i think this is a good time to talk about my vacation. well me, my mom, my dad, my uncle, and my three cousins went to reno. me and ariane got crazy drunk and we decided to try our hand at the slots. amazingly no one saw, or if they did they didn't care. wouldn't that be really interesting if that happened? but it didn't.....

so the first day we got there was kinda boring. i wandered around with ariane and we just talked. seems like i hadn't talked to her in aaaaages. one REALLY good thing happened that night though....i saw never been kissed for the first time....starring...dun dun dun.....MICHAEL VARTAN. haha.

the second day was MUCH more fun. we went skiing! it was me and ariane's first time, and we had sooooooo much fun =D. when we signed up for our first timer lesson they gave us this sticker tag and it said "look out! first timer". that was kinda mean....haha.

well anyways on my first run i fell sooooooooooooooooooo many times. out of those times it included crashing into a fence and almost running into a tree. hahaha. well i was going REALLY fast and i couldn't stop. i like didnt' know how. i was yelling "ahhhh...how do u stop?!?! i can't stop!!!", and then i crashed into the fence. i kind of ran into it, my skis got stuck, and i flipped over it. it hurt, but it was so freakcing funny. hahaha. then when i got up i was going heck of fast again (my instructor called me a speed demon) and i couldn't stop again. i was getting really close to a tree when i swerved just a little and fell over the tree root instead. if i crashed into it...crap that would've heck of hurt. haha.

after my first run i got the hang of things. so on our last run, me, ariane, and her brother and sister decided to go on the more advanced run. we were looking at it from the ski lift and we're like...yeah, no biggie, can't be that bad. well there was one slope that was a HECK OF a lot bigger when you're on it compared to when you're looking at it. looking at it, it's a slope......on it it's like a fricking drop. well to keep from going too fast you're supposed to zigzag, and i started to do that then i stopped cuz i was going heck of fast so i freaked out and purposely fell. hahaha. ariane was at the bottom and she saw this figure fall and slide on their butt, and she knew it was me. haha.

i almost ran into this snowboarder on that slope. cuz he was all cool and zigzagging and what not....i guess he thought i would do the same.....stupid idiot couldn't hear me yelling "AHHHH!!!MOVE!!! GET OUT THE WAY!!!! I CAN'T SLOW DOWN". so hilarious though....i was like bypassing everyone on that slope cuz i was going heck of fast. what a rush though =D. well the next day i was all sore and crap. it was nothing compared to how sore i was after doing all those water sports when i went camping, but i rode home in the backseat of a van with six other people in the car and that didn't really help. haha. skiing was so uber fun. i heck of wanna do it again =D.

i also watched josie and the pussycats. very interesting movie. alias and charmed tonight! yay!

Mood: Hillary Duff - Why Not

amina posted this comment at my xanga:

O_O
*DROOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOL* WOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOHAAAAAAAAAAA! YUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUMMMMMMMM
i think i will stare at my comupter screen for another couple of hours...or until i pass out...=D

hahahahahahaha.....omg that girl cracks me up. i have to admit though, i'm liking the new background to my xanga =D

stolen from vyechi:

~ about life ~
I am: alone
I want: everything to be o.k.
I wish: things were better
I hate: hate
I miss: being a carefree kid
I fear: growing up
I crave: life
I wonder: if i'll ever make it
I regret: nothing
I love: Jesus
I accept: anyone and everyone
I always: laugh
I cry: because it proves i'm only human
I write: to release thoughts and feelings
I never: give up
I listen: whenever someone needs me
I expect: the best from myself
I know: God is watching over me
I am not always: perfect
I believe: in God

~ for fun ~
I have: an Alias calender.....i luv michael vartan =D
I should: be doing chemistry now
I obsess: over michael vartan
I need: to watch LOTR III, mona lisa smile, haunted mansion, cat in the hat, matrix III, the last samurai
I thrive: on people's fear.....muahahahaha (j/k =P)
I lose: in monopoly to matthew (but i'm challenging him to a rematch!)
I hurt: because i went skiing and fell waaaay too many times
I sing: badly
I smell: victoria secret lotion
I think: chemistry sucks
I search: mine was 50 pages long and it was on journalism....what a tiring report
I long: to meet the cast of alias
I dance: to the music in my head
I hear: the voices in my head

Mood: All American Rejects - Time Stands Still

i went to dinner with my sister at tgif. it was yummy casual food, and it's been awhile since i went to dinner with her, so it was nice. next to our table was this asian girl and this white guy...looked like they were on one of their first dates. they made such an adorable couple. i was listening to their conversation while i was eating and it was so cute how they were both kind of awkward around each other. relationship beginnings are so sweet...

my friend: he's really shy
me: is he really?
me: doesn't seem like it
my friend: he is
my friend: not so much online
my friend: but in person he's really shy
my friend: he called me last night and we just sat there for a couple hours
my friend: like bricks
my friend: assuming bricks sit
me: LOL
me: hahahahahaha

I did it in 35 seconds.
I deserved a B-!!
Take the How Dexterous Are You? Quiz!!

thanksgiving dinner was really great. it was weird though cuz my grandma wasn't with us, she's still visiting people in China. my uncle actually called her and asked her how to make gravy since she's the one that makes it every year. it seems thanksgiving gets smaller every year. i actually miss those huge gatherings we used to have with a whole bunch of my other relatives.

i miss other things too, but i don't have regrets. cuz it was the right thing to do. but right doesn't always mean easy. huh...interesting how that works isn't it?

Mood: Michelle Branch-Goodbye To You

i'm back from vacation. i'll talk about it later, but i just noticed something REALLY weird. i posted something on monday.......i KNOW i posted something. and now it's not here. it WAS here on monday....and now it's not. and now i dont know where it went. stupid blogger. anyways, i stole this from matthew's site who stole it from ging's site

Life isn’t about keeping score. It’s not about how many people call you and it’s not about who you’ve dated, are dating or haven’t dated at all. It isn’t about who you’ve kissed, what sport you play, or which girl or guy likes you. It’s not about your shoes or your hair or the color of your skin or where you live or go to school. In fact, it’s not about grades, money, clothes, or colleges that accept you or not. Life isn’t about if you have lots of friends, or if you are alone, and it’s not about how accepted or unaccepted you are. Life just isn’t about that.

But life is about who you love and who you hurt. It’s about how you feel about yourself. It’s about trust, happiness, and compassion. It’s about sticking up for your friends and replacing inner hate with love. Life is about avoiding jealousy, overcoming ignorance, and building confidence. It’s about what you say and what you mean. It’s about seeing people for who they are and not what they have. Most of all, it is about choosing to use your life to touch someone else’s in a way that could never have been achieved otherwise. These choices are what life's about.

i went to ruthann's house today and watched finding nemo with her and her friend matt young. they were both two very deprived people and today they watched it for the first time. they are no longer finding nemo virgins. hahaha. so today makes it the fifth time i've seen the movie, and i still laugh at it. haha.

A- Age: 16
B- Boyfriend: yes
C- Chore you hate: dishes
D- Dads name: Jian
E- Essential make up item: chapstick
F- Favorite singer/band: michelle branch, matchbox 20
G- Gold or silver: gold
H- Hometown: San Francisco
I- Instruments you play: none
J- Job title: I run a whore house...j/k j/k
K- Kids: 55 kids, yes im a slut. Haha, j/k
L- Living arrangements: I live in a condo with my mom, dad, and sister)
M- Mom's name: Fuan
N- Number of piercings: one hole in each ear
O- Overnight hospital stays: none
P- Phobia: confrontation
Q- Quote you like: destiny is not a matter of chance, it is a matter of choice: it is not a thing to be waited for, it is a thing to be achieved
R- Regular drink: milk
S- Secret crush: Michael Vartan (that’s not really a secret though….)
T- Time you wake up: for school: 6:30am……weekends: 9:00am
U- Unique hobby: collecting things with my name on it
V- Vegetable you refuse to eat: pickles
W- Worst habit: wanting to do too much at once
X- X-rays uve had: my teeth, and a back scan for scoliosis
Y- Yummy food you make: instant noodles! j/k....i make a lot of good chinese food
Z- Zodiac sign: scorpio

yay! i am offically on thanksgiving break!!! woot woot!!! journalism got invited to the yearbook party cuz they finished their first deadline and we finished our deadline for the paper also so we had this celebration thingy. it was a good way to end the day. ryan was especially happy cuz after we finisehd delivering the papers ryan literally DANCED up the E-building steps and then he was DANCING on the balcony and in the E-building hallway. he was really going crazy. hahahaha.

after school today douggie took me and michelle to Qcup. it was a family outing =D. i had a snazzy convo with michelle in the car. symbolism rocks =D. so douggie bought us our drinks and we all had chicken. the chicken was REALLY good...never had it before. while we were eating we were watching music videos. someday by nickelback is a really good song, and it's a really good music video also.

when doug dropped me off at home he parked the car heck of badly. it was like half in the street half against the curb. and when he opened his door to get out a cop car passed by and he like just froze and we watched the car drive by. hahahaha. heck of funny. i saw it in slow motion. doug opening the door, stopping the door halfway, and watching the cop car. hahaha.

thanks for the birthday treats doug!!!! really nice of you and i had a lot of fun!!! we need to go out with the whole family next time!!

my bday yesterday got heck of spiffier at night. i got a call from peter =D. AND i got a REALLY unexpected phone call from max!!!!! i haven't seen him in like four months...and haven't talked to him for HECK of days. so it was so uber spiffy that he called to wish me happy bday =D. i felt so special. i really do have the coolest friends. yay!

French iv is so freaking funny. I luv that class. So today we were playing scrabble, but instead of English words we had to form French words. we had heck of times when we were all flipping through dictionaries looking for words. It got really hard so I just started putting down French words when it wasn’t my turn. And when I suggested that we all just put down words whenever we had one reed FREAKED OUT. He’s all “NO U CAN’T DO THAT! GIGI! STOP IT!” he got so frantic he started swinging the scrabble bag over his head. And that moment Andrew walks in and sees a crazy reed screaming and swinging a scrabble bag. Soooooooooo funny. We were cracking up so hard.

So I had all these words I put down on the board and reed wouldn’t let me write down my points! I was gonna wrestle him for that paper. Haha. By the end of the period me and reed were ready to fight each other. so tomorrow we’re going all out, it’s gonna be hard core scrabble.

anchorblu88: steph... when we play full-contact, french speed-scrabble i will kick ur butt soooo bad

hahahahaha…that’s right. Scrabble is now a contact sport, and it’s a game for speed. Muahahaha. Im gonna sooooo win. =D

i had the coolest, bestest birthday ever! i undoubtedly have the bestest friends. friends don't get any cooler than mine, i luv them so much =D. thanks to alllllllllllll my friends that remembered my bday and wished me happy bday. i felt so special =D. hugs all around to all my friends that got me bday gifts:

~paula: shirt - it's really cute and it fits perfectly, thanks dear.
~jenn: snoopy/charlie brown eyeglasses case - yay! my old one was broken, and i love the peanuts gang.
~jo: dory - so coool...i can sleep on it =D
~sarmad: finding nemo dvd - omg....u so totally rock my sox. veerrrry cool gift
~amina: picture frame/photo album - im gonna go camera crazy soon. haha
~ruthann: precious moments block letters S.W. - i luuuuv personalized stuff (hmmm, my room is starting to get overcrowded with STUFF. haha)
~ashley: huuuge bear, dirt/rock, a lifesaver, wand, and a lot of her school books - thanks for the bear!!!!! not too much thanks for the dirt though....haha
~erica: handmade crown - irvington colors but it's all good, i felt spiffy
~duc: pants - they weren't exactly new, they were HIS pants and he outgrew them. but those pants are so freaking comfy. they're baggy and roomy...just like sweatpants!

before school: i get to school and ashley hands me a tiny 3 x 3 box. so im like "ha! u guys were bluffing, there are no huge boxes"

first period: i walk in and there's TWO FREAKING HUGE boxes sitting on my desk. like they are really really really big. and one is HECK of easy. there was NO way i could carry them around the whole day so i left 'em in clevvy's class.

second period: i walk into history and there's a FAT BEAR sitting in my chair..courtesy of ashley. the classes sings me happy bday...oh god, that was horrible

third period: sarmad told me about a lady who called him and his manager at washington hospital "fucking assholes" while he was volunteering there. hahahaha

fourth period: freaky little yellow stuffed animal sang happy bday to me. that thing is scary

fifth period: mr. wallach asks to hold my bear. when jo walks in the classroom she sees him hugging a bear like a little boy. hahahaha. class sings happy bday...this was REALLY funny cuz mr. wallach was making the bear dance.

sixth period: my tennis pixie pal, urshila, dropped off her gift to me. i opened it and i heck of freaked out cuz she got me an ALIAS CALENDER!!!!!! i was like ecstatic. it was soooo freaking awesome. april rules! this class is so weird. the computer lab was really hot so james was like sitting in front of the computer with his shirt rolled up. so then ryan did the same thing, and now we have two guys with their shirts rolled up showing their white stomachs and chests. hahaha.

after school: slava gave me a lift home cuz i had all my crap with me. i got home and opened ashley's boxes...omg. one box had a clump of dirt and a book. the other box had six of her school books and a pie she made in ceramics.

ah! yay! matthew just called me to wish me happy birthday!!! thaaannnks so much!!! when he called he yelled happy birthday into the phone and his voice heck of cracked...sounded like he was going through puberty. hahaha. and despite how it's my bday he was still heck of mean to me...it's okay, that's just our relationship. haha. i talked to his gf, amy also......she told me about his pillow with glow in the dark dinosaurs on it. hahahaha. so now he has a 101 dalmations blanket, tweety bird slippers, and a dinosaur pillow interesting stuff. thanks for calling though!

i luv all my friends. they are the ultimate best. they made this day so special. from all the gifts to hugs to the wishes of happy birthdays to phone calls.....everything was so super great =D. and i really do have the bestest friend in the entire world. even though the boxes were so huge, bulky, and heavy it's the fact that ash put so much time into all this. lotsa luv!!! but remember that ur birthday is payback =P. i feel so luved today =D

~Sweet Sixteen~

so far three people have said my cursor is a banana....i think im gonna change it cuz it's SUPPOSED to be a moon. hmmm..maybe over thanksgiving break. meantime, here are some pictures ruthann took at the tennis banquet. hahaha. crazy times =D http://photos.yahoo.com/dorkydorkette

im turning the big one six tomorrow. (sixteen for those ppl that can't figure it out). anyways, im seriously scared for tomorrow. NO CLUE what ash is getting me...all i know is it involves BIG BOXES. and she's already told clevenger that he can't let me leave my stuff in his classroom. my goodness....december ninth is my revenge. muahahahaha.

k, enough of that. got my chem test back. blegh. that kept me in a bad mood for about half a period. it's like i WANT to be left alone to sulk and be disappointed but the freaking funniest thing happened in fourth period. french iv ap is independent study, but we have this lady come in every tuesday...and she helps us out and stuff. it's not like she's mean or anything, but she like peers over our shoulders while we're working and corrects us. it's just kind of unnerving to have someone standing over you. so we nicknamed her madame grenouille. grenouille means frog in french =P

well she's been calling reed "kevin" for like a month. and sam, priya, and andrew have aways hear her call him that. but today for the first time i heard her call him kevin, and i just full out started laughing. i was laughing so hard, my face hurt. she honestly thinks his name is kevin, even after i wrote on his paper REED KELLY across the top. and i ALWAYS make a point to call his name. i guess she thinks that "reed" can't be a name so she assumes it's a nickname. but we have no fricking clue where she got the name KEVIN. i mean like wth?!?!?! it's so fuunnny though. reed wont tell her his real name so next time she comes i'll just be like "qui est kevin? il s'appelle reed". hahaha. so that event made me un-mad.

oo! people have been asking me left and right what i want for my birthday. so it would be really super if anyone could sponser me for the marathon dance. all the money goes to charity so it'd be a really cool if i could get donations. and that'd be a pretty snazzy gift.

haven't posted a convo for awhile....

IndraAstra: :-) thanks for the advice
LiPsOnFiRe19: yep no prob bob
IndraAstra: thanks jim
IndraAstra: so..
IndraAstra: how's the life
LiPsOnFiRe19: jim?
LiPsOnFiRe19: jim?
LiPsOnFiRe19: where'd that come from?
IndraAstra: you called me bob
IndraAstra: psh
LiPsOnFiRe19: cuz bob rhymed with prob
IndraAstra: oh
LiPsOnFiRe19: jim doesn't rhyme with thanks
LiPsOnFiRe19: hahahaha
IndraAstra: well in that case
IndraAstra: thanks hank
LiPsOnFiRe19: hahahaha

yay! i fixed it! i dont' even know how i fixed it. but im really happy now =D. my dad is being a jackass right now. i wanna LAUGH in his face. he's like yelling at me and i'm so tempted to laugh. i just wanna be like HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAH. cuz it's really funny how he can get mad at the tiniest things. idiot jackhole i swear.

i was fiddling around with the template and i was previewing my changes before i saved them. and when i previewed it, it looked NORMAL. it was pretty. THE ENTIRE BACKGROUND was this blue color but THEN i clicked saved changes and things got scrwed up. the sidebar stuff does NOT have a blue background. damn. and now i can't fix it. so for the time being my blog is going to look like a piece of shit cuz not only can i not figure out how to reverse the changes i made, but i also don't know what i want to do with it now. i WAS going for something like this person's blog. http://lynnestevens.blogspot.com (not exactly like that, but something similar.) but stupid me i can't even get the background to be one color. and now i've wasted my time so i have to go do hw. so please, laugh at the ugliness of my blog for now....if i were you i'd laugh cuz it's really quite pathetic, i know.

i got this new cursor thingermajgger. but i can't get it to work on the ENTIRE site. it's only got the cursor decorations at the top of the site. it just stops working after that and i cant' fix it. rawrg. oh, and for those ppl that dont know...the words following it came from lord of the rings: the fellowship of the ring. before the fellowship enters moria there's a gate and on it in elvish are the words "speak, friend, and enter". uber spiffy =D

watched the four one-act plays with michelle tonight. everyone should see it. it was suuuper good...veerrrry funny, especially little red riding hood. haha good stuff. james did really well also...made out with about two different girls......which i think is really admirable. haha. cuz he has a gf.....and he just kisses them like on the spot and im like "wow, good job, nice acting skills". haha. im trying to fix up my blog. nothing fancy, just change a couple of colors and i REALLY want to make my cursor different. but i DONT know how cuz i SUCK at html.

stole this from paula, and for those people like me who are feeling lost and confused this provides some understanding:

God didn't promise days without pain,
laughter without sorrow, sun without rain,
but He did promise strength for the day,
comfort for the tears, and light for the way.

Disappointments are like road humps,they slow you down a bit
but you enjoy the smooth road afterwards.
Don't stay on the humps too long. Move on! When you feel down because
you didn't get what you want, just sit tight and be happy, because God is thinking of something better to give you.
When something happens to you, good or bad, consider What it means.
There's a purpose to life's events, to teach you how to laugh more or not to cry too hard.
You can't make someone love you, all you can do is be someone who can be loved, the rest is up to the person to realize your worth.
The measure of love is when you love without measure.
remember the five simple rules to be happy:

1. Free your heart from hatred.
2. Free your mind from worries.
3. Live simply.
4. Give more.
5. Expect less.

No one can go back and make a brand new start. Anyone can start from now and make a brand new ending.

for the loooooongest time i thought that i was the only one that was neglecting God, Bible, and prayer. and then i had a talk with a friend, and realized im not the only one. i guess it takes willpower. it's good to know someone else knows exactly what it feels like though. i still remember what patrick said at the last youth alive meeting. he said "remember, prayer is a privelage not a chore."

first off i would like to say that sarmad and lu have no life, and im starting to see why NOT having a comment box is a GOOD thing. i swear u guys....

anyways. afterschool was very funny. i was walking with perry and jenn when yang came up to perry and said "damn you." patrick sees yang say that so he walks by and says "you suck" to perry. i decided to follow the trend and told perry "i hate you." jenn was laughing so freaking hard, but she managed to say "you bastard" to perry. hahahaha. soooo freaking funny....he got dissed four times in a row. his face was like wtf?!?!!? funny stuff.

im in a spiffy good mood today. i dont think i did all that great on the chem test, and ms. marie was yelling at me in journalism. blah blah blah, i assigned the story too late, features articles should be done in advance....blah blah blah. i swear, she turned madame kamei-ish for a moment. i was just like w/e. but despite that crap i'm feeling happy =D. i learned it's not really worth it to let a couple of minor things bring you down. it's only a chem test, not going to kill me.

but it seems like recently i've developed 4.0 fever. first quarter i didn't really care if i didn't get a 4.0 for the semester. but it seems i've been doing so well in all my classes that if i get less than a 4.0, i'll be disappointed. so im going for the gold! okay, that sounded retarded. ignore that. i'm going with michelle to see the school play at 7. fun fun! later dayz.

Stolen from Wendy. hahaha....i like this. it's cute

"A Toast to the Men"- Willa Ford

"Here's to the men we love to love
Here's to the men in love with us
Here's to the men who pass on us
Fuck the men let's drink to us!!!"

wow....seems everyone is spiffily happy that i have a comment box now. haha. i did something really stupid yesterday. well i actually don't think it's stupid but apparently other people do. so for the past couple of weeks i've been getting a lot of sleep...going to bed at 10:30. but yesterday i got HECK OF sleepy in fifth period english. that class is usually interesting but yesterday i was nodding off. so last night i purposely procrastinated on my hw so that i could go to sleep later. that way, my lack of sleep would get me all hyped up for the next day. so i went to bed at 11:30. and i must say, it worked VERY well. i was AWAKE in alllllllll my classes. now the downside is that right now im kind of tired and about to fall asleep on my keyboard.

i'm in such a snazzily good mood today =D. while i was eating breakfast this morning all tired out and stuff my parents started talking about gays and lesbians. i was like wth?!?!?! it was weird. anyways...school: the chem test was heck of easy so that made me happy. i also went to the youth alive meeting today at lunch. didn't do much, it was kind of disorganized but it was good stuff. i think im gonna try to do QT from now on (quiet time)...where u spend like 10 minutes a day (not that long) just reading the bible and thinking and stuff. so im thinking if i'm stuipd enough to purposely go to sleep late i can take ten minutes out of my day for QT. wonder how long i can keep this up.

it's my birthday in exactly six days! gonna be sixteen. yeah, i'm a young'un. it's okay, being young is good =D. ash and jo keep talking about this "HUGE" gift ash got me. she's trying to top last year. seeing how last year was 21 balloons i dunno how that's possible. i started to think they were making it up but then erica told me it was really big and wouldnt' fit in the trunk. so now im getting scared. all i can say is: thank goodness my birthday is a half day and i'm am sooooo getting ashley back on her bday. muahahaha. what are best friends for anyways?

last thing i need to mention......CHARLES CAI ROX MY SOCKS!!!!! he burned the meteora cd for me. yay! i'm so ecstaically happy =D woohoo! and me and mina are gonna burn each other's cds. saves money so i can buy that alias calender =D.

I'm really excited right now. cuz i finally inserted this comment thingermajigger. and blog stopped being retarded. if u click the question mark inside the comment box it gives you spiffy smileys. now that i've wasted my time i've really got to study now. laterz

blog is being really weird. it's not showing my posts and it's beign all retarded. i'm trying to insert a comments thinger in here. i really should be studying chem though. dont feel like it much. for some odd reason i have a 92 percent in that class. no idea how. but w/e, im not complaining =D. hmm....i just realized that i have french hw and english hw in addition to studying chem. i should stop fiddling around with this and get cracking.

i just realized that i said happy birthday paula on yesterday's post, but her bday is today. whoops. it gets confusing when my friend's birthdays are on holidays. had a super day today. went shopping with my sis...i think that's my first time in a month or two. yeeeah, im sort of deprived. she got me some clothes for my bday present. crap...i still have to get hers. iono why, but im always late in giving out gifts. i gave ruthann her gift about four months late. i gave amina her gift about two months late. paula's will be a week late, and i dont know how late my sister's gift will be. oh well, it's the thought and not the timeliness that counts =D

i also got myself the latest matchbox 20 cd (the one with unwell), and the all american rejects cd. everyone should get that all american rejects cd, it's really good =D. anyways, i was sooooo indecisive. cuz i wanted those two plus i wanted linkin park's meteora cd and i wanted michelle branch's hotel paper cd. so i had like all four laid out in front of me, and i couldn't decide!!!! these are like the first cd's i've bought in about three years. i rarely get cd's, but now that' i've bought two i think im going cd crazy. i want michelle branch (all her albums), linkin park (all their albums), simple plan, dashboard confessional, and i'm pretty sure there's others. hahaha, im going on a cd craze!!!!

i tried to find urshila's gift today at the mall cuz she's my tennis pixie pal. and i reeeeeeally wanted to get her an alias calender or a michael vartan poster, but i couldn't find either one!!!! the stupid calender club at newpark doesn't have the alias calender. iono if it's such a good idea i get her that though....cuz i might end up keeping it for myself. haha. i wanna get that calender, then when 2004 is over im going to rip off all the pictures and pin them up on my wall =D (well that's assuming i get the calender). oo!!!! i just thought of something! a finding nemo calender!!!!!!! i wonder if they have that....they should. i saw the finding nemo dvd at best buy today, and i was REALLY tempted to get it, but then 20 bucks....ehhh. i guess i'll wait a couple months.

paula, im sooooo sorry i couldn't make it to your surprise bday party today. sooooooo sorry!!!!!! but i went to the tennis banquet last night and i already had plans with my sis to go shopping today, and my parents wouldn't let me go out again for the afternoon. i hope u had the best bday though!!!!!

now im going to cut myself off from the computer and the phone while i study chemistry for the rest of the night. laterz

HAPPY BIRTHDAY PAULA!!!!!!!!!!!! HAVE A SUPER SWEET SIXTEEN!!!!!!!

anyways, tennis banquet! fun fun!!! heck of cool. makes me miss tennis. i luv my tennis girls....crazy times. haha, we got heck of crazy with the cameras that were going around. so many lesbian poses. hahahaha. i was heck of hungry and i got this huge plate of food. and i was almost finishing it when i looked at ester's plate and her lasagna looked liek barf....like seriously. so i told everyone, and ruthann got started on telling me my mountain dew looked like urea and my lasagna was puke. so yeah, i threw THAT away.

and OMG!!!!!!! emily and marie's sister, sarah has the COOLEST room in the world.....like it's soooooooo cool. it's heck of awesome. harry potter stuff EVERYWHERE. and i mean EVERYWHERE. she counted everything and she has 175 things of harry potter, and if she coutns the lego pieces it's over 1000. i wanna LIVE in her room. soooooo nice. her closet door was plastered with harry potter pictures. i wanna wallpaper my walls with alias pictures. that'd be soooo cool. anyways, so much more stuff happened tonight...too much to say. so imma sleep now.

omg perry!!!! im going to hurt you!!!! he taped three episodes of smallville but for some reason he ended up with only 45 minutes of ONE episode on the tape. wth?!?!?!?! so that means, I can only watch 45 minutes of one episode. how do u go from taping three episodes and ending up with 45 minutes of one...that's not even a full episode.....

anyways....yesterday had an area meeting and an officers meeting. alan makes really good spaghetti. yummers =D. we're finally voting for interact shirts to order. good stuff. i got a tennis banquet in half an hour. i luv team get togethers....haha, crazy tennis girlies. later dayz.

since i haven't seen matrix revolution max very kindly told me about it....

WindsyntheLbrn67: you could masterbate to that movie.... ehhhhh tha's a waste of a movie!
WindsyntheLbrn67: that would defile it!
WindsyntheLbrn67: but seriously
WindsyntheLbrn67: the merovingian's wife has hella cleavage!
LiPsOnFiRe19: I could masterbate to that movie?
LiPsOnFiRe19: or YOU could
WindsyntheLbrn67: we both could
WindsyntheLbrn67: how's that?
WindsyntheLbrn67: but i wouldn't
WindsyntheLbrn67: i'd be too busy watching the movie

wow..what a typical guy =P

what sandeep had to say in response to my dream where he died:

LiPsOnFiRe19: i think my mood is deriorating
SlE e EpYbR0wN: nooo
SlE e EpYbR0wN: i don wanna die again
SlE e EpYbR0wN: lol
SlE e EpYbR0wN: if ur upset, i think thats when u dream about pple dying
LiPsOnFiRe19: wth?!!?!?!?
LiPsOnFiRe19: hahhahaa
SlE e EpYbR0wN: lol
SlE e EpYbR0wN: u never know... just wanna protect myself from ur subconscious
SlE e EpYbR0wN: lol j/p
LiPsOnFiRe19: hahahaha
LiPsOnFiRe19: dude that dream was so scary
LiPsOnFiRe19: but i also didnt want it to end
LiPsOnFiRe19: that was weird
SlE e EpYbR0wN: *gasp*
LiPsOnFiRe19: hahaha
SlE e EpYbR0wN: wanted to see my red indian blood flow huh?
SlE e EpYbR0wN: lol
LiPsOnFiRe19: wth?!?!?!?
LiPsOnFiRe19: hahahah
LiPsOnFiRe19: u should feel special cuz i was crying in my dream
SlE e EpYbR0wN: oh ok
SlE e EpYbR0wN: yay
SlE e EpYbR0wN: lol
SlE e EpYbR0wN: wait
SlE e EpYbR0wN: that wuz wierd
SlE e EpYbR0wN: i sed yay for something sad that happened
LiPsOnFiRe19: well u see u said yay
LiPsOnFiRe19: cuz i was crying
LiPsOnFiRe19: which means ur a very special person
LiPsOnFiRe19: see now?
SlE e EpYbR0wN: yea i guess
LiPsOnFiRe19: of course u see
LiPsOnFiRe19: when perry dies in my dream
LiPsOnFiRe19: i will laugh
SlE e EpYbR0wN: hahahaha
SlE e EpYbR0wN: so confident...
SlE e EpYbR0wN: "WHEN perry dies...."
LiPsOnFiRe19: i mean IF he dies in my dream
LiPsOnFiRe19: i will laugh
LiPsOnFiRe19: haha
SlE e EpYbR0wN: haha
SlE e EpYbR0wN: u tell him that and he'll be "oook..."

i had a really scary dream last night. i was playing marbles with sandeep and someone else (yes, marbles) when this guy comes up and starts watching us. we see a gun hidden behind his shirt so we all get up and start running. the dude chases us then shoots sandeep and i like watch him crumple to the ground. it was so sad, i started crying (in my dream). but besides that...

im in such a super good mood today. why? cuz i ACED my english test. 83/87..and that would be a 95 percent!!! woot woot!!! so happy. i went from a C on my first test to an A on my second one. even ryan's "brutal honesty" couldn't get me down. haha. but i took pity on him and perry today. they wrote five copies of the hatchet style writing guide. and the packet is three and a half pages back and front....and they did five copies of that. i saw poor perry's hand today....he had a serious callous on his hand. yikes....

journalism was heck of funny today. james was telling us how white girls didn't turn him on and he only likes asian girls. i was like, "you egg....white on the outside, yellow on the inside." and he's all telling us how he thinks it's so hot when his gf talks in cantonese. heck of strange. for some reason a conversation started about how u could have sex with someone without kissing them. so james said "yeah, just stick it in then go *muah*." LOL...me and perry were heck of laughing.

more interesting stuff...during fourth period french we had to recite a verse of this depressing poem. and i did interpretive dance to it. so what if i freaked out my french IV buddies...it's all good. haha. more good stuff....i was walking with reed to french and he stopped by his locker so i stopped our conversation and went to my locker. but reed didn't know i left, so while he was getting books out of his locker he kept on talkign and when he turned around no one was there except for this one girl giving him weird looks. hahahahaha. talking to urself is never a good sign....

DAVID HUA ROCKS!!!! he let me borrow his finding nemo dvd today. and this is the actual dvd, unlike the "dvd' i watched at matthew's house. i spent the entire afternoon watching that dvd. watched the movie and all the bonus stuff and what not. hahahaha....that movie makes me laugh sooo much. i got the swimming song down!

Just keep swimming
Just keep swimming
Just keep swimming swimming swimming
What do we do, we swim swim
ho ho ho ho ho ho
I love to swim
When you want to swim....

u know u luv that song =P. hahaha and at the whale part marlon says "your speaking like upset stomach". haha. i almost gave myself a heart attack there. running out of happy stuff to say. oh yeah! EVERYONE should have a pair of cargo pants cuz they are super comfy. they're as good as sweatpants. i found a pair of unionbay ones in my closet. i dunno where they came from but they're mine now! =D

chemistry is a frickin biznatch. this post is short because i have to go and BURN my chem book now.

not much happened today. broke perry's pen so i took his other one. not a good idea. we got into a pen stealing war during journalism. now im short one pen. dangit. and perry started flicking pens at me while ms. marie was talking. these sophomores, i swear, so immature *rolls eyes*. hahaha, j/k j/k. i luv 'em.

got my english essay back. didn't do bad. but didnt' do as good as i expected. 89 percent. i would've been more happy with a 90. i know i know, one percent not a big differnce. but the difference is a B+ and an A-. i know that is REALLY retarded. i understand the stupidity of my thinking, but for some reason it makes me feel better. just gotta write better next time...now, if i get a bad grade on my essay test i think i will crumble and fall. it's weird...cuz when i dont get the grade i want in any subject but english i'm like "eh". but when it comes to english i care more.....i don't understand myself sometimes =P.

"Like the blooming of flowers, it has a beautiful beginning. Like the leaves of autumn, it comes to an end...as all good things eventually do." -Anonymous

stolen from aurora who stole it from vyechi.

who do you turn to..

when the only one who can stop

your tears is the one who made

you cry?

ChInKy 5 1 8: i didn't really get to sleep last night
LiPsOnFiRe19: y?
ChInKy 5 1 8: my DAD!!
ChInKy 5 1 8: he came into my room and slept with me
ChInKy 5 1 8: and he kept snoring!!!
LiPsOnFiRe19: hahahahahah
LiPsOnFiRe19: LOL
LiPsOnFiRe19: ur so funny
ChInKy 5 1 8: what?
ChInKy 5 1 8: not so.. funny
LiPsOnFiRe19: why'd ur dad sleep in ur room?
ChInKy 5 1 8: i didn't sleep at all
ChInKy 5 1 8: cuz.. my bro was sleep in his place
ChInKy 5 1 8: i am not used to sleeping with people
ChInKy 5 1 8: he did not only just snored, he was hugging me
LiPsOnFiRe19: LOL!!!!!!!!

MVAL's at jlhs today. i wasn't looking forward to it, but when i got there it was pretty fun. i mean, it only comes once a year. i've never seen more girls playing tennis at the same place in my life. hahaha. cuz allllll the schools were there and it was good stuff. logan coach was heading the whole thingy.....what a jackhole. he's such a bitter person. aaaanyways. i actually advanced to the second round! wow! and then i lost. hahaha. cuz the coaches chose by lotto who would play who for the first round. i won the first round cuz i played kennedy (grrr she was a lobster). i won 6-1, 7-5.

then i moved on and i played MISSION! the girl i played was the girl margaret lost to.....wow. she was good. i got bageled 0-6, 0-6. yeeeeeeah. i had fun though cuz she hit heck of hard and i got to play hard without worrying how it would affect my game. good practice. good bageling. hahaha. becky and steph didn't play at all today....they're playing the girls emily and marie lost to today. i played TWO matches today. second match, my fingers were nearly frozen. shit, it was cold. soo tired afterwards cuz i've never played two matches before.

oo...i saw jen from newark. i saw her water jug with the band aid on it....dont ask. haha. mval's was fun fun. g'luck to becky and steph tomorrow!

packed cans at lov newark sunday night with the rest of area four. we were freezing our asses off cuz the people weren't there to open the doors. when we got inside me, jen, cynthia, and jen's sis started making boxes. i had the tapegun. hahahaha. i so suck at using it. everytime i was taping a box that one of them made everyone else around instinctively moved away...how rude! actualy i dont blame them, i would've moved away from me too. hahaha. after awhile i gave the tape gun to jen cuz she was being SO PUSHY with the boxes. dang, shoving them every which way. hahaha. so we started to make a fort out of the boxes. it was really fun! jen was taping like crazy fast and i started stacking them pyramid style on the table.

it was turning out really great until ruthann came and kept STEALING our boxes! true, we made them to put cans in but it was a REALLY nice pyramid. oh, then stupid guys from American threw a flat box at our pyramid and knocked half the thing down! ah! rudeness. it was a pretty fun night. had a good talk with jean...*run down*. *kick*. *run back up*. haha, good times. (omg, i sound like michelle, she always says that).

wow, my house is getting REALLY cold. i hate coldness. anyways. had a nice looooong talk with ester today about some stuff. i didn't even know i was thinking half the things i was telling her until i told her. it was weird...cuz she went through exactly the same stuff i was thinking. and i had a waaaaaaay overdue chat with ash about crap going on. i luv how my friends understand me so well. we dont talk nearly enough. but i do have the coolest, bestest friends around =D.

i gots mvals tomorrow...blegh. i dont even want to go. if i play missions' number one for my match tomorrow im going to laugh so hard i wont be able to play. hahahaha. okay it's late im going crazy. later.

Friday: took the deadly english test. i think it went okay. i had somethign REALLY good to say for the second essay but i didnt' put it cuz i ran out of TIME!!!! i got really mad at that. but i won't think about it till i get my grade back...then i'll either be ecstatically happy or extremely depressed.

then in journalism i found out that u can close a window screen by pressing alt and f4. i heck of did not know that until perry did that to my window and i was like wth......where did it go. hahaha, i got heck of hyper cuz me and perry started screwing up each other's research on the computer. hahaha. then we were walking through the halls and this guy runs into perry's shoulder and perry gets pushed back like five feet. it was soooo funny. i was watching it like in slow motion. hahahaha.

went trick or treating with jenn, keena, paula, steven, and glen. glen and steven dressed up as girls....glen was so sexy in his pink shirt and makeup. this one dude gave us pennies and he's all "go to college". hahaha. we trick or treated at ruthann's house, and i saved her from her dull night by asking her to come along with us. so she came. yay! it was mucho fun. then we all headed back to jenn's house, emptied our bags of candy and started trading. hahaha, i think that was the most fun. we just threw them at each other's piles. some jokes that evening: VAAAAAANDA!! TAAANGOO!!!! MAANGO?!?!?!?!!!!!!!!!! hahahaha, good times.

Saturday (today): trick or treat for cans....just our interact club. me, jean, and yang went with dirk (lisa's husband). it was heck of fun cuz we went in this big white van and we rode around with the door open so it was easier to get out, collect the cans, and get back in. hahaha, it was like one of those getaway cars. we passed douggie's house and noticed that he had no cans out so we rang his doorbell and he didn't come. then we wrote a letter reprimanding him for being an ex-president of interact and not donating cans. so he calls us and tells us to come back. he gave us ONE bag of dried pasta. and of course, he had to pick me up and look around for a garbage can to throw me in....there was none, so i got thrown in the van instead. i suppose that's better =P.

then we headed dropped them off at lov newark. me and duckie pushed each other around in the lido shopping carts. hahaha, we have no life. on the way home, slava and alan were racing each other....didn't go on for that long though. now i gots to get my hw done so i can go pack cans tomorrow at lov. later days.