im feeling just a tad freaking stressed right now. im so good at balancing my time...dealing with hw and extracurriculurs. but i feel like im running on a constant schedule i can't break. i've been balancing things for so long without a break that i feel like im breaking down. i need a break from school. but school doesn't slow down and im trying to keep up but it's so hard. i have an english study group this weekend. i gotta do my chem labs this weekend also. i have an english essay due monday. i have an english test on friday. i have a chem test thursday and friday. and i still got practice next week. the ap us history test is in may and i haven't started studying yet.

i really need to catch up on chem reading. cuz i haven't read section five or six which is what tonights hw is on. im tempted to copy the hw but i know that never helps. i try to refrain from copying. i like doing things on my own. but there's so much for me to do on my own i think im falling apart. my parents are going to l.a. again this weekend....leaving sunday morning and coming back monday night. im so sick of being alone all the time. most teenagers would be like "woohoo! one night w/o parents." but i get sick of it....of having to stay home alone overnight, without even my sister around. i just want to sleep. i want time to stop so i can catch up. but like in Big Fish, if time stops, when is starts again, it runs ten times faster to make up for lost time. life is like a constant rewind, stop, fast forward, pause, play. it hasn't been on pause for awhile.