahahahahahahahahahahah
LiPsOnFiRe19: LOL
LiPsOnFiRe19: ill leave u two alone then
EyE AmNuMbEr OnE: stop it tew! that hurts!
EyE AmNuMbEr OnE: okok i'll pull outta your @$$
EyE AmNuMbEr OnE: hahahahahhahaha
EyE AmNuMbEr OnE: hey, i bet you're contimplating us w/ our hot bods making wet lubricated sex
EyE AmNuMbEr OnE: ooh max!
EyE AmNuMbEr OnE: stop!
EyE AmNuMbEr OnE: not THAT hole....
EyE AmNuMbEr OnE: max! that was my EYE!
LiPsOnFiRe19: dude u guys
LiPsOnFiRe19: get a hold of ur hormones
EyE AmNuMbEr OnE: oh oh...
EyE AmNuMbEr OnE: dude we are HIGH on TESTOSTORONE
EyE AmNuMbEr OnE: hahahaha
EyE AmNuMbEr OnE: we've got so much of it, it's solid and we're smoking it! -max
EyE AmNuMbEr OnE: lust...
EyE AmNuMbEr OnE: oo max....
EyE AmNuMbEr OnE: i idn't know it ran in the family...
EyE AmNuMbEr OnE: ooh
EyE AmNuMbEr OnE: ooh
EyE AmNuMbEr OnE: just remember, you can jump in anytime if you'd like
EyE AmNuMbEr OnE: :D
EyE AmNuMbEr OnE: -max

that was soooooo disturbing...omg....those cousins.....dang.

thursday night i went for a sleepover at amina's house. it was supposed to be me, her, and zakiya BUT zakiya cancelled. so me and amina made plans to suffocate her. haha. we rented sleepy hollow. it was a pretty good movie. HECKA funny when ICKABOD (<--i luv that name) was and his head hit the tree branch so he FLEW onto the horse behind him. hahaha. that movie had hecka funny parts. yeah i know it was a scary movie but w/e. then we watched ALADDIN the return of Jafar. THAT movie was hilarious. i was getting kinda hyper so when the genie made his appearacne i started cracking up. he can change into so many things it's funny. and when jafar had the appearance of jasmine and he was transforming back into his regular Nascar (amina's brother) paused it. SO HILARIOUS. it was like a half jasmine, half jafar....kinda a transexual thing going on. hahahahahaha

then we watched LION KING I. haha, we went on a disney movie frenzy. there's this one part we're the adult simba lies down on some flowers so that the petals fly into the air. and as the petals are floating away they spell the word SEX. seriously. neways...when it's late and you've had a lot to eat, these disney movies are so hilarious. i kept on getting iago from aladdin nd zazu from lion king mixed up. apparently zazu has a british accent. it's so funny. and then there's abu the moneky in aladdin and rafiki the monkey in lion king. i forgot his name at first so i called him rafu. haha. eh, it's all the same. =D

earlier we were playing some skateboarding video game. and omg, amina changed the appearnce of her skateboarder (bam). and he looked soooooooooo dumb. he was wearing a golf-like striped polo shirt, a flowery backpack, SPANDEX shorts (that were hecka short...way too revealing), and BROWN HIKING BOOTS. hahahahaha. so funny. after nascar pointed out the brown boots i went crazy. and i hella choked on my french fries, i thought i was dying.

well we ended up sleeping at 4:45 or sumthing....woke up at 11:30. talked and what not while watching MTV. haha, iono why but i got so crazy. it was all those disney movies. cuz then i started listening to all these disney songs on amina's comp and i started shouting the lyrics. yeah, i got punched by amina.

THEN i got home, dropped off my stuff, and hopped on the bus to my hair appt. my day turned kinda crappy here. the bus was ten minutes late. stupid actransit. but i wasn't late. so i got my hair cut. i usually keep my hair short half the year and long the other half. but last year after i chopped off like 7 inches...it felt sooo good. it was so nice having short hair. i got addicted to it. so i decided not to wait for my hair to grow out and got it cut today. it didn't turn out the way i wanted. i mean it's not REPULSIVE....it's just different. iono if i like it. my sister hecka likes it. i think it's kinda dumb though. i want my old hair back!!!!!!!!! aahh!!! i liked it before!!!!!!! *sniff*. o well.

after my appt finished...i had to take the bus back. BUT i couldn't find the bus stop!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! seriously. the stop that i took to get there was on the other side of the street so usually it's just about directly across. at first i didn't see it where it was supposed to be which was fremont and farwell. so i decided to walk ahead a bit and maybe it was on the corner of a smaller street. wasnt there. i walked more. wasnt there. walked more. still wasnt there. after walking for a bit i look up and there is the 213 whizzing by on fremotn blvd. i literally said "what the fuck." i was like standing there watching the bus go. so i walked for HALF A FREAKING HOUR with my ugly hair aaaaalllllll the way home from albertsons plaza. grrrrrrr.....and i was so damn hungry. i got a major stomach ache. i got home and i collapsed onto the sofa. and my sister was being a bitch also. whenever she's pressed for time shes' bitchy. dang. so i stayed out of that line of fire.

so tomorrow im going to martinez......freaking hour and ten minutes BART ride. next time matthew, YOU come to FREMONT. i hate transferring BART. sigh. well i havent made out my 03-04 school plan yet. im still waiting patiently for tennis tryouts and the results. but as of now im leaning toward the job. like for sure im taking the job. that is IF i get it. i mean i thought i was gonna get the coldstones' job but i didn't. but IF i do get it im definitely gonna keep it. ill wait and see if i can do both tennis and job...whether or not i wont blow a fuse in the process (as Sandeep puts it). well if u read this whole entry u were one bored person. later.

yesterday i went to the hospital at 9 freaking am and worked there for three and a half hours with this girl Corinne from Morreau High School. the gift shop was dead as usual but it was fun working with her...i taught her to play rummy and she kicked my ass. haha, that went on for like 45minutes. so we were talking abuot school and everything and since i didn't really know her i told her my situation with the job thing and tenis thing. since she doesn't know me well i got an objective opinion and what not. well i still haven't decided although im leaning toward doing both...yikes, i know. but i'll wait and see what happens. i dont feel burdened anymore though. like this matter isn't feeling as heavy as it was before, thanks to God.

i spend too many nights on aim. argh, but i had some funny conversations...

fobzrock 1 5: i learned how to levitate
LiPsOnFiRe19: WOW
LiPsOnFiRe19: TYT
fobzrock 1 5: yep
fobzrock 1 5: show u tomorrows
fobzrock 1 5: i also heard a dying giraffe sound
fobzrock 1 5: GGGGGgggRRRaaaaAAAWWnnnn
hahaha.....mad skillz

SwEeTAhOy: ill just sell myself then
whoa.....wth is she thinking...

Warmasta25: like today
Warmasta25: my aunt asked me if i had a gf because my mother told her i had one
Warmasta25: and she was on the verge of asking me a slew of questions because she knew id say yes
LiPsOnFiRe19: oooohhhhhhhhh
Warmasta25: and when i said no, i was being honest, and she shut up like fucking god had come down and said for her to keep her trap shut
hahahaha.....well she DID shut up neways.

LiPsOnFiRe19: do u have a gf?
ChinesePlayer711: hell no
LiPsOnFiRe19: wow
LiPsOnFiRe19: such energy
ChinesePlayer711: hell yea
LiPsOnFiRe19: hahahaha

im going on a disney downloading streak again. haha. lion king and little mermaid songs rule! =D so neways my mom is placing restrictions me...again. i'm going to a sleepover tonight and now she says after this im not to go out nemore before school starts. well, im not supposed to make ne new plans. so the ones i have planned for now are okay, but i just can't make any new ones. dang, my parents have some weird quirks. i'm thinking, right..like ur gonna enforce and im gonna follow it. hahahaaha. so if u haven't seen my profile, here it is...

The Assassins (tennis players gone mad)
~Assault Team
Green Team: Lu-Alpha, Raman-Fungus
Red Team: Sarmad-Omega, Ruthann- Bravo
~Sniper Team (white)
Me-Delta
Chen-Charlie

the first person mentioned in each team is the captain

Equipment
~Green Team: fungus, flashbangs, m4/ak47
~Red Team: HE grenades, Omega's ability to screw u over, universal self cocking pistols and mp5s
~White Team: awp

and NO we are not a CS clan or w/e. lu just happens to be a CS freak and he organized the weapons. we are most certainly tennis players gone mad. and thanks to our founders Lu and Ruthann. It all started with Ruthann's life long goal to be an assassin...*reminisces*. haha. so i've been slacking in my SAT work. it's just SO dumb. and why the heck haven't i gotten my STAR scores yet?????????? erm, CAT6...w/e they need to stop changing the name. point is, i dont have mine yet. not like i really care but i'd like to know if i qualify for the money. haha, that's what it's all about. i might've thrown them away by accident. hmmm, damn. alrite im out.

omg....my SAT score makes me want to scream. i dont get it. it's so incosistent. there's supposed to be a margin of plus or minus thirty points. but for some reason....i have margins of like 80-100 points. wth??????????? i mean if i get lucky and i take the real one ill get my high score....or i could get unlucky and get a low score....i mean what is this? what's my real score.....im so confused. grrrrrrrrr but neways. it shouldn't be fluctuating that much. omg.....why is my score so sucky. i hate this. i know i said i didn't really care....but that was when i THOUGHT my score was higher. well it WAS but then it went down. oh my goodness. is it so hard to ask for a freaking decent score?????? dammit. i would hate to end the summer with my SAT score only improving by forty points. i mean, that's bs. i get so mad sometimes. dammit. but my spirits lifted a bit when i was reading aurora's profile and i saw a convo in there between us two.

LiPsOnFiRe19: OMG WTH
LiPsOnFiRe19: ASB IS 25 BUCKS????????
eyez 2tha skeyez: ...
eyez 2tha skeyez: steph
LiPsOnFiRe19: WHOA WHOA WHOA
eyez 2tha skeyez: its okay =P
LiPsOnFiRe19: IT WAS 14 LAST YEAR
eyez 2tha skeyez: chill
LiPsOnFiRe19: WHAT THE FREAKING HECK
eyez 2tha skeyez: ... or not
LiPsOnFiRe19: 25??????????????????????????????????????????????????????
LiPsOnFiRe19: FOR ASB????????????????????????????
LiPsOnFiRe19: I AM GETTING SCREWED HERE AND U DONT CARE
LiPsOnFiRe19: THAT DID NOT COME OUT RIGHT
eyez 2tha skeyez: lol

hahahahaha....well it IS hecka more this year....

i had a savvy interview today. went SUPER well. the lady told me that if she could she would hire me right there if she could but she had to go through the rest of the interviews. and on my application form she wrote KEEPER and she circled it. after she told me that ppl who impressed her and who she would like to hire..she wrote keeper on the form. i was like YAY! hehe.

but nehoot.....i got home. and suddenly i couldn't decide what i wanted. tennis and drama or a job. cuz three ap, three honors, interact covp, tennis, school play, job, washington hospital volunteer. that's a shit load. i talked to so many different ppl and each time i just changed my mind. after talking to matthew on the phone for one hour trying to decide what plan i want i got nowhere and ended up deciding that ill just go with the flow. im planning as far ahead as accepting the job if i get it and trying out for tennis. i dont know what after that...ill just wait and see. i have a HORRIBLE habit of plannig things out too much. damn me. haha

neways today at tennis ruthann was talking about assassins so i dunno how but we all get started on this plan to assassinate everyone in our school. hahahaha......lu and ruthann are PROS. they developed intricate plans to fool the policemen and we all got code names. lu showed us his sexy stealth walk and using his tennis racket as a gun. my code name is DELTA. muahahahahahhaha. DELTA FORCE SNIPERS. hahahahaha. we were all acting this out "alpha, delta, omega.....go go go go go." "alpha down...charlie go." that woudl be so tyt. haha, tennis at the park has so many levels: tennis, water fights, card games, and making sniper plans. haha.

last night on the phone with matt he was talking abuot how he could beat me in monopoly. poor kid he's hallucinating..but neways he tells me that he beat his sister in fifteen minutes. wth right? not possible. so he says, "im good. she's good. and we did it in fifteen." i was like...uuuuuhhhhh that did NOT sound right. hecka funny though. and it's so hilarious how our dads are EXACTLY the same. we got a huge laugh out of that. they're so alike. we're cracking up about the way they act when they get mad.....huge eyes, voice gets higher, total seriousness, bags under the eyes more visible. and thne there's the requests they make for us to keep our sisters in check, make sure they dont throw parties, and watch over them. seeing how his sis is 20 and mine is 24 that is such bs it's funny. nehoot.....i dont think it's all chinese dads...just our dumb ones.

omg the scariest thing just happened....someone rang my doorbell. twice. its 12am and someone rang it. waited, rang it again. then knocked five different times...who the hell??????????? damn i didn't get up to see who it was. hella scary damn. 12am someone's ringing my doorbell...and sarmad isn't helping...

iUqiddis 03: i think they were after ur life
iUqiddis 03: !!!
LiPsOnFiRe19: THANKS SARMAD!
iUqiddis 03: lol jp
iUqiddis 03: but realli....or maybe they were after ur whole family

ergh.....they're gone now though. i need sleep now. and i need to do some serious praying to God about my job situation. im in need of some guidance and help. sigh. nite.

IKEA RULES!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! for anyone who hasn't gotten the magazine yet......u are soooooooo deprived. they have the tightest stuff in there!!!!!!! especially the children's ikea. JUNGLE THEME ALL THE WAY!!!!!!!!!!


LiPsOnFiRe19: did u get the IKEA magazine???????
i aM PeTeR T: yes i did
LiPsOnFiRe19: ISN'T IT COOL???????????????????????
i aM PeTeR T: its great
LiPsOnFiRe19: u dont sound very excited
i aM PeTeR T: im sorry
i aM PeTeR T: ITS SOOO WONDERFUL STEPH!
i aM PeTeR T: I SWEAR I DROOL OVER THOSE BED AND CABINETS AND WHATNOT
LiPsOnFiRe19: HAHAHAHA
LiPsOnFiRe19: good job
LiPsOnFiRe19: that's the enthusiasm i wanna hear
LiPsOnFiRe19: =D
i aM PeTeR T: why thank you

hehe.....me and my addiction......

woke up, did some stuff.....forgot what. went to the hospital at 3:00 for my volunteer work in the gift shop. stayed there till 6:45. but.....some excitement....i saw LOCKER BOY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! aka maheeth. haha. so funny though. cuz whenever we saw each other in school we always talked. and today we were talking before my shift and what not, but it wasn't until after my shift that i found out what his name was. haha, he was always locker boy before since his locker was next to mine. now i know his name is maheeth and now he knows my name. but i think he's better off as locker boy and i'm better off as girl-with-no-name. haha.

gift shop is heeeecka dead. but upside, i can actually concentrate on my SAT work. since there's NOTHING to do i HAVE to do SAT work so it's good. and i just watched the saddest tv show at 10 on channel seven. i dunno what it was.....but it was so sad. newoot......i feel like rock climbing. trip to city beach neone?

AND I LOST MY MATCHBOX TWENTY CD.....YOURSELF OR SOMEONE LIKE YOU.......IT'S GONE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I RIPPED APART MY ROOM LOOKING FOR IT........NOW IT'S GONE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! OMG IM SOOOOOOOOOOO MAD. WHY COULDN'T I LOSE SOME GAY CD LIKE MANDY MOORE OR SOMETHING. DAMMIT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! argh! now i have to clean up the mess i made. nite.

heecka funny at tennis...lu was soooooooooo high. he had his eyes dilated and they stayed that way for six hours. and i swear he gets high off of eye dilation liquid. hahaha. anyways. now we dont have water fights at the park...we play cards while we're waiting. haha. big two is addicting. muahahaha. neways speaking of ppl who get high, i was talking to matt the day he got back from thailand....

EyE AmNuMbEr OnE: dont mess w/ someone who's still high on low oxygen...

hahahahahaha...hecka funny. so i thought he needed some rest...

LiPsOnFiRe19: no i think u should sleep
LiPsOnFiRe19: good bye matt
LiPsOnFiRe19: haha
EyE AmNuMbEr OnE: hahahaha
EyE AmNuMbEr OnE: hell no
EyE AmNuMbEr OnE: sleep???
LiPsOnFiRe19: huh that must not be a familiar concept to you
LiPsOnFiRe19: lemme put it in lamest terms
LiPsOnFiRe19: close ur eyes
LiPsOnFiRe19: dont move
LiPsOnFiRe19: and breathe
EyE AmNuMbEr OnE: ok...now i'm meditating..
LiPsOnFiRe19: hahahaahahah

neways...im surrounded by hyper and weird ppl. like today on the way to the game michelle saw someone lying outside on the grass and she goes "that's my role model". sarmad's all "a hobo is ur role model?". so when we're driving along some more there's HECKA more lying outside and hunter goes "HEY LOOKIT..IT'S ALL UR ROLE MODELS!!!!!!!!!!" we all started cracking up. heheehe. now i have to go play battleship against ruthann. later

today i went to my first ever baseball game. A's against the bluejays =D. it was hecka fun. interact hooked us up man! haha. there was me, michelle, sarmad, and slava. so the rotarain president-elect Darren Young drove us there in his MOTOR HOME. it has more tv's than my house. haha. but it's so tyt. i want to buy one and park it outside our condos and that'll be my own private house. hehe.

and darren's kids are so cute. they're hecka cool. hunter and skyler. (dont they have the coolest names?) we all played cards with sarmad's pimp scooby doo deck the way there and the way back...big 2, egyptian war, and 31. good stuff. barbecue was good also. and one of the A's players came to sign autographs. i forgot who....but anyways it was pretty cool. cuz the whole lot of ppl around us were rotarians, their families, and other interactors. lotsa ppl from the district council were there and what not.

the game was pretty cool. heeeeeeeeeeeeeeecka hot. but still fun. i had a chance to talk to michelle. and we made a friend from afar. his name was chris aka kevin aka sleepy boy aka young life. haha. but THANK YOU SOOOOOO MUCH FOR COMING MICHELLE. i would've been booooored w/o you. sarmad and slava can provide only so much entertainment, haha j/k. oo! hunter and caught like two balls (well ppl caught them and gave 'em to them), they got an arrowhead towel, and an A's lawn chair. i was like wth...it's cuz they're small, cute, and blonde. haha michelle and i were saying they were gonna be heartbreakers in high school.

so we're walking in the parking lot and skyler sees a van pull out of a parking spot and under it is one of thsoe blue handicap signs...so he's like RUNNING FULL SPEED chasing that van. and everyone behind him is laughing. it was so funny. he comes back and it turns out the tag ddin't belong to the van. haha. so we get back on the motor home and while we're driving out of the parking lot skyler's shouting at this gruop of ppl we're passing and waving the ball he got from the game. he's like "hey look what i got....i have a ball and u dont!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!" the ppl sitting in front of their motor home are yelling back also and they say "we have one too!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!" and they wave it at him. by now we're pasing them so skyler pulls back the screen sticks his entire head out and turns around saying "BUT MINE IS MAJOR LEAGUE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!"

that kid is so funny. for some reason we all got to talking about drugs. speed, cocaine, iono what else. and it's so hilarious cuz his parents are sitting up front and he says "yeah heroine is tyt..." slava and i start cracking up. that kid is like ten. haha. and sarmad made an interesting revelation. there is a family bigger than his. haha, when he found out michelle's was bigger he goes "damn, that's a lot of ppl. you win." haha. fun day chilling with my interact officers and our two amigos, hunter and skyler. well i'm tired now and i'm going to play tennis......haha, bye bye

since everyone's xanga is down, i'm limited in whose online journals im reading. so im reading douggie's and i see this:

"Hmm... while everyone's xanga is down, Steph and I are happily blogging away @ blogger.com =D Told ya xanga was for newbies =P"

hahahahaha. i started cracking up. "happily blogging away". i love that phrase. right now im happily blogging away. *whistles and grins* all u xanga suckers =P. hehe.

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well im in a much better move than yesterday. i was so pissed last night. so i was praying and talking to God. asked if it was meant that i shouldn't try out for tennis that i shouldn't make varsity. if i should go on this trip, hoping that it could be changed or something. and i fall asleep right after that. and i literally woke up with my prayers answered. it was so cool. cuz my mom calls and im still in bed and she leaves a message on the machine saying that they're gonna remake the reservations to thurs fri sat. and i woke up listening to that. pretty amazing huh? =D. so even though it's only one extra day it's better than two days right? so im really thankful that i still get to try out for more than half of the tryout days. well the other side is that i dont really wanna go. one: cuz it'll be boring as heck. my sis isn't going, i have no friends, it's just me and my parents. joy huh?. and two: it's a freaking vacation and my dad has no job. i won't go into detail with that. but yeah i dont see why the freaking heck we're taking this damn vacation. *rolls eyes*. i dont understand my parents judgement.

neways.....the funniest thing happened the other day. there was a wasp on the porch, so my dad takes the fly swatter and goes out to kill it. he swipes at it and misses. instead he hits the porch and half of the fly swatter FLIES onto the roof. literally. he shows me the fly swatter and the half the rubber part of the fly swatter is missing....hahaha. so i take a chair and look up onto the roof. lol. there's half a fly swatter lying up there now. hahahaha. i wonder if it'll ever come down.

well seeing as how the hospital orientation was the MOST boring thing EVER, my training today was the second most boring thing ever. ergh. i was trained by this one old dude. and it was dead. literally dead. cuz it's the gift shop. not that many ppl go. and i couldn't bring nethign i could work on cuz it was still my training. that old guy was soooooooooo picky. i was writing this letter and he goes "oo, u have to leave a margin." im thinking im mailing a damn receipt. and im not even typing. the person will look at it then throw it away. wth, me not leaving a margin is not a big deal compared to my shit handwriting. well at least sunday im being trained by juniors so that'll be more eventful than that old guy. ill have ppl to talk to. yet another boring day. and two more to come. but im going to a baseball game on saturday! =D. besides the fact that i dont follow baseball, dont cheer for a team, and never been to a game.....it'll still be fun. haha, first time for everything. im going with sarmad, slava, and megan. me and sarmad are like the odd ppl out since slava and megan are baseball fans. o well.

that paragraph was long. neways. blogger is so much better than xanga. notice how it's still working and it's not down. and note to peter..it is NOT gay. hehe, later.

before neone read this.....its a very hateful entry.....if u notice i use fuck ten times. and knowing me....yeah that means im mad.

omg....my dad is hella fucking dumb. oh yeah, i used the f-word, im pissed off. my darling father made reservations to go up north to the redwoods for three nights. not bad right? nooooo........very baaaaad. he made them DURING TENNIS TRYOUTS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! THE LAST THREE DAYS OF TRYOUTS! and he tells me AFTER he makes them. i mean...what IS that????????? out of five days i can only go for two days. and of those two days the first day is total crap. cuz it's like collecting forms, talking about practice...all that shit. there is NO way i can make varsity like this!!!!!!!!!! cuz tryouts week is when the coaches separate ppl they cut, jv, and varsity. and once the season starts ppl get moved aruond, but that's WITHIN varsity or jv. ppl dont get moved from JV TO VARSITY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! i'll be there for one day of REAL tryouts, but the varsity potentials will be there the whole week. so the coach will see THEM not me. and i SUCKED last season. not to sound conceited, but i hella improved. and i want the coaches to see that and guess my roundabout rank.

so i'm telling my dad that i need to be on tennis. and he says "colleges dont care about some high school sport." wth right? then i tell him yes they do and it needs to be varsity. and he says "well then just be on jv and put varsity on ur college app". im thinking u can't fucking lie on ur college app. and he thinks i didnt tell them about tennis tryouts. i was about to throw a fucking pillow at his head. i told them SOOOOOOOOOOO many times about tryouts. i wrote it on the fucking calender. but they dont listen!!!!!!!! why??????? cuz they're hella dumb. my parents...they dont give a SHIT unless it's about school. they dont care about what i do in interact or my tennis. today my dad asks, why do u still do community service if ur done with ur hours? i mean not only is that the 100th time he's asked that....but how do i explain that? "because i have a fucking heart, that's why". i mean damn......after two years of interact he doesnt know

so far im mad cuz my tennis tryouts are screwed and all. but i get home from tennis and it gets UGLY. i appeal to mom and she thinks we should just not go. why go if im pissed, it wont be fun. she does have a poiint....but to my dad. that is ULTIMATE BULLSHIT. this is a SUPER condensed version.

dad: everything u ask i say yes but suddenly i ask for a vacation and u dont want to go?
dad: a family doens't work like that...everything for u positive and everything for me is negative. NO.
at this part i am so amused im trying to keep from laughing. i just have a bemused expression on my face.
dad: when have i ever said no for u to do nething?
dad: never. when u went with ashley to vacation i let you
im thinking....yeah, after serena and my mom suckered u in
dad: if u dont go this time that's fine, but from now on everything u want to do i'll say no. EVERYTHING u ask from now on will be a negative
here im thinking....BULLSHIT! ur bark is worse than ur bite...u never enforced that "u can only go out once a week" rule.
dad: i never wanna hear u talk about not going or ur tennis ever again. ur going, that's it. i dont give a shit about ur tennis.
mom: do w/e u want. i dont care nemore
im thinking...i WOULD do that but if u haven't noticed im being forced to go.

im so fucking pissed. right now it's morre than just missing tryouts. its

1)missing tryouts
2)his fucking unreasonableness
3)how he takes NO interest in my life and doesn't understand it
4)how fucking controlling he is
5)and how he fucking doesnt give a damn....doesn't listen.....nothing.

im sooooo pissed. i tried to reasonable. told him i would go.....i wanted to. but the timing was wrong. and he cant change it. week after i start schoo. the week before they're in l.a. and omg he thinks i dont wanna go just cuz id rather be home.....omg!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! it's just the fucking timing!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! shiiiiiiiiit. im hellllla mad. if i dont make varsity OR get the coffee job i dont know what ill do....later days.

i noticed that every morning i wake up and lie in bed for like five minutes trying to figure out what day it is. seriously. i never keep track nemore. anyways, my day was much more eventful than yesterday. had lunch with peter at in n out. then went to his house to watch pearl harbor. first time i saw it, and i didnt' even finish watching it cuz i had to go home. haha. i watched like two hours of it out of three hours. "that's acceptable" though. i got to spend time with peter ;D omg, and peter shut up about the secret button thing...mr. i beleived harry potter was real. yep, that's right, so shut it =P.

neways.....i need to finish watching that movie someday even if peter told me the ending. oh well. this day was mucho better than the seven hour orientation. erg. well my mom is totally getting on my case about junior year. acts as if i've NEVER thought about the coming year......im not DUMB, no shit i've thought about it. and she's hecka bugging me about my SAT work and all. grrrrr.....and my dad randomly comes up with "u have to get a 1400". i made the mistake of laughing and my mom says im not even trying to get a high score, yadda yadda yadda. and omg my dad.....he takes no interest in my life then comes up with that line......hecka dumb. neways....ppls who are questioning who charles is now due to my profile, can see the whole convo.

LiPsOnFiRe19: and omg......im GETTING LIKE PORN EMAIL!
LiPsOnFiRe19: WTH
LiPsOnFiRe19: it's not porn
LiPsOnFiRe19: but it's like enlarge ur penis size
LiPsOnFiRe19: IM NOT A FREAKING GUY
LiPsOnFiRe19: I DONT HAVE A PENIS......
CR4ZY aZn bOy: LOL
CR4ZY aZn bOy: i get..
CR4ZY aZn bOy: breast enlarger
CR4ZY aZn bOy: ...
LiPsOnFiRe19: HAHHAAHHHAHAHHAH
LiPsOnFiRe19: damn
LiPsOnFiRe19: ppl can't decipher genders apparently
CR4ZY aZn bOy: i do need a slight breast enlarger
CR4ZY aZn bOy: jus slightly
LiPsOnFiRe19: WTH
CR4ZY aZn bOy: to look like i have pecs
CR4ZY aZn bOy: yess...
LiPsOnFiRe19: u need a breast enlarger??????
LiPsOnFiRe19: hahahahahahhaa
CR4ZY aZn bOy: PECS ARE GOODD
LiPsOnFiRe19: uh huh
CR4ZY aZn bOy: BREASTS are better

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omg....today i experienced the funnest thing ever. i sat on my a$$ for SEVEN HOURS watching videos and powerpoint presentations. i am not even lying. u probably figured out by now i was kidding about the fun part. they showed ALL THIS SHIT that i bet noone in that room remembered. there was so much info i was thinking....you ppl are jack@$$es!!!!!!!!!!!! noone cares! noone remembers!!!!!! neways my washington hospital orientation started at 8:00. but i thought it said 8:40. stupid me, later i figured out that 8:40 was the time of my doctors appt last week. it wasn't the time of the orientation. neways so i dont get there till 8:45. oops. but as the orientation progressed i came to the conclusion that if i showed up at 12:00 noone notice and noone would care.

to describe the orientation is very difficult. imagine being in mr.wharton's class for seven hours straight with no labs. so all u do is sit at ur desk, in bio, with mr. wharton for seven hours STRAIGHT. imagine that. got the picture in your head? now this orientation was WORSE than that. yes, hard to imagine isn't it? but this orientation was worse than hui, worse than wharton. and that's comparing it to sitting in those classes for hours a time. for those that dont have those classes...washing dishes, doing laundry, scrubbing the entire house, bathrooms and all....would be MUCH more fun than that orientation. now u have an idea at the extent of my boredom.

if i didn't have ANYONE to talk to i would be hecka more bored. cuz i thought noone would be there since SARMAD AND LU didn't turn in their forms so they couldn't go, but actually when i got there i saw rakesh and manoj. so they were company. and i met someone named david from KHS whose gonna be a senior. i felt so bad for him....he looked more bored than i did...and the other half of the time he wasn't looking bored he was sleeping. only good part was the lunch. we got to make our own sandwiches. it was complete with chips, sodas, cookies and what not. but that was the ONLY good part. so neone whose going i advise them to bring something, sarmad....aka ur palm pilot or sumthing.

oh and hecka dumber. in the letter they said "dress comfortably". so i think oh we're getting a tour of the hospital, we're gonna be walking. but noooooo....they wanted us to dress comfortably so we could SIT! that was a freaking waste of my freaking day. then i gotta call them to arrange a THREE DAY training session. DAMN. all this to freaking volunteer. by the end of that orientation i wanted to BURN the projector and the screen. not to mention the first idiot that was talking. he was cracking all these jokes and he was the only one laughing at them. it was so dumb. mr. wharton wannabe. so neways i got home went to costco and got my pictures back from rollins lake! woot! neways i'm off to salvage what's left of my day, er, night. bye bye

so im talking to peter on the phone last night, and i tell him that harry potter is based on a true story. hahahaha i didn't think he would beleive me....but he does! hahaha, i told him hogwarts really was a school not for real witches and wizards but they practiced witchcraft there. hahaha, he got suckered in. it was sooooo funny. he's like "really???". i was cracking up. =D

Photoduck03: ok heres my view
Photoduck03: dont interupt or i'll throw you into a trash can
Photoduck03: =P
LiPsOnFiRe19: or a book drop
Photoduck03: (doug says some stuff i'll omit from here)
LiPsOnFiRe19: uh we weren't planning to go to the movies.....but go on
Photoduck03: you interupted you need to be put in a trashc an =P
Photoduck03: jk

u see....we were at the library before the president's meeting started and doug wanted to throw me in a trash can, as usual. but there wasn't one that was big enough. so apparently he upgraded to a.....BOOK DROP. haha, yes, he tried to throw me into a book drop. that is sisterly and brotherly love right there man.

heeeecka funny today at the park i was playing tennis, and i was talking to ruthann about the movie bad boys II. soooo funny. "they FUCK like us". hahahaha, and when reggie was at the door..."can u fight nigga? can u fight?". and "man looking like ludacris...move BITCH get out the way! get out the way!". hahahaha, hecka funny. i couldn't hit straight.

neways today woke up at 5 freaking forty am. but soooo worth it. it was a hecka fun project. salvation did a project where they gave a group of low income kids each 100 bucks to go shopping with at mervyns. they ranged from grade K-8 and it was hecka cool. good times shopping. =D. me and ash partnered up with Jannette, a twelve year old. we hit the juniors dept and went crazy with the clothes. hahaha. it was so fun though. and thank you peter so much for driving us! muah! and douggie too for driving the newark ppl...u guys got up hecka early just to drive us. u guys are the bestest!!!!!! oo and thanks douggie ever so much for your advice. you should have a dear abby type thing...only this'll be called dear douggie. haha.

then after that fun event we went to the president's meeting. but not before some good ol' racing on the freeway. first it was douggie racing us (we were in alan's car). whenever one of us passed the other we flipped them off. haha. paula and her convulsions doing the "friends" flip off. hahahaha, looked like she was having a seizure. then we see doug HECKA speed up and we see peter race by. so they raced. hahaha. dang, we almost hit 100. we were like at 97. oh so close. alan was like "c'mon baby, c'mon baby" but a car pulled in front of us. dang. but then we saw doug change lanes like mad...we're like wth....then we see peter's car racing with doug. hahaha.

president's meeting....OMG THREE AND A HALF HOURS LONG!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! heeeeeeeecka long. but dr.king came to speak, he was at the spring banquet and he gave a good speech. i went with alan and i saw laura there. it was good to see her. her msj interact shirts were heeeeecka cool. and i saw PERCY!!!!!!! OMG PERCY IT WAS SOOOOOO GOOD TO SEE YOU!!!!!! HAVEN'T SEEN YOU FOR FREAKING EVER!!!!!!!!! give me a call we'll hang some time. oh and btw THANKS for punching me when u saw me.....that was DEFINITELY the greeting i was looking for. haha, j/k it was good to see you. neways my dad was yelling at me earlier cuz i wasn't taking a shower. i was like wth...my sister comes home at 1am and takes a shower and does he notice? neways im out. bye bye

saw bad boys II with peter today. it was a good movie. heeeeecka funny, but it was too long. one of the chase scenes went on FOREVER. it was two and a half freaking hours. it needed to be shortened but other than that it was funny. hahaha, "rat fuckers!". and then there was "chitty chitty bang bang". hahahahaha. hecka funny cussing in that movie. "fucking beautiful". hahaha, yeah i had many laugh attacks in that theatre

so neways today the weirdest thing happened. well my sister needs to get her car oil changed, wheels aligned, new license plate sticker. all that junk. well she wasn't doing it, and my parents were heeecka nagging her. and today im eating lunch and my dad just comes up to me and starts YELLING at me about serena. im like oookay. he goes "WHEN YOU GET A CAR DONT' ABUSE IT LIKE HER! HER CAR IS GONNA GO TO CRAP SOON!!!!!". and damn he was soooooo serious. im thinking i dont even have a freaking permit cuz u dont wanna pay for my drivers ed. so i had to try so hard to contain my laughter. i was like CRACKING UP inside. hahahaha.

the other day i was eating dinner and my dad suddenly brings up "your mom doesnt' want u to play tennis at night anymore." i swear to goodness my heart stopped. if someone videotaped me they would've seen my face blanch. i had food halfway to my mouth and i just dropped it. after a few seconds of COMPLETE shock i came to my sense and realized i had to fight for myself. hahaha, my mom caved easily.

let's see....oo! just got back from an interact officers meeting/barbecue at alan's house. it went pretty well. talked about stuff for next year, ate good food, talked to good ppl...haha. it was cool...and sarmad...I SAID RENOIR FIRST. I SWEAR TO GOODNESS I SAID IT FIRST! grrrrrr.....anyhoot, i have to wake up at 5:40am tomorrow. oh dang that's gonna be hard. well im off to go sign some yearbooks. later

yesterday when i was practicing my serves i hit my racket HEEEEECKA hard on my shin. it hurt for like a minute but then the pain went away. today i wake up and i see a bruise. and i swear it gets bigger EVERY hour. and now it huuuuuuurts sooooooooooooooo badly. like it REALLY hurts. right on my freaking shins DAMN. and omg, im sooooo frusturated. like every day i get more pissed off. cuz i have NO control over my forehand. like it's either in the net or it's out when i do forehand. and im so mad. i probablly won't make varsity and i guess i should've been expecting it but it's still sad. i'm feeling kinda depressed now. *sigh* cuz i REALLY wanted to make varsity SO badly. i mean im a freaking JUNIOR next year. and i SHOULD be on varsity....but iono if i can make it. honestly, im not that good and i dunno why i was expecting before to make it. i just got my hopes up and now they're down again. cuz i wont make it...la de la de la, im kinda sad now.

so neways interact officers meeting tomorrow. we're having a BBQ and doug is officially "handing over the club" to us. yeps. hmmm, that reminds me of the whole selection process for the officers. i'll just keep my thoughts to myself. i hope our club does okay next year. oo! i was reading douggies site and i saw a convo he had with alan....he's like INFECTING ppl with the idea to throw me in a trash can. dang. great brother i have rite? hehe, nite now.

today i woke up at 7:45 so i could get poked and prodded at 8:40. another words i had a physical check up. soo early, alllll so i could be poked at. it was wonderfullly fun, i guess. in addition to the regular check up i had a...dun dun dun, get ready for this......X-RAY!!!!!!!!!!! WOOOOOOOOT!!! hahahahahahaha, anything to liven up my day. then my dad dragged me to the mall so he could get a wallet. lucky me.

soo tennis....going SO horribly!!!!!!!!!!i CANNOT serve. omg, i wanna MUTILATE someone with my racket. iono if that'll help me serve but it'll relieve some frusturation. aaaaaaaaarrrrrrrrgh! i NEED to know how to serve. and when i say i dont know, that's not another phrase for saying i suck....that means I DONT KNOW.....i CAN'T. goodness. sigh. our team is sooooooo gonna suck this year. dang pray for our team. hope we dont get SLAUGHTERED!

day three of no aim. going pretty well actually =D. well it's a busy week this week. hmmm...i luv yellow watermelon! well my sister's feeling depressed now, i need to break out some consolation food....yes sweets and sugar at 11pm...it's not that bad. i mean sarmad eats dinner now. haha, well im out

so i went with my dad to drop my grandma off at the airport. she's going to china for six months. yeeeeeeeah long time. she's been doing this every year. stays in the US for six months then goes to china for the other half of the year. and everytime i guess it doesn't really affect me. i know she's coming back and all. and i hardly go with my dad to drop her off. and whenver i did i hated it. but i guess this time is different. ever since my dad got laid off (a year and a half ago) i saw a lot more of my grandma. we went out to eat more (that's the chinese way....eat) and she asked me a lot about school and what not. at first it was weird, but then i got used to it cuz i saw how proud i made her. like she was REALLY proud of me. my parents dont comment on my work a lot but my grandma made me feel important and everything.

and before six months passed by quick. cuz my grandma doesn't live with me, she lives with my uncle's family in fremont. but it seems now i'll miss her more. and she's getting older...i think she's like 80 or 81 now. and my grandma's always been in good health and stuff but i would LOVE for her to see me graduate high school. she said so herself also. that'd she wanted to die AFTER she saw me and my cousin graduate. and to know that's all she REALLY wants...made me feel so special.

so neways, since i've been spending more time with my grandma, obviously my dad has also. and i could tell he didn't want her to leave. he almost started crying. he wasn't like crying, but he was like tearing. and that got me thinking, six months. well i just thought that when she comes back i'll make her prouder. cuz shes' really done a lot for me. and she totally beleives in me. like for my school production of ARSENIC AND OLD LACE freshman year...she was really happy that i was in it. i mean my parents think that's it's all in good fun but i dont think they understand how much i really luv acting. but my grandma was so proud when she found out i was doing performances.

well iono, it was sad to see her go. and im just waiting till she gets back. since she's been around my whole life, im finding it hard to imagine life without her. before, and this was just like a year and a half ago....i was sure i wouldn't cry if she passed away. cuz i was never close with her and i didn't see her a lot. but now i can't picture her not being around. well until she gets back i'll do my best in everything. and i'll be praying that God brings her home safely.

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anyhoot...today was sarmad's bday. so me, steph, and lu walked over to his house to surprise him with a gift. beforehand steph calls and tells him she's sorrie she can't give him her gift and that she wishes him happy bday neways and she'll see him at tennis tomorrow. so...us three are walking through the complex...with our hella cool ninja walk...that lu practiced for an hour...hahaha. so we get there, knock, and sarmad was expecting us. cuz when steph was on the phone her dad was talking and he thought her dad was lu. yeeeeeah, accoding to him "all u fobs sound the same." lol. steph and lu got him a tennis bag and i got him a superman shirt. hehe, it's great surprsing ur friends, even if they ARE expecting it. hahaha. oo! im cutting myself off from aim for a week...yeah cuz im heeecka busy this week and aim takes up too much time. im going cold turkey. yeah we'll see if that works. well im out

The Anticipation
(Author Unknown)

I looked around for him
Not seeing
Not noticing
Not caring
About anyone else in the crowd

My eyes quickly scanned the throng of people
Some thinking
Some laughing
Some talking
Until they fell on him

My heart started thumping wildly
In hope
In fear
In anticipation
Just for him to look my way

I walked by and waved hello
A friendly wave
A tentative wave
A daring wave
So that he would notice

When his eyes fixed onto mine
My heart fluttered
My hope soared
My eyes sparkled
And a smile stretched across my face

I slowed my pace and said hello
Searching his eyes
Searching for the same feeling
Searching for a meaning
And to my consternation I did not find it

He spoke with caution and seemed
Uncomfortable
Disquieted
Awkward
And I in turn felt the same

My heart stopped
My smile faded
My eyes dropped
My hope disappeared

There was no more anticipation.

I thought that was a really interesting poem. anyways...
HAPPY BIRTHDAY SARMAD!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

so i was looking at tracy's profile. and i saw an upside down question mark....i was like wth?????? of course i had to find out how to do that.

LiPsOnFiRe19: ¿
ChOisEe12: hehe yay
LiPsOnFiRe19: oo! snaps! that's tyt
LiPsOnFiRe19: dang i can make the weirdest things with the alt button
LiPsOnFiRe19: ¤
LiPsOnFiRe19: Ö
ChOisEe12: haha
LiPsOnFiRe19: Ä
LiPsOnFiRe19: wth....i never knew this exisisted
LiPsOnFiRe19: æ
LiPsOnFiRe19: what are these things?
LiPsOnFiRe19: like greek letters?
ChOisEe12: haha yeah i think so
ChOisEe12: you can do french letters too i think
ChOisEe12: like..that c looking thing
ChOisEe12: haha
LiPsOnFiRe19: oooohhhhh
ChOisEe12: iono what it's called. i didn't take french
LiPsOnFiRe19: i take french
LiPsOnFiRe19: and iono what it's called
ChOisEe12: lol

and naturally i need to show off my new skillz. hahahahaha, me and laura got hooked.

LiPsOnFiRe19: ¿
LiPsOnFiRe19: i just learened that
CuTeLiLaZnGaL: ???
CuTeLiLaZnGaL: haha howd you do that
LiPsOnFiRe19: alt 168
CuTeLiLaZnGaL: ¿
CuTeLiLaZnGaL: puahahahhaha
LiPsOnFiRe19: yay!
CuTeLiLaZnGaL: FUNSTUFF
CuTeLiLaZnGaL: ±
CuTeLiLaZnGaL: ¼
LiPsOnFiRe19: hahaah
LiPsOnFiRe19: how'd u make that plus minus sign
CuTeLiLaZnGaL: im having too much fun
CuTeLiLaZnGaL: uhh i dunno
CuTeLiLaZnGaL: i just pressed randomly
CuTeLiLaZnGaL: =D
CuTeLiLaZnGaL: ô
LiPsOnFiRe19: HAHAHAHAH
CuTeLiLaZnGaL: â
CuTeLiLaZnGaL: =D
CuTeLiLaZnGaL: okay ill stop now

hahahahaha. hecka cool. i can make a cross Alt 0134 †
and of course mickey mouse alt 167 ºoº
haha, good stuff

i swear i go through so many mood swings. cuz i was in a good mood from the lunch. then i got home and i was soooo tired. so i took a nap, and i was sleeping at the foot of my bed. well my desk is at the foot of my bed and since my bed is wider than one part of my bed...it sticks out. so i turned over and hit my right cheekbone on the corner of my desk. i literally woke up and said "fuck". that huuuuuurt sooooooo bad. so after that i was so frusturated with everything....my crappy tennis playing, my crappy SAT score, my crappy dad who won't let me take drivers ed, and like other stuff. but then i went to tennis, and THANK YOU SO MUCH HAN!!!!!!!!!!!!!! he made me laugh HECKA. i mean a lot.....we were laughing so hard. han's a funny man. him and fruit were playing BIG two, also known as BIG TWO KINGS AND BEGGARS (mix asian and british game). hahahaha.

neways. so my sister is sitting on a chair holding the refigerator door open and staring into it....i think she may be stoned. hmmmm. well i'll always rememer august third....the day i became unconfused....and much more happy! =D

hectic morning. chen calls me at 10:30 and tells me she can't give me and steph c. a ride to hometown buffet today. so then i call lu. steph is at the hospital volunteering. and we're like trying to figure soemthign out. after ONE FREAKING HOUR we figure out that me and steph will take the 213 bus at 12:16 from the Fremotn BART station and to develop a plan. haha. i call steph leave a LOOOOOOOOOONNG message on her cell. her shift isn't over until 12 but by then i have to leave my house to walk to washington. so then i RE-RECORD my answering machine. first saying if this is steph cheung stay on the line. i say all the usuall stuff then spend like three minutes explaining to steph what we need to do to make it to the bus on time. argh! THEN steph shows up at my house at 11:30. im like wth are u doing here. she tells me she ended early. im like no shit.....

hahaha. neways. we do get there a little late but w/e. we cut through the mall, say hi to peter cuz he's working then head to hometown. so the lunch was good..and it was really fun also. there was me, lu, sarmad, steph, chen, han, fruit, and konner. and i swear chen is like lu's mom. his knife wasn't cutting the meat so she goes "lemme go find another knife for you". then she coems back and says "let me cut it for you". then later on she's talking about filing lu's nails. and then we're eating dessert and she goes, lemme get an ice cream cone for you. i mean yes chen's nice....but omg steph and me were cracking up sooooooo hard. hahahaha. oo! and when we were getting our first plates of food me and steph come back to the table with the EXACT same food on our plates: spaghetti, macaroni, and mashed potatoes. hahaha. i guess we think alike. hehe

then steph tells lu and sarmad about a game with sugar packets...she shouldn't have done that. u take a sugar packet and u flick it toward the person across the table from you trying to get half the packet on the table and the otehr half hanging over the edge. it doesn't even need to be half. it can be like a little corner that's hanging off. so if that happens the other person has to eat the sugar packet. yeah, they were a little addicted to that. haha, but it was a mucho fun lunch.

and since konner's leaving for HK tonight it was cool to have the lunch before he left. anyways, have fun konner! (dont get SARS). haha. im out

today i went to dinner with my family cuz my grandma's leaving for china on tuesday for six months. so i was there....and i was HECKA mad cuz i found out ariane wasn't coming. but i got there and she was there.....for some strange reason. but neways. it was a good dinner. hecka funny.....my chopsticks fell on the ground so my cousin (she's 11) asked the waiter for chopsticks and four glasses of water. so he comes back with a pair of chopsticks, a fork, and one glass of water. im looking at the fork, thinking WTH? then my cousin goes there's only one glass of water...then i start cracking up. idiot waiter brought a FORK instead of FOUR glasses of water.....dang me and my cousins were laughing soooooooo hard.

lol....me and cousins are so strange. haha, when me and ariane get together things get crazy. there was rice in one of my cousin's hair, and ariane sees it. so she means to say there's rice in ur hair. but instead she says "there's hair on ur head". lol, helllllla funny. i was choking on my water. hahaha, u had to be there.

well it took me FREAKING 45min to figure out a ride to and from hometown buffet for lu and sarmad's bday. arghs! neways. it's done and what not.....that took too long. o well. im out

yesterday i went to the mall with my sis, and we were at VS. there were two new lotion smells so i wanted to spray the body spray and see what it smelled like. well i didn't want to spray it on me since i dont like body spray, so i sprayed it in front of me and i was gonna walk into it and smell it (like i usually do). well stupid me. i literally WALK into the stuff i sprayed...which i sprayed at EYE LEVEL. and omg....that stuff BUUUUURRRRNED. damn that hecka hurt my eyes. they were like twitching madly. i couldn't see nething. i looked like a loser trying to find my way around the store with shit burning in my eyes.

moving on...there was this little girl at VS...2 and a half. she was soooo cute. im just sitting there and she comes up and goes "hi". her name was lauren...haha, she had some trouble saying stephanie. i dont blame her, my name is freaking long. she was so cute though. she kept on walking away then coming back and saying hi.

so i come home and start assembling lu's bday gift which passed by on the 29th...so me and steph were a little late, no biggie. so i called her and we had to make a plan to give him the gift. so i go to tennis. and as usual sarmad and lu walk me home. i go upstairs and call steph to come. she comes and we drive over to sarmad's apt. so he can walk us to his house. there was a little glitch in the plan there cuz sarmad WASN'T waiting outside. then im like oops, i was supposed to wait for him to call me when he got home...THEN head over. yeah, stupid me once again. well he came like five minutes later from his apt. then we walk over to lu's apt. sarmad takes his cell phone, calls lu, and tells him to open his door. apparently...LU IS TAKING A SHOWER! we're thinking....ooh, he's ABOUT to take a shower. but when lu opens the door (according to him, about to cuss out sarmad), he sees me and steph there. hahaha, and you should've seen the LOOK on his face. he looked soooo dazed and surprised. cuz from what i saw, he was literally IN the shower when we called. his hair was wet, and he smelled like he just got out of the shower. but it was so great to see his face when me and steph gave him our combined gift. hahaha, priceless. so us three left thinking "who takes the phone with them in the shower?" haha, later lu explained it:

LiPsOnFiRe19: neways....why did u answer the phone when u were in the showr?
fobzrock 1 5: k
fobzrock 1 5: lemme tell u what happened
fobzrock 1 5: im getting out of the shower
fobzrock 1 5: k
fobzrock 1 5: and u know
fobzrock 1 5: then the phone rings
fobzrock 1 5: but both phones are up stairs in my room
fobzrock 1 5: so im like FUCK!
fobzrock 1 5: i go pick it up
fobzrock 1 5: and sarmad says
fobzrock 1 5: open ure door
fobzrock 1 5: im like "fack you im butt naked"
fobzrock 1 5: so i put on some clothes
fobzrock 1 5: and i am about to tell sarmad to go home
fobzrock 1 5: i open the door and was about to start cursing
fobzrock 1 5: lol
LiPsOnFiRe19: hahahahaha
LiPsOnFiRe19: then there's me and steph
fobzrock 1 5: i guess NO ONE DISTURBES MY SHOWER except for u three lol
LiPsOnFiRe19: hahahahahahaha
LiPsOnFiRe19: we were thinking
LiPsOnFiRe19: WHY is he in the shower with a phone?
fobzrock 1 5: lol
fobzrock 1 5: im like damn!!!
fobzrock 1 5: ran out

12 Things That Annoy Me
1. telemarketers
2. kids who flick rubberbands at their babysitters
3. those weird aim faces -_- ^_^
4. when ppl call me stephie (with the exception of jenn and zakiya)
5. egotistical maniacs
6. rude ppl
7. ppl with no respect for others religions
8. girls who look like dolls (aka excessive makeup)
9. narrow minded ppl
10. Bush administration
11. ppl who make fun of me in perlman's class...waaaaaaaay too much
12. ppl who slack off and dont pull their weight in a group

11 People I Like To Be With
1. ash
2. interact buddies
3. all the tennis ppl at the park
4. zakiya
5. jo
6. ariane (my cousin)
7. serena (my sister)
8. peter
9. amina
10. matthew
11. our sophomore circle on the couch during READ period in Kameis

10 Things I'm Looking Forward To
1. making new friends =D
2. Tennis Season
3. junior prom
4. marathon dance
5. meeting my sister's "guy"
6. sleepover
7. burning down coldstones
8. 2003-2004 Interact year
9. my bday!
10. new season of charmed and alias

9 Things Worn Daily
1. charm bracelet
2. cross necklace
3. underwear
4. shirt
5. pants
6. bra
7. some sort of shoes
8. hairtie (in my hair or on my wrist)
9. my heart on my sleeve (haha, j/k)

8 Movies I'd Watch Over and Over
1. Finding Nemo
2. Lilo and Stitch
3. Monsters Inc.
4. HARRY POTTER
5. any of the older disney movies (peter pan, little mermaid, etc.)
6. LORD OF THE RINGS
7. Mulan
8. A Beautiful Mind

7 Places I'd Like To Go
1. East Coast
2. Europe
3. Snowboarding or any other snow sports
4. RYLA!!!!!
5. South America
6. Africa
7. Australia

6 Things I Touch Everyday
1. my hair
2. food
3. stuffed animals
4. clothes
5. bed
6. tennis racket (well i try to)

5 Things I Do Everyday
1. tennis
2. blog, aim
3. eat
4. laugh
5. pray

4 Foods I Couldn't Live Without
1. chinese food
2. watermelon
3. strawberries
4. cereal


3 Favorite Song of the Moment
1. Michelle Branch: Goodbye to you
2. DJ Sammy: Candlelight Remix
3. The Ataris: Boys of Summer

2 People Who Influence My Life
1. ppl at my old christian schools
2. friends and family

1 Person I Could Spend the Rest of My Life With
1. Sean Biggerstaff

i had a really fun day. whoopeee! hehe. well i slept over at my cousin's house wednesday night. it was fun cuz we're so busy we dont talk that much so that night we stayed up talking till like 4am. yeeeeeah. and we watched amelie. french film. hecka good. it's really different, but it's a good movie. hecka funny also. i mean the movie has like an obsession with orgasms but it's a good movie. it was like 2am and we were talking and what not....i was SO awake. i have no idea why. but i was REALLY awake. haha. but 4am we turned in. it was nice talking to her.

woke up the next day at 10. and then......MINI GOLF. yeps. i hung out with Ariane and her friend Scott. yeah, theyr'e hecka cool to chill with....and yay! new friend. haha. i've been meeting new ppl like crazy over the summer. well me and ariane suck....badly. on the first one....i hit my golf ball into the "rocks, plants, and shrubs" a few times. so scott had to go and take 'em out.....violating the sign that said "please stay out of the rocks, plants, and shrubs. thank you". haha we had fun with that. then we hit the arcades, drank a pitcher of orange soda then went to scott's house to watch bad boys I. i forgot how funny that movie was. "you mother bitch". hahahaha. i like that part. and OMG I WANT TO LIVE IN FRONT OF SCOTT'S TELEVISION. he has the freaking HUGEST movie collection known to mankind.....like DAMN he has EVERYTHING!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! it was soooooooo tyt. hahaha.....so much selection.

then back at my cousin's house we watched My Big Fat Greek Wedding. that movie is hilarious. i love it. hhahahaha. i couldn't stop laughing. then the topic turned to hot actresses...haha and now im home. it was a fun day. missed two days of tennis, but it's cool. later