so i went with my dad to drop my grandma off at the airport. she's going to china for six months. yeeeeeeeah long time. she's been doing this every year. stays in the US for six months then goes to china for the other half of the year. and everytime i guess it doesn't really affect me. i know she's coming back and all. and i hardly go with my dad to drop her off. and whenver i did i hated it. but i guess this time is different. ever since my dad got laid off (a year and a half ago) i saw a lot more of my grandma. we went out to eat more (that's the chinese way....eat) and she asked me a lot about school and what not. at first it was weird, but then i got used to it cuz i saw how proud i made her. like she was REALLY proud of me. my parents dont comment on my work a lot but my grandma made me feel important and everything.

and before six months passed by quick. cuz my grandma doesn't live with me, she lives with my uncle's family in fremont. but it seems now i'll miss her more. and she's getting older...i think she's like 80 or 81 now. and my grandma's always been in good health and stuff but i would LOVE for her to see me graduate high school. she said so herself also. that'd she wanted to die AFTER she saw me and my cousin graduate. and to know that's all she REALLY wants...made me feel so special.

so neways, since i've been spending more time with my grandma, obviously my dad has also. and i could tell he didn't want her to leave. he almost started crying. he wasn't like crying, but he was like tearing. and that got me thinking, six months. well i just thought that when she comes back i'll make her prouder. cuz shes' really done a lot for me. and she totally beleives in me. like for my school production of ARSENIC AND OLD LACE freshman year...she was really happy that i was in it. i mean my parents think that's it's all in good fun but i dont think they understand how much i really luv acting. but my grandma was so proud when she found out i was doing performances.

well iono, it was sad to see her go. and im just waiting till she gets back. since she's been around my whole life, im finding it hard to imagine life without her. before, and this was just like a year and a half ago....i was sure i wouldn't cry if she passed away. cuz i was never close with her and i didn't see her a lot. but now i can't picture her not being around. well until she gets back i'll do my best in everything. and i'll be praying that God brings her home safely.