this one person makes me so mad. JUST cuz he didn't get what he wanted he's not talking to me....like AT ALL. we used to be friends but for the past month he's been a total PRICK. we weren't really GOOD friends but we were still friends. in the beginning i gave him his space and tried to understand. he had some right to be kinda miffed. but he's being a total retard now. whenever i say hi he just mumbles hi back or nods at me. or other times i say hi, he briefly glances at me and nods then purposely turns his head and carries on this conversation with other people with this smile stretched across his freaking face. it's like he's making a point to show that he's not talking to me and doesn't want to either. at first i ignored it cuz i figured he would get over it, but yesterday he reached ultimate prick-hood.

he was having a conversation with my friend and i say ONE thing in the conversation. i wasn't even directly talking to him. i was just adding something to the convo. but stupid jackass turns to me and says, "hey. shut up im not talking to you. im talking to ****." i was thinking, "whoa...calm down jack hole."

i tried to be nice and civil cuz i dont like it when people are mad at me. i dont like having enemies or anything. i dont even think i know anyone who totally doesn't like me at all. hmm....maybe sulaymen but i could care less about that. anways, my point is that there's no one i don't like and doesn't like me back. it sucks that he used to be my friend but now we're not talking at all. to top it off he's in The Last Unicorn with me also. i didn't want us to not be friends, but im not going to give him the benefit of the doubt while he's continuously being mean to me. he doesn't deserve that.

i refrained from mentioning any names in case anyone freaks out or w/e. anyways, i luv this song =D.

If you're lost, you can look and you will find me,
Time after time.
If you fall I will catch you, I'll be waiting,
Time after time.
~ Cindy Lauper - "Time After Time"

this song brings back memories from my junior high years. those were fun days =D. i remember how i used to complain about the work and now it's like one fifth of the work i have now in my classes. i remember my boy-band obsession. i remember round-up day and the renaissance lunch and the straight-A tea. i remember in the morning we would all be under the alcove talking and taking pictures of daniel. i remember lunch time by the portables. i remember the dances and the crushes and the simplicty of everything.

i remember eighth grade being one of the best years of my life. there was the waterworld, or was it raging waters (i forgot), trip. the promotion dance rocked. eighth grade was the year that i wasn't new anymore. i was surrounded by friends and i was finally fitting in to fremont life. i liked being the upper class on campus. it felt good knowing everyone from the students to the teachers. if there was one year i could repeat, it'd be eighth grade. but life moves on, and things get complicated. high school is harder and as i get older each year i wish for the day that i was back in junior high. i wish for the day that things were easy....simple.

still, so much has happend in high school that i wouldn't trade these past three years for the world. i've made so many new friends and have had so many new experiences. i'm just reminiscing about the good ol' days. hmm...i find it ironic that i talk about "the good ol' days" and yet im only sixteen. im not turning seventeen for another eight months.

i wonder what brought on this three paragraph ramble about the past. i guess it's that lately i've been so busy. It's killing me just to stay caught up in my classes without having to study for AP tests and SAT IIs. and with all this work burying me i just thought about a simpler life....a junior high-schoolers life. don't get me wrong, i love being in high school. part of what's so great about it is that after i get through all the stress and work i can look back and say, "damn, i made it through." my friend told me to take things slower and that life goes as slow as i want it to. well, that's not entirely true. life moves at lightning speed and i gotta stay caught up. otherwise i fall behind. hmmm...maybe thats just my life. i couldn't stand living a slow life and miss out on all the action =D =P.

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HAPPY BIRTHDAY JENN!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!