my vacation wasn't as bad as i thought it would be. on the way there we stopped at these rest areas that were SO secluded in the mountains. they were perfect places to get raped or murdered. so we get to our motel and i jaywalked across highway 101 a few times. why? cuz i was bored. haha. well also cuz there was this store across the street. so back at the hotel i flip on the television and guess what's on? TENNIS. haha, i can't escape it. damn, andy roddick serves fast. damn, andy roddick is so hot. hahahaha...yeah, u knew that was coming. so im bored at night and i call steph to see how tryouts went. and apparently keller has this plan for the lineup. and as part of the plan i am VARSITY SINGLES NUMBER FOUR. snazzy huh? after eight hours in the car, that was the best news i had all day. i was so excited, all my training over the summer paid off. so i had to call lu, told him to call kabilan, then called sarmad, and called ashley. i owe so much to my coach, kabilan...and of course the assistant coach, lu . u guys rock =D.

so back to my vacation. it was good to get away before school started. i had time to clear my thoughts and think some more. being out in the mountains and around nature helps to change ur perspective and opens ur mind to so many things. so while my parents thought i was bored out of my mind i was absorbed in my own thoughts. being out there, i felt so blessed by God. i have the coolest friends in the world that are always there for me. friends that are nice enough to help train me for tennis and are actually PROUD when i make varsity. i'm covp of interact, varsity tennis, i do well in school, i have snazzy friends, a super bf, and it seemed that i didnt' thank God nearly enough for giving me such a great life. so thank you God for totally blessing me.

i was so preoccupied with the coming school year and other things that i didnt' realize how much i had. after we took the sky trail higher up the mountain we were at this outlook place. i could see everything. and it looked so amazing. and being there, all my worries, stress, and other crap seemed insignificant. cuz being out there in God's creation i could think about the coming school year and all the shit that's been going on in my family and i felt calm. that stuff didn't really matter. i thought that up there i could sit and think about junior year and what i wanted to do, and when i did think about it, i didn't feel burdened or even the need to plan it all out.

so i let my mind wander. thought about tennis and school a whole lot....but i did so w/o feeling worried, apprenhensive, stressed or nething. and i thought....dang, im a junior. where did high school go? two years passed already. it went by so fast and then when i turn around again i'll be a senior. despite all the stress and how much i complained during the school year, i felt that these were definitely the best years ever. and then i thought that soon after i start school, peter's gonna be leaving for college. i thought about that a lot....felt kinda sad about it also. and other things circulated in my head....how it's gonna be when he leaves among other stuff.

i guess that vacation was good. i got a lot of things straightened out before school starts. and i got to climb trees =D. haha, i luv climbing trees. and i ate a scrumptious baked potato. yum! but it was good to get away from fremont. no internet connection for three days wasn't bad. i watched tennis (just like kabilan has been bugging me to do), did some hiking, and a whole lot of thinking. this was good thinking though. some of it was sad but i needed this time. sure, i could think at home. but in the mountains it's different. you feel closer to God and your thoughts dont overcrowd ur head. it was too bad i couldnt' see the stars though. it was too cloudy. which reminds me, it was soooooo cold up there that we had to turn on the heater in the motel. yeah, that cold.

out of the entire vacation only one event comes to mind where my dad is being totally dumb. i was in the car listening to my discman and my cd jumped. so im like "shoot". the same time i said shoot my dad pulled aside to this store on the mountain road, so he thought i was complaining about stopping. so we stop and he goes "i dont wanna hear that language again." im thinking oh crap, did i say shit instead of shoot? as im running the scenario through my head im like...no, im pretty sure i said shoot. im about to say something and my dad goes. "no, no, no. dont argue with me. i dont want to hear you say that again." i got so annoyed. im thinking wth....u cuss so much worse than i do. fu** comes out of ur mouth like every other sentence. i didnt' even say shit. holy crap. newho, out of three days though im surprised he didn't tick me off more. well this was a long entry. im out now.