yesterday when i was practicing my serves i hit my racket HEEEEECKA hard on my shin. it hurt for like a minute but then the pain went away. today i wake up and i see a bruise. and i swear it gets bigger EVERY hour. and now it huuuuuuurts sooooooooooooooo badly. like it REALLY hurts. right on my freaking shins DAMN. and omg, im sooooo frusturated. like every day i get more pissed off. cuz i have NO control over my forehand. like it's either in the net or it's out when i do forehand. and im so mad. i probablly won't make varsity and i guess i should've been expecting it but it's still sad. i'm feeling kinda depressed now. *sigh* cuz i REALLY wanted to make varsity SO badly. i mean im a freaking JUNIOR next year. and i SHOULD be on varsity....but iono if i can make it. honestly, im not that good and i dunno why i was expecting before to make it. i just got my hopes up and now they're down again. cuz i wont make it...la de la de la, im kinda sad now.

so neways interact officers meeting tomorrow. we're having a BBQ and doug is officially "handing over the club" to us. yeps. hmmm, that reminds me of the whole selection process for the officers. i'll just keep my thoughts to myself. i hope our club does okay next year. oo! i was reading douggies site and i saw a convo he had with alan....he's like INFECTING ppl with the idea to throw me in a trash can. dang. great brother i have rite? hehe, nite now.