FINALS ARE FREAKING OVER!!!!! WOOT WOOT!!!! so how did i end this glorious day? after the last final (french) we started throwing pencils into the ceiling in the backroom. hahaha. the pencils wouldn't stick so i got onto the table and stuck the pencil into the ceiling. the second i get off the table madame kamei walks in, and we start CRACKING up....it took all i had not to look at the ceiling. haha. thankfully she didnt' see the pencil, but on the last day of school me and reed wanna stick all twenty pencils into the ceiling. that'd be hecka funny. after french, i was so happy finals were over that i spun the spinners of a car in the parking lot =D. i've always wanted to do that. haha.

after school me, ash, wendy, and daveeed went to see a movie. but wendy and ash ditched us to go to walmart so me and david went to go see The Perfect Score. that movie SUCKS. it's the WORST movie i've ever seen in my ENTIRE life. i think it was worse than Spice World. it was a HORRIBLE movie. the acting was REALLY bad..it made u wanna cry. but thanks for paying for my ticket daveed =D. after that crap movie we movie hopped to Win a Date with Tad Hamilton. We were in there for like fifteen minutes when we had to leave cuz Wendy called. on our way out the row, we had to pass all these people, and the lady at the end looked like she wanted to hit david over the head with her cane. it was freaking big cane. hahahaha.

then i went to ruthann's house to watch ocean's eleven. that movie's really good, and the fact that brad pitt and matt damon are in it makes it a heck of a lot better =D. i luv them. they're so sexy, and their acting is so much freaking better than The Perfect Score people.

yay!!!! i can have a relaxing weekend!!!!!!!! good job everyone on getting through finals week!!!

freaking A im so happy!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! woot woot!!! all my studying in wallach's class payed off!!!! i got an 89% on the final and my 91% in the class didnt' change. holla!!!!! hahahaha. so after a total of 16 hours of studying i got a B+ on the final. holy shit, that class is hard. but im not complaining.....i feel pretty damn good for getting an A in that class. i'm so OVERJOYED! =D =D =D

first day of finals went pretty well. i wrote like freaking crazy for the english test, but i feel pretty confident about my essays =D. i think the studying paid off. but holy crap my hand was like limp after the test. after writing 13 pages, YEAH it hurt. hahaha.

journalism was a breeze. we watched the movie "Absence of Malice." oo!!!! the old journalism classroom is SO freaking cool. cuz our class is usually in the libarary but today we were in the old classroom for journalism, and they have a DARK ROOM. it's so freaking tyt. it's like a portal type thing. you slide the door open and it's a really tiny circular closet. u get in it and keep on sliding the door, and after u've turned the door once around u step out of the closet and ur in the dark room. it's so cool. heck of fun =D. i want one of those for my future house! and everyone will come to my house to play with the portal door type thing. hehe =D.

michelle gave me my late b-day gift today....an UMBRELLA!!! yes, an umbrella. i REALLY wanted an umbrella cuz i broke mine. haha, thanks michelle.....u rock =D. but im still waiting for my christmas gift from her....michael vartan in person. hahaha...i might be waiting awhile.

i seem to be losing things lately. in less than a week i've lost my mechanical pencil and two pens. i think my pencil is at wendy's house......but i don' know where my pens went. they like ran away. i'm gonna go poor trying to buy myself pens. hahaha.

english final tomorrow. im so freaking scared. i really hope i do well. *crosses fingers*. i studied soooo much.......i really pray it pays off. anyways, i'm just thinking about friday when this is all over. i don't have plans for friday yet....anyone up for some celebrating after school??!?!?!

this is like my new favorite song. i might've posted these lyrics but, oh well, i'll post them again. studying about The Great Gatsby reminds me of this song. it's so sad yet beautiful at the same time. i love the lyrics so much =D.

Boats Against the Current
(Eric Carmen)

I know it's over
You know it's over
We're just goin' through the motions
But we're sailing separate oceans, worlds apart
And you know it's breakin' my heart

I was a dreamer
You were a dreamer
But perfection is consuming
And it seems we're only human after all
And we've both been takin' the fall

But tomorrow
We'll run a little bit faster
Tomorrow
We're gonna find what we're after at last
Feelings that we left in the past
There's romance in the sunset
We're boats against the current to the end

Maybe we're older
And maybe we're colder
So we disregard solutions
While we cling to our illusions once again
And we keep remembering when
Seasons are changing
Oh my reasons are changing
But the story isn't ending
So we find ourselves pretending one more day
And the years keep slipping away

But tomorrow
We'll run a little bit faster
Tomorrow
We're gonna find what we're after at last
Feelings that we left in the past
There's romance in the sunset
We're boats against the current to the end


GOOD LUCK TO EVERYONE ON FINALS!!!!!!!!!! (especially all those with wallach tomorrow. rest ur hands tonight)

Love quiz results:

1. You are attracted to those who are unbridled, untrammeled, and
free.

2. In the process of courtship, the approach that would make you
feel irresistable is creative, never let you feel bored.

3. The impression you would like to give to your lover is optimistic.

4. You don't like it when your partner is emotional and/or too
moody; and you don't know how to please him/her.

5. The kind of relationship you would like to build with your
partner is that both of you can talk about everything and
anything, no secret is kept.

6. You care about the society and morality, you won't do anything
wrong after marriage.

7. You think of marriage as a precious thing. Once you get married,
you'll treasure it and your partner very much.

http://naucon.net/misc/tests/love_test01.htm

there's still so much to study and finals are in three days. i spent about seven hours at wendy's house with jenn, paula, keena, and jo studying for english and stuffing myself. hahaha. soooooo much to know, soooooo much to study.....my brain can't retain ALL this information. my brain's fried and i haven't even started taking finals. can't be good. i dont' feel confident at all, for ANY frigging final. maybe i'm not applying myself as much this year? hmm....maybe. i'm going to get some sleep now.

*sigh* im so sick of studying already. i don't feel like studying anymore at ALL!!!! right now im thinking that three B's won't be so bad. but THEN i know AFTER finals i'll regret it like hell. studying is just so freaking tedious. and freaking english final is gonna screw me over. ah! so scared! a couple days ago i was ready to accept a 3.5 or a 3.6. but now i don't want that. One B is acceptable, but ehhhh two or three? iono. i know grades aren't everything....but it's just nice to get straight A's.

so chem test today.....hmmmmm. i thought there were only sixteen questions. so i was working pretty slow. then the ten minute bell rang and i realized i still had to do five more questions (not including the repeated questions). damn i felt heck of dumb. i KNEW the freaking stuff also. holy crap! recently, i've just been freezing up on tests. i know the material, but once i get the test paper in front of me, my mind literally goes blank.

im also disliking mrs. raymond more than usual now. her stupid grading crap. pisses me off. first she tells us not to complain to her when she doesn't give us a couple of points on our hw. but then she turns around and curves our tests and says we should be thankful we're getting these extra points. and on this last test she didn't even change three answers that most people got wrong but were actually right. heck of bugs the shit out of me.

finals....drawing near. i feel so screwed....like i know NOTHING. i haven't even figured out how im gonna study for history. *sigh*. i can't wait till this is over.

HAPPY NEW YEAR EVERYONE!!!!!!!!!!!!!

i saw the funniest trailer today. it was for the movie Perfect Score. It's about these high school students who plan to steal the answers for the SAT's. So in the trailer, this one guy asks this asian guy "who scores well on these things anyways?" And the asian guy says "Asian girls who watch less than one hour of t.v. a day." I started laughing so hard. hahahahaha. hecka funny. i heck of wanna see that movie now =D.

i got manhandled today in journalism. it's really not fair....just cuz i happen to be small people freaking ABUSE me. i was sitting on the couch in the library and tom (shively) sits on my lap. okay....i'm 95 pounds, and he's freaking 205 pounds. holy crap! i couldn't see anything, but i heard ryan next to me saying "tom....ur going to break her." no freaking duh. that was painful.

and then as if that wasn't enough tom picks me up, THROWS me over his shoulder and carries me out of the main room of the library. that's the SECOND time i've been thrown out of a room. first time was by rishi. holy crap! i'm not a rag dolls ppls!!! oh well, they're good guys....not like i was raped or w/e. hahaha. wellz, gtg now. happy chinese new year!

I'm at a crossroads right now in my life. I can't decide whether to:

1) Burn my Chemistry book in my fireplace to create heat for my house
2) Throw it in front of a passing truck on I-880
3) Slice it apart with Samurai Swords
4) Tear it apart slowly with my hands
5) Burn it in a bonfire on the beach
6) Throw it into the ocean
7) Throw it through Mrs. Raymond's window
8) Nicely drop it into a dumpster
9) Do role play, pretend I'm Legolas, and shoot an arrow through the heart of my Chem book
OR....last but not least
10) Shoot it with shotgun

I honestly can't decide what to do. Such a difficult decision requires a lot of thinking. Any suggestions will be most welcome. And anyone's support to help me make my choice will definitely be appreciated. Thank you =D.

im going to make a number 101) I luv white teeth, and crest white strips rule!!!!

100 things that you might know or might not know about me... (stolen from peter who stole it from doug)

1) I love potatoes

2) I’m obsessed with LOTR

3) Nemo is the best animated movie ever

4) Monsters Inc. comes in a close second

5) I’m addicted to Alias

6) I have one older sister (Serena)

7) I also have one half-sister (Michelle), one half-brother (Keagan), and one brother
(Doug)

8) I crashed into a fence when I went skiing

9) I want my permit

10) Tea is yummy

11) When I was 6, I got pneumonia and stayed home for a month and a half

12) I’m Christian even though my family is not

13) I went to a private Christian school for 9 years

14) I luv Michael Vartan

15) My room looks really cool

16) I play Varsity four singles in tennis

17) I like to act

18) I want to pursue acting and journalism in college

19) I luv stuffed animals

20) I learned to swim the summer before seventh grade

21) I’ve been acting in plays (nothing big) since fourth grade

22) Orlando Bloom is dead sexy

23) Someone is always threatening to throw me in a trash can

24) I like looking at the stars (when im not in the city)

25) I’ve never done drugs

26) I’ve never gotten drunk

27) I haven’t been laid

28) LOTR ROTK is my favorite movie

29) I’ve been to China twice

30) I love Disney things

31) I have two scars on my knees

32) When I was seven I went to the Great Mall, and I ran into a glass window head-on at full speed

33) I like sitting cross-legged (Indian style)

34) Jonathon Rhys-Meyers is extremely sexy

35) I luv English, Irish, and Australian accents

36) I don’t like cake that much

37) Cheescake sucks

38) I hate caramel

39) I went to Lea’s Christian School for seven years, then CCS (San Leandro) for two
years

40) I went to CJHS and now I go to WHS (GO HUSKIES!)

41) I love spirit week

42) I don’t like it when people stereotype honors kids

43) I don’t like hypocrites

44) I want to run for Interact Area Four rep. next school year

45) My dad is a control freak who acts like a six year old

46) I love trivial pursuit

47) I don’t get mad easily

48) Sophomore year I-Search changed my view on a lot of things in life; it helped me
set my priorities straight

49) I like picnics

50) I don’t hate, I dislike

51) I don’t like it when people put themselves down; there’s enough negativity in the
world

52) I don’t like it when people who are freaking skinny, call themselves fat

53) I love meeting new people and making friends

54) I’m energetic most of the time

55) When I’m in a not so good mood, I hate it when people freak out and think
something’s gone terribly wrong in my life…..hello!!!!! even happy people can be
depressed

56) I’m not a prissy girl

57) I love flip flops

58) I want to go to RYLA

59) My favorite book is The Joy Luck Club

60) I like reading books by John Steinbeck

61) My right hands get cold while I type

62) I always have cold feet or a cold nose

63) Freshman year, I played Dr.Einstein in the comedy Arsenic and Old Lace

64) In eighth grade I played the sports announcer in Joe White and the Seven Lizards

65) The summer between tenth and eleventh grade I trained to make varsity tennis
every single day at the park

66) I like to read

67) I don’t like fantasy novels, except LOTR

68) Sean Biggerstaff is damn sexy

69) I have glasses for seeing the board in class

70) I have two ap, three honors classes

71) I want to be editor-in-chief of the newspaper next year

72) My life isn’t perfect, no matter how many people think so

73) No one is perfect, nor is anyone’s life

74) I’m a loud, er, talkative person

75) I’m crazy over celebrities

76) I think Viggo Mortenson is pretty hot

77) I played volleyball in fifth grade

78) I did track in sixth grade

79) I like playing fleetball

80) I luv Interact, it’s changed me so much

81) I like watching soccer, basketball, and tennis

82) I hate football

83) I like old songs: My girl, etc.

84) I like all types of music from country to rock to rap

85) My favorite artists are: Michelle Branch and Matchbox Twenty

86) I like watching black-and-white movies

87) I’ve only had one bf

88) I’m between 5’2” and 5’3”

89) I’m under 100 pounds

90) I like to stuff myself =D

91) I cook pretty well but I can’t bake

92) I like giving gifts

93) I like shopping, except when there’s holiday rush and the mall is frigging crowded

94) I’m 100% Chinese

95) I don’t have a pet

96) I want to go to college at UCLA, Pomona, or NYU

97) I luv going to dances; it’s a good way to let go and relax

98) I am part of the WUCHEUNG clan

99) I should be studying for finals now, and not wasting my time with this

100) destiny is not a matter of chance, it is a matter of choice; it is not a thing to be
waited for, it is a thing to be achieved

Stolen from Paula's xanga (i seem to be doing a lot of stealing from her):


Emergency Bible Call

When in sorrow call John 14.

When men fail you call Psalm 27.

If you want to be fruitful call John 15.

When you have sinner call Pslam 51.

When you worry call Matthew 6:19-34.

When you are in danger call Psalm 91.

When God seems far away cal Psalm 139.

When your faith needs stirring call Hebrews 11.

When you are lonely and fearful call Pslam 23.

When you grow bitter and critical call 1 Corinthians 13.

For Paul's secret to happiness call Colossians 3:12-17.

For understanding of Christianity call 2 Corinthians 5:15-19.

When you feel down and out call Romans 8:31.

When you want peace and rest call Matthew 11:25-30.

When the world seem bigger than God call Psalm 90.

When you want Christian Assurance call Romans 8:1-30.

When you leave home for labor or travel call Psalm 121.

When your prayers grow narrow or selfish call Psalm 67.

For a great invention/opportunity cal Isaiah 55.

When you want courage for a task call Joshua 1.

For how to get along with your fellow man call Romans 12.

When you think of investments and returns call Mark 10.

If your are depressed call Psalm 27.

If your pocketbook/wallet is empty call Psalm 37.

If you are losing confidence in people call 1 Corinthians 13.

If people seem unkind call John 15.

If you are discouraged about your work call Psalm 126.

If you find the world growing small & yourself great call Psalm 19.


ALTERNATE NUMBERS

For dealing with fear call Psalm 34:7.

For Security call Psalm 121:3.

For assurance call Mark 8:35.

For reassurance call Psalm 145:18.

i'm officially breaking down. i can't handle all this crap. so much to study for, so much to do before finals. and i don't understand chem at all. i'll look at problem and i don't even know where to begin. it frusturates me so damn much. im not thinking that much about my actual grades in my classes...im just trying to get through the week with everything going on. i just want to UNDERSTAND but i can't. i dont understand anything in school or anything in life. i don't remember the weeks before finals being this bad last year. i need to destress. this is too much for me.

oh man...jennifer cracks me up so much. she was shocked when i told her that orlando bloom's natural hair color was black, not brown. so she thought he was italian. im like nooo...he has a british accent, so he's british. then i told her his hair was black cuz he's half asian. funny thing is, she beleived me and got HECK OF excited about it. hahahaha. jenn and her guillability. (is that a word? oh well, it is now =D.)

i found out during second period that we have a THREE DAY weekend this weekend!!!! oh man, i heck of did not KNOW that!!!!! that's sooooo freaking awesome. yay!!! journalism was interesting today. since it's paste up week the page editors stayed after school working on our pages and suddenly ms. marie says "you know that there are so many colloquials for the word penis?" apparently it was in the dictionary, and she starts listing off all these names. one of the names she said was "mr. happy". then sean (crawford) heck of freaked out cuz for the longest time his sn was Mr. Happy Face. hahahaha.

i swear, paste up week is so hilarious. we were having fun with ring tones after school =D. chris (revay) has fantasia on his phone. it's so awesome. and sean has a whole bunch of techno music. haha. i luv his phone. so freaking sexy. it doubles as a keyboard AND it has bejeweled on it. I LUV BEJEWELED. that game is so freaking addictive.

i'm listening to LOTR music now. it's so nice =D.

Stolen from Paula:

I asked God to take away my habit.
God said, No.
It is not for me to take away, but for you to give it up.

I asked God to make my handicapped child whole.
God said, No.
His spirit is whole, his body is only temporary.

I asked God to grant me patience.
God said, No.
Patience is a byproduct of tribulations; it isn't granted, it is learned.

I asked God to give me happiness.
God said, No.
I give you blessings; Happiness is up to you.

I asked God to spare me pain.
God said, No.
Suffering draws you apart from worldly cares and brings you closer to me.

I asked God to make my spirit grow.
God said, No.
You must grow on your own!, but I will prune you to make you fruitful.

I asked God for all things that I might enjoy life.
God said, No.
I will give you life, so that you may enjoy all things.

I asked God to help me LOVE others, as much as He loves me.
God said...Ahhhh, finally you have the idea.

THIS DAY IS YOURS DON'T THROW IT AWAY.

"now faith is being sure of what we hope for, and certain of what we do not see." ~Hebrews 11:1

i had a really weird dream the other night that was a cross between a smallville episode (the one where Lex goes down in his plane), star trek, and mona lisa smile. hecka straaaange.

my mom helped me get my pen and the claw thinger out from behind my desk. we used these two long wooden sticks to bring them out. when my mom was getting off the floor with the sticks in her hand, she turned around and *SMACK* the two sticks hit me on the side of my head. holy crap that hurt. i got up, and i kinda staggered like i was drunk. my eyes were out of focus for a few seconds. when i got my balance my head was like virbrating. holy crap my mom hits hard. hahahaha. it was the funniest thing though. she hit me and burst out laughing. i was like thanks for asking if i'm okay. haha.

i watched LOTR ROTK with my sister yesterday. now i've seen that movie twice =D. i can't wait till the extended version on dvd comes out. it's supposed to be like half an hour longer i think...yay! while i was watching the movie some IDIOT through a gumball down and hit my head. apparently it landed in our popcorn cuz when i reached for my popcorn i got a gumball. jackass. then later on in the movie something hit my sister's head. HOLY CRAP! i was about to turn around and yell "what the hell is your problem?" i don't know who hit us though. cuz sitting behind us were two old people and it couldn't have been them. i wanted to kick the person who threw the gumball though. those things aren't exactly soft. jackhole.

so i was online and i found this legolas poster that looked pretty damn sexy. i was reading the reviews for it, and this one girl said "omg!!!! he's so sexy. i luv him!!! i have the poster right over my bed. and it's the perfect size so i can kiss his gorgeous face before i go to sleep." i was like omg, this girl is freaking CRAZY. i know legolas really hot, has really nice eyes, and this gorgeous accent. and i know im really lotr obsessive...but wth?!?!?!? she kisses the poster before going to bed?!?!?!? that hella creeped me out. well this is my last enjoyable weekend before finals. these next two and a half weeks are going to be hectic, studying for finals and all. later.

im going to finish my journalism portfolio TONIGHT if it kills me. i'll stay up till two a.m. (yes, i realize that isn't tonight anymore) if i need to. i MUST finish it.

i dropped a pen behind my desk today. so i got a long claw extender thingy to get it out, but i dropped that too. so then i got a broom and put heck of sticky tape all around the end of it. i stuck that behind my desk, but all i picked up was dust and piece of paper. so my pen is still behind the desk, and the tool to get it out is back there also. dangit. THEN while i was getting off the top of my desk, my foot slipped on the construction paper on the desk....and i stuck out my other foot to steady myself on the chair, but there WAS no chair and all i got was air. i heck of freaked out and i started wobbling, then i jumped off and my foot hit the corner of my bed. that heck of hurt. i want my pen back.

my dad found out i dropped the claw thinger, and he got all pissy. i thought it was hilarious. my mom just got home, and he walks out of my room and tells her "all she knows how to do is bad stuff. she can't do anything good. she can't do anything right." my mom hella freaked out and she was all "omg! what happened?!?!?!" i couldn't help laughing while i told my mom what happend, and she started laughing also. my dad is a stupid cow.

i hate paper. i was walking from first to second period with steph c., and i was rubber banding her art project when i got this FAT paper cut under my nail. i stopped in my tracks and i literally screeched. it was hella bleeding also. dangit. paper sucks. when i showed sarmad in history he told me he was immune to paper cuts, and he spent like 15 minutes trying to give himself a paper cut.

so...finals are coming up. the only reason i can't wait till they get here is so they can be over. haha. everyone seems to be freaking out about their borderline grades (including me), but mr.wallach had something very interesting (and true) to say about that.

i was in his class after school talking to him about my essay.
wallach: what did you get on it?
me: 170
wallach: that's actually very good. i know u probably wanted a 180.
me: yeah
wallach: but this was a very difficult paper to write and considering the circumstances you did a good job. i mean it didn't affect your grade in the class.
me: uh...yeah it did. my grade went down two percent. i have a 90 now.
wallach: does it matter? it's still an A.
me: well, im not like xin and i like that comfort zone going into the final. because then i wouldn't need to study or try as hard.
wallach: *laughs* well if you had a 92 you'd try just as hard as you would now.
me: good point....

i thought about what he said.....and he's totally right. im gonna study my ass off for the final, and im gonna heck of work on the evaluation paper. i mean even if i still had a 92 i'd try just as hard to keep my A. so he DOES have a good point. it doesn't really matter what grade you have as long as it's above a 89.5. same goes for my 91% in chem then. i feel releived of some frusturation now =D.

omg!!!! the LOTR poster in the library is gone!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! ahhhhh.....when i saw that empty space on the wall i hella freaked, and i asked the librarian what happened to it. there was SUPPOSED to be a silent auction for the poster. APPARENTLY, no one came to ask her about it so they just gave it to this girl denisse who asked them for the poster once they were done with it. i was like what?!?!?!!?!!?!??!?!? i freaking asked EVERY DAY when she was gonna have the silent auction for the poster. the lady said not enough people came to her about it, so she just gave it to denisse who was the first to ask for it. they just GAVE it to her. i WAS gonna ask in december but i CLEARLY remember ryan DRAGGING me out of the library at the end of class each time i was going to ask for it. he DRAGGED me out like three times. i blame this on ryan deto, and the librarian who gave it away for FREE to that one girl. stupid cow.

i've never seen that poster ANYWHERE before. it has ALLLLLLL the LOTR characters from fellowship to ROTK: the lady of the wood, halidir, etc. and it's gooonnnnneee!!!! nooooooo. and i had the PERFECT spot on my wall for it. im going to KICK ryan deto when i see him. i can't do anything to the librarian so i'll just hope someone else kicks her for me. *sigh*. my room would've been perfect with that poster. now it's un-perfect.

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very talented as an actor. He is also very
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very interesting....and sexy =D. buuut...he doesn't look so hot in this picture. oh well.

im like a pregnant woman that goes through mood swings. hahaha. i felt like absolute crap yesterday...everything was going wrong.....but a prayer to God and a good night's sleep can clear up a lot =D. I'm just trying to take things in stride...and not collapse before finals. and paula all those things u brought up...man, memories are so fun =D. especially goofy junior high days. haha.

anyways.....good news!!! i actually only have four finals to take this semester. cuz no journalism final...only a portfolio project. and for french we're taking a practice ap test but it doesn't count for our grade!!! woot woot!! that brings joy to my heart. haha.

funny things happen in english. mr.wallach is so mean to xin...it's freaking hilarious. but u have to know her or have classes with her to laugh at it. yesterday before handing back our papers he said this: "some of you might get a B and will be really happy about it. others of you, if you're like xin, will ask for a razor to cut your wrist with." then today he posted the grades and xin had the highest grade....98% (holy crap!). so this is what happened after class:

melissa: omg...i can't beleive xin has a 98!!
wallach: does it really make a difference what percent it is as long as it's above a 89.5?
melissa and me: yes!!! cuz if u have a 98 then you're more comfortable going into the final.
wallach: you guys....it's xin we're talking about. do u think she's comfortable? she's probably a nervous wreck right now because she doesn't have 100%
me: well if i had a 98% i'd be comfortable
wallach: but if you had a 98% then you'd be xin and you'd be freaking out.

hahahaha....mr.wallach is so cool. we've only had him for one semester but he already has a good measure of what we're each like. it's pretty cool.

hum de dum...journalism. my god....ryan is sick. he's sick in a disgusting-germ-kind of way. and he's sick in a perverted kind of way. in the middle of class he lets out this HUGE sneeze right into his hands. okay....NEVER sneeze into your hands cuz u touch everything with your hands. ALWAYS sneeze into your arm. holy crap it was disgusting. and when i told him that he started rubbing his hands all over the table and my stuff to piss me off.

me: omg....ew. stop that. wipe your hands.
ryan: on what? i don't have any tissue.
me: then wipe it on your pants.
so ryan starts rubbing his hands on his pants for like five minutes
perry: dude...what're u doing?
ryan: jacking off

me and jenn were cracking up. even when ms. marie started to give us looks to shut up, we couldn't. it was so hilarious. that class rocks =D.

Do you ever have those times where it seems like your life is going downhill? When things aren't absolutely, totally horrible, but everything is just going wrong all at ONCE? And then every little thing seems to tick you off. Every TINY thing that goes wrong and every LITTLE thing that your parents say. And you start picking at things in your life that aren't going right. Things that you've grown accustomed to and learned to deal with are giving you a headache. And you remember the bad stuff that happened recently....things you did wrong, people you miss. Soon, everything is so overwhelming and you feel frusturated like hell and you just wanna stand in an open field and SCREAM. Do you ever have those times?

And at those times, all you want to do is tell someone about your problems. You want to confide in someone and let everything out. You remember that all your friends say "You can come to me whenever you want for anything." But it's right at those times when you need them, that you don't go to them. Why? Because you feel so damn alone in the world. No one cares about your problems. They have their own. You WANT to go to your friends...but then you feel that you aren't that close to them. They have other groups they belong...other cliques. High school can be a piece of crap like that....always separating people into groups. Classifying them with "that group" of friends. And then there's your best friend(s). You know that they are the ultimate best. But lately, you've been feeling estranged from them...and at a time when life is frusturating the hell out of you, you keep it in.

Everything is bottled inside. Do you ever have those times? Yeah, life can be a Bitch like that.

MY FIRST....of '04 (yes i realize we're already five days into the new year. oh well.)

First card game of '04...does trivial pursuit count? haha
First phone call of '04...Ruthann
First mood of '04...happy
First drink of '04...milk
First cracker of '04...goldfish
First channel watched of '04...ABC 7 News
First talked to of '04...Serena
First thought of '04...I need a shower
First fruit of '04...Banana
First drawn thing on arm of '04...phone numbers
First hearing of '04...the shower
First soda of '04...i haven't had any soda yet
First ride of '04...Serena drove me and Ariane to the movies
First movie of '04...Mona Lisa Smile
First open mouth, nonstop drooling without blinking appearance of '04...Jonathon Rhys Meyers
First written thing of '04...labeling my history map
First picture taken of '04...nothing yet

i started off my day with a C- on the math test and a B on the math quiz. that math report better save my A in that class.

matthew and peter came over today to give me my bday/christmas gifts. thanks guys sooooooooo much!!!! matt gave me a finding nemo poster in a frame. it has marlin and dory in it. just keep swimming!!!!! hahaha. and peter gave me the michael vartan photograph i wanted =D. my room looks so SNAZZY now. my mom freaked when she saw what i got and she wanted to know why my friends couldn't get me "normal" presents that didnt' have to crowd my walls. hahaha. wellz i showed matthew and peter my room....they think im obsessive. but u guys have to admit, i did a pretty good job with the LOTR theme =D. and and peter's friend joanne had a bend it like beckham soundtrack she didn't want, soooooo guess who has it now?!?! haha....i feel special =D

thanks again peter and matthew for the gifts =D. u guys so totally rock my socks =D =D =D. we need to hang out more often!!!!! that's what's so sucky about junior year. i get so busy with all the crap i have i don't get time to hang out with all my friends. erks!

but no thanks to matthew for kicking me, punching me, knocking off my hat, throwing my shoe down the stairs, and calling me insulting names.

after that, they dropped me off at my area meeting at barnes and nobles. interact spring break CANCUN!!! and interact import night with interact import models!!! hahaha....that meeting took a weird turn.

omg!!! i totally forgot to mention this! silly me. on their way to my house, peter decided to trick matthew and told him i lived at these blue apartments. matthew being as smart as he is, actually got out of the car. and i took this from peter's profile:

"pringles, taste the rainbow"
-matthew, you idiot..

hahahahahaha....good times =D

i almost got hit by a car today but my mom pushed me out of the way. dammit. we were in the borders parking lot and this car was backing out. apparently the driver didn't see us walking behind her car and she almost hit me but my mom pushed me forward. i was like....why'd u do that for?!!? and she just gave me the weirdest look. dagnabit, i was so close. in fact i was this I------------------I close to getting hit. darn.

IM SO F-ING HAPPY!!!!! HOLY CRAP IM SOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO HAPPY. I WANNA HUG EVERYONE ON MY BUDDY LIST. THAT WOULD BE 166 PEOPLE!!!!! soooooooooooo happy. woot woot!!!!!!!!! i checked my SAT score today. wahoooooo!!!!!! it's not REALLY good, but it's good for me and that's all that counts =D. so anyone who tries to ruin my happiness by rubbing in there 1400 or above SAT score will DIE. cuz i hate people who can't let other people be happy =D. woot woot!!!!! one SAT down, three to go.

i have a new addiction, and it's TRIVIAL PURSUIT!!!! hahaha. my cousin came over on new years eve and our families had dinner and all that good stuff. after dinner me, ariane, and serena played trivial pursuit. it was heck of funny. it was a really old edition though, so some of the questions were outdated and a lot of the entertainment questions we had NO clue who the heck the people were. me and ariane want the centennial edition now =D. we played trivial pursuit for about 3 hours....and we ended up stopping at 12 even though no one won. i learned that hitler's favorite movie was "King Kong." haha, fun stuff =D

ariane slept over wednesday night and on thursday we saw mona lisa smile. hmmm...i kinda expected that movie to be better. on a scale of 1-10 i'd rate it about a 5-6. i really liked the story IDEA, but there were a lot of holes in the plot. a lot of parts of the movie were left hanging. the acting was really good though: julia roberts, julia stiles, and kirsten dunst. so good acting, but the plot could've been better. and HOLY CRAP the people behind us wouldn't SHUT UP. they made all these side comments during the whoooooooole movie and they wouldn't stop kicking our chairs!!!!! rawrg.

anyways, im still waiting to see LOTR ROTK again. oh, that reminds me....my room is getting cooler by the second =D. my alias calender is up, and ariane gave me her newsweek magazine that had LOTR pictures in it. so now i've got more magazine pictures up. woot woot!!

ohhhhhh snaps!!!!! i watched BEND IT LIKE BECKHAM!!!!! HOLY CRAP EVERYONE NEEDS TO WATCH THAT MOVIE!!!!! why?

1) it's a good movie
2) the coach (jonathan rhys meyers) is really hot
3) it's a funny movie
4) jonathan rhys meyers (jrm) has really nice eyes
5) jrm is irish, and he has the cutest accent. it reminds me of sean biggerstaff's accent (he plays oliver wood in harry potter)
6) jrm is really sexy

ariane was heck of obsessing over him so she lent me the movie, and now i understand her obsession. he's dead sexy =D. and u gotta luv his irish accent. ahh!!! i luv his voice. thanks for introducing me to hot guy number three ariane!!!!! haha =D

HAPPY NEW YEAR EVERYONE!!!!!! 2004....another year full of new things to experience, new people to meet, more tests and academic stress to meet head-on, more laughs, more good times, and im hoping less scarring (on my knees).

1. What did you do in 2003 that you'd never done before?
SKIING!!!! that included crashing into a fence

2. Did you keep your new years' resolutions, and will you make more for next year?
i don't make new years resolutions

3. Did anyone close to you give birth?
no

4. Did anyone close to you die?
no

5. What countries did you visit?
none

6. What would you like to have in 2004 that you lacked in 2003?
i want my dad to find a job and while we're at it i want a job too =D

7. What date(s) from 2003 will remain etched upon your memory, and why?
May: senior prom, and interact beach cleanup
August 3, 2003: first bf

8. What was your biggest achievement of the year?
surviving....but specifically: surviving 10H english, making varsity tennis, interact co-vp

9. What was your biggest failure?
being demoted (numerous times.....but im actually happy not having presidential stress), not making asb (which i don't regret anymore), being turned down for a lot of jobs (which i probably couldn't handle with tennis going on).....so in the end, all my "failures" happened for a reason.

10. Did you suffer illness or injury?
the common cold

11. What was the best thing you bought?
i don't buy exciting things.....but david bought me two REALLY cool LOTR ROTK posters

12. Whose behavior merited celebration?
troops in iraq

13. Whose behavior made you appalled and depressed?
none i can think of now....

14. Where did most of your money go?
gifts for friends and family

15. What did you get really, really, really excited about?
senior ball, making varsity tennis, marathon dance

16. What song will always remind you of 2003?
"I hope you dance" -leanne womack

17. Compared to this time last year, are you:
a. happier or sadder? sadder
b. thinner or fatter? fatter
c. richer or poorer? richer

18. What do you wish you'd done more of?
beleive it or not....study for my SAT's.....cuz now i realize I'M SO SCREWED!!!!!!

19. What do you wish you'd done less of?
going on aim

20. How will you be spending Christmas?
next year....hopefully a heck of a lot better than this year

22. Did you fall in love in 2003?
in love? no.
fall for someone i ended up caring a lot about? yes

23. How many one-night stands?
too many to count...haha, j/k

24. What was your favorite TV program?
ALIAS!!!!!

25. Do you hate anyone now that you didn't hate this time last year?
no

26. What was the best book you read?
i read A LOT of good books...one of them is To Kill a Mockingbird

27. What was your greatest musical discovery?
LOTR music

28. What did you want and get?
a boyfriend

29. What did you want and not get?
elvish script bracelet......however, i've changed that now. i want elvish script earrings instead =D

30. What was your favorite film of this year?
LOTR ROTK!!!!!!!!!!!! (finding nemo comes in a close second =D)

31. What did you do on your birthday, and how old were you?
i went to school and received a lot of hugs and gifts from my friends. and i realized that ashley is the bestest friend in the entire world.....and i have the absolute coolest friends ever =D

32. What's one thing that would have made your year immeasurably more satisfying?
less cheating (in school)

33. How would you describe your personal fashion concept in 2003?
flip flops rule!!

34. What kept you sane?
God

35. Which celebrity/public figure did you fancy the most?
Orlando Bloom, Michael Vartan, Jennifer Garner, Dr. Richard King

36. What political issue stirred you the most?
our retarded governor of CA

37. Who did you miss?
my grandma (she's in China now), my sister (she's hardly around), a great guy that was in my life for 4 really great months, and friends that i don't spend enough time with

38. Who was/were the best new person/people you met?
hmmm....i met a lot of new really cool people last year: peter, percy, laura & her msj friends, matthew, max, jump, perry & some other sophomores, matt, ryan, david, scott, and a whole bunch more ppls i can't think of.

39. Tell us a valuable life lesson you learned in 2003.
failure is a part of life. don't think about it as failure.....think about it as a learning experience because from that we can learn and grow.

40. Quote a song lyric that sums up your year.
"Boats Against the Current" -lyrics by eric carmen

I know it’s over
You know it’s over
We’re just goin’ through the motions
But we’re sailin’ separate oceans world’s apart
And you know it’s breakin’ my heart

I was a dreamer
You were a dreamer
But perfection is consuming
And it seems we’re only human after all
And we’ve both been takin’ the fall

But tomorrow
We’ll run a little bit faster
Tomorrow
We’re gonna find what we’re after at last
Feelings that we left in the past
There’s romance in the sunset
We’re boats against the current to the end

Maybe we’re older
Maybe we’re colder
So we disregard solutions
While we cling to our illusions once again
And we keep rememberin’ when

Seasons are changin’
Reasons are changin’
But the story isn’t ending
So we find ourselves pretending one more day
While the years keep slippin’ away

But tomorrow
We’ll run a little bit faster
Tomorrow
We’re gonna find what we’re after at last
Feelings that we left in the past
There’s romance in the sunset
We’re boats against the current to the end