i was in a crap mood yesterday. anyways, my house was on major high stress level this morning. cuz we had to be out of there with all our stuff by eight o'clock for the fumigation. woohoo, termites. im going to kill every freaking last one on this frigging planet. retarded things, they are. anyways, im at my uncle's house now for the next two days. it' so far. it takes like twenty minutes to get to school. thirty if you hit all the red lights. i hate red lights. all the lights should just be green. hahahaha. that'd be funny.

let's see. april is one HECK of a busy month for me. sooooo busy. i got ap tests in one month, there's interact events every weekend, im running for DC council....those three things by themselves is overwhelming. cuz i still got all my normal classes and opening night for unicorn is in about a month. erks. and my grades are like an AVALANCHE. A-V-A-L-A-N-C-H-E. they are dropping, drastically. all of them. eeeks. that's what i get for being a lazy bum for two weeks. i knew that would come back and bite me in the ass.

interact meeting today was a success. woohoo! everyone go to spring banquet! aside from VOTING FOR ME FOR LIEUTENANT GOVERNOR there's good food, lotsa new ppl to meet, and a lot of good speeches to hear. did i mention VOTING STEPHANIE WU FOR LIEUTENANT GOVERNOR? haha, just in case ya didn't get that earlier =D.

im going to be on high stress level for awhile cuz of all the stuff going on this month. what's really funny is that i freak out in advance and when the stuff comes to pass i handle it o.k. i call it pre-freaking-out-cuz-of-stress syndrome. im working on a shorter name. haha.

my nails are long. i dont like long nails. it feels weird typing with long nails. but im also too lazy to cut them. so i guess im stuck.

la la la la. english test this friday. @#$#@%$^^(**)(**(^&#%@&)(*) <----me spazzing out. muuuuust force myself to do work in morse's class. sooo haaard. muuuuust doooo work. k, for someone feeling stressed out, im in a surprisingly quirky mood. oo! saw douggie today! damn. haha, j/k it was good seeing him again. well im out.

it's never quiet anymore. stop yelling dammit! why dont they just shut the fuck up? peace and quiet. that's all i want. i want quiet without tension in the air and ppl hanging on the edge of their fucking rope. no one cares what goes on in my life, so why should i listen to a damn thing they say to me? what reason do i have to take their advice or do what they tell me to do? none.

i got a letter from washington d.c. today.

Dear Stephanie,
I am delighted to inform you that, because of you outstanding academic achievements, you have been nominated to represent the state of CA as a National Scholar at teh National Young Leaders Conference--to be held this summer in Washington D.C.

let's see. what did i do after i read that? well first i read it again. cuz i was thinking, "wth!? why'd they choose me? why not choose someone with even more outstanding academic achievements like sarmad or someone?" after i read it about ten times i jumped online to see if it was a fake or not. so i do some research, and woohoo! it's not fake. THEN i thought "holy crap....i got picked to repreent CA." i was in such a state of shock that i couldn't even be estatically happy.

then i read all the other papers included with the letter. the cost is like 2200 dollars NOT including airfare. well, seeing as how my parents can't afford that, i dont think i can go. there are scholarships available but they're REALLY limited and there are so many more ppl who probably need it more than i do. which sucks. no it just doesn't suck. it sucks freaking retarded ass. this is a frigging amazing opportunity. it's a great way for me to work on my leadership AND it's even cooler cuz im chosen to represent CA. i dunno how many high school students are in CA, but there has to be a heck of a lot and i'm chosen. why? why am i chosen if i can't even afford to go? bastards.

it makes me mad. did God mean for me to get this letter and be accepted knowing that i can't go? or maybe God will find a way for me to go. i never know. He has a plan for me, and i just gotta accept it. it's just so hard accepting something when you don't know what that "soemthing" is. maybe in God's plan i'll get a scholarship and i'll be able to go. it's confusing. why does everything revolve around money? freaking everything. it's damn retarded.

EyE AmNuMbEr OnE: i need a magic pill
EyE AmNuMbEr OnE: so i can be smarted
EyE AmNuMbEr OnE: smarter*
EyE AmNuMbEr OnE: whoa
EyE AmNuMbEr OnE: that was smart..


fobz rock 1 5: he [Sam] is hella buff now huh?!
fobz rock 1 5: lol jp
LiPsOnFiRe19: uh..i dont know. i didn't really feel his chest or anythign when i saw him
fobz rock 1 5: nah
fobz rock 1 5: badminton player
fobz rock 1 5: never buff
LiPsOnFiRe19: hahahahahahaa
LiPsOnFiRe19: that's wrong....
fobz rock 1 5: itz true
fobz rock 1 5: tennis player...
fobz rock 1 5: 1 out of 10
fobz rock 1 5: buff
fobz rock 1 5: badminton
fobz rock 1 5: 1 out of 100
LiPsOnFiRe19: HAHAHAHAHA
fobz rock 1 5: and that buff dude probably joined cuz there are azn girls

alias tonight! woot woot!

fobz rock 1 5: "nique" means fuck in french
LiPsOnFiRe19: wth....
LiPsOnFiRe19: really?
LiPsOnFiRe19: haha
fobz rock 1 5: lol yea
LiPsOnFiRe19: interesting
fobz rock 1 5: these french guy was saying to me
fobz rock 1 5: nick this nick that
fobz rock 1 5: and i thought he thought my name was nick
LiPsOnFiRe19: HAHAHAHAHHA


SwEeTAhOy: u get to see 5 planets tonite just after dusk
SwEeTAhOy: u dont get to see this for another 32 years
LiPsOnFiRe19: wha? really? when? where?
SwEeTAhOy: the whole god damn sky


iUqiddis 03: steph is to sarmad as wormtongue is to sauraman

hahahaha...me and sarmad were planning on taking over interact. coup d'etat. that was the analogy he came up with. fuuuuun =D.

first thing this morning i took the SAT's. thaaaanks daveeed for the ride =D. and you'll never guess who i saw! SAM WU! yah yah. testing was over and i was walking out and this guy comes up to me and he's all "stephanie?". i was like yeah....and he said, "this is sam." i was SO freaking shocked. first of all cuz a couple months ago lu emailed me pictures of sam and his hair was freaking LONG. apparently he cut it. good for him, he looks better with non-long hair. second of all, he grew. like a lot. he's not really tall...but he's a HECK of a lot taller since i last saw him.

aw, sam all grown up. it's nice how i don't hate him now. hahaha. all u centerville kiddies who knew me and sam, know about all the teasing that went on. geez, slava was such a bastard. haha, j/k. actually im not kidding. he WAS one, but he's not anymore so it's all good. besides, it wasn't only him...he's just easier to pinpoint cuz all the old centerville ppl aren't around anymore. how sad....

and then i had ap history study group at school. holy crap monkey! i came about twenty minutes late and i couldn't get into the E-Building!!!!!! i tried EVERY DOOR and i couldn't get in. FINALLY, i had to go up to the window, hop onto the ledge and knock on the window. david was the first one to saw me. he told morse to open the door, but not before laughing at me first. eh, i i was inside i woulda laughed at me also. hahaha.

then i saw eternal sunshine of the spotless mind today with my sis. goooood movie. kinda sad and morose but i reccommend it. just if ur looking to be happy, erm, don't see that movie. haha. good cast though: Jim carrey, kate winslet, elijah wood, kirsten dunst. wooo!

such a tiring day. I LUV THE I-POD. IT'S SO FREEEEEAKING COOOOOOL. my sister borrowed her bf's ipod cuz she's going to philly for a medschool interview, and i using it today. holy crap! it's AWESOME! im so ADDICTED TO IT!!! ahhhhh!!!!!!!!! that's my new obsession right now. if anyone feels like shelling out a few hundred dollars, u know what i want =D

funny thing happened this morning. i was walking to school, and i saw lu on the other side of the street so i called out to him. well he stopped and i crossed the street. between the sidewalk and the curb is a patch of grass....this morning it was really muddy grass. i didn't wanna step in it so i decided to hop over it. which i did, but not before falling straight on my ass right on the cement. yep. i was successful in not stepping in the mud, but i was wearing my backpack and i was carrying my books when i jumped and my tennis shoes don't have a lot of traction. so i fell. it was a "cartoon" moment. it's not like i tripped and then fell, it's more like i slipped backwards and fell on my butt....just like how cartoon characters fall when they slip on a banana peel. and lu, being the great guy he is just stood there. wonderful. hahaha

i did so freaking miserably on my chem test. my grade went down two percent. it's a 90 percent now. blah blah blah, i know it's still an A- BUT the point is that the test was HALF of a complete chapter exam and my grade already dropped two percent. mother effer. can't wait to see how much my grade will drop after tomorrow's test. DAMMIT! well, good news is that im over my laziness. i wanted motivation to not be lazy, well i just found it. i am TOTALLY and COMPLETELY dedicated to getting off my ass now and studying. woohoo.

oh frigging sick, tom shively was "licking" me today in journalism. not really licking, but he licked his hand and then rubbed his hand on my face. gross gross gross. and if that wasn't enough, he wiped his hand in my ear and on my glasses. hecka nasty. when i took off my glasses there was like this wet streak across it. EW! seniors are freaking weird...

ah! my grade dropped FOUR percent in english. holy mother.

there is SO much talk going on about junior prom lately. SO MUCH TALK ABOUT IT. reed was trying to convince me to go and so was michelle zimm. i hecka didn't want to cuz it's gonna be in the GYM! but after reed described the setup, i was considering going. and then michelle busted out with her argument "you dont want to graduate high school and not be able to say 'i went to junior prom.'" so that convinced me even MORE. but THEN, i thought about it, and i don't really mind not going. cuz i may not be able to say i went to junior prom but i can say i went to senior ball AND i went on a yacht on SF Bay. that interact cruise was like my junior prom. which wasn't bad =D.

i do know one thing though. if im not going to junior prom, i am NOT staying home that night. im going to multicultural night at msj for interact district 5170 for sure. do any non-junior-prom-goers wanna hang out before heading over to msj? i think that'd be fun. plus, i get to see my guy that night. well, i hope i do. i find it ironic that i call him "my guy" when he's not mine in any way, and when i don't even talk to him. oh well.

hmm...in the course of writing, er typing, this entry, i'm starting to think about junior prom. it seems like soemthing everyone should go to...JUNIOR PROM. woohoo! hum de dum. nah, probably not. i've made up my mind and i don't regret my decision. hahaha, this was a useless paragraph.

AH! i was reading all the forms and stuff for ryla. eeeeks!!!! im so excited!! woot woot! holler back! i need to calm down. i need to study. i need to pass some tests.

oh my goodness, my parents are SO freaking unsupportive. holy crap. i was telling my mom how i got into ryla, and i was explaining what it was and everything.

me: it's a type of leadership camp
mom: you can't be in leadership
me: what?
mom: you're too immature to be a good leader. you're too much like a kid.
me: just cuz i have a lot of enthusiasm a lot of times doesn't mean i'm immature.
mom: really? i don't think so.
me: well, im running for lieutenant governor
mom: *laughs* are u sure u can do that?
me: yes im sure, thanks for ur support.
mom: u just don't have the type of personality or character to be in leadership
me: okay.....that's mean.
mom: u think im mean?
me: yes
mom: *jokingly* fine, ur not my friend anymore
me: that's fine. i don't want friends unsupportive of me. at least my friends think i can do it.

*later on the conversation switches*

dad: yeah, stephanie couldn't do something like a doctor or computer major.
me: yep, i agree. i'm more of an active person.
mom: but u couldn't be a reporter or journalist major. that's not the same type of active as you are.
me: what do u mean
mom: well those people are assertive and strong-willed. you're active and hyper. like a kid.
me: okay, thanks a lot. i appreciate all your enthusiasm for my future.

HOLY CRAP. omg, my parents, especially my mom, just doesn't get it. she thinks that by saying all that, she's helping me out at finding something that i'm good at it. but THIS is what im good at it and she's totally not understanding. Ryla, Interact, leadership, and journalism is what i like and what im good at it. but she doesn't see it that way, so she doesn't support what i do. it pisses the heck out of me. she thinks that she knows me and what i'm like, but she has NO freaking clue AT ALL. i know i act all crazy and hyper at home but who doesn't? that has NOTHING to do with being a bad leader. she has some misconceived idea that a good leader is someone who is focused and serious 24/7. damn, i hate stereotypes. freaking retarded.

in a way, i want lieutenant governor to prove to my mom that i CAN be a leader. im running cuz i really want to be more involved in interact and make a difference. but part of me also wants to shove it her face. but im sure that if i ever got the position she would say im setting myself up for failure. egh, whatever. whenever i bring up something about leadership my mom ALWAYS says she doesn't think i'm a leader type person. and at the end of the conversation, she ALWAYS ends up saying, "ok ok. u can be a leader," just cuz she sees im getting miffed and she wants to appease me. but EVERY time i bring up the whole leadership thing again, she always says the same depressing thing. so in the end, she beleives that i can't do it, or if i AM put in the position, i'll fail.

parents are so damn depressing all the time. oh, and my parents were talking about how whs has gotten really low in standardized test scores. and they started saying all this stuff about certain high schools that didn't measure up to standards.

me: standardized tests are completely dumb and useless
mom: that's what u think because ur a student and u have to take them
me: but they really are useless. they force us to conform to standards and don't take in other factors of our learning. i should know, i wrote my essay on this.
mom: *disbeleiving tone* really?
me: yes, in fact, my english teacher agrees with me. teachers start teaching to the tests so the state won't take over the school, and students stop learning. this actually lowers the standard.
mom: hmm...you're a kid. you don't know what you're talking about. i'm a grown-up. of course i know more about this subject than you do.
me: that's not true...i actually did RESEARCH before i formed my opinion.
mom: hm, this just shows that you're not a very studious person. you don't like SAT's, you dont like tests, u dont like anything except having fun.

at that point i stopped talking. my parents are SO stuck in their ways that they can't possibly change their views. i hate that. what i hate even more is the fact that my parents think that teenagers are dumb idiots who don't know anything. which is totally untrue. i hate ppl who think teenagers can't make a difference or that we don't know anything about the social/political/economic going ons in the world. im not stupid! i have my own opinions MOTHER! damn...

my parents depress me....

u know what's really cool? having an unattainable crush. yeps. like remember those junior high crushes where u liked this one person cuz he/she was heck of cute or popular or w/e. but you knew that you'd NEVER get with them in a MILLION years. but u still obsessed over them and all that stuff. remember that? well, i do. and it's nice having that same type of feeling again. not the whole phony, popular, hot guy crush thing cuz that was like weird junior-high obsessions. junior high crushes were liking the person based on their looks or their reputation.

i'm talking about the whole unattainable thing. where you can like someone but not have the complications of wondering if he'll like you back, or if you'll ever "go out" with him. it's nice to have a crush just to think about but know you won't be able to have him. haha. it sounds weird. but a crush without attachments is a good thing to have, well for me it is =D

That's probably why im writing this in my blog. cuz i don't care who knows, since no one is ever going to see him or talk to him. i'm probably never going to see him or talk to him. so it's all good. otherwise i'd probably tell just about no one. i feel like announcing this news to the world. k, well, not that much. hahaha.

after school i was talking to jenny, and she told me something she heard that happened to me. i was like WHAT?!?! no way, that's a rumor. so jenny explained how she found out, and it dawned on me what she was talking about. the person who started the rumor (well not really a rumor, just the half-truth) HECK OF blew the situation out of proportion. like, what they said was SORT OF true, but not entirely. i don't like people who say things that are based on truth but isn't completely true. cuz then it's NOT true and it's a RUMOR!!!!! they can say all the false things about themselves and i wouldn't care, but if it involves someone other than themselves it'd be nice to tell the WHOLE TRUTH. i guess u can't call it a rumor, cuz it's nothing bad...it's just NOT TRUE. it's a half-truth, which makes it totally and completely RETARDED. k, im done ranting =D.

I'M GOING TO RYLA!!! WOOT WOOT!!!! I FOUND OUT FROM ALAN TODAY THAT ME, PAULA, MICHELLE, AND SARMAD ARE GOING TO R-Y-L-A...RYLA!!!!!! HOLLER!!! now i'm even more impatient for summer =D.

ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh. i was talking to christine from milipitas. and their grad nite is on the SAME yacht as the interact cruise was. and they get to stay on it from 9pm-6am. AND it's only 140 dollars. yeah, i know that sounds expensive but OUR grad nite is in the damn GYM and it's over 100 dollars also. AND their school is sending ten people to RYLA!!! ah!!!!! i'm so jealous of milipitas. i wanna go to that school! hahahaha.

hmm....i just found out that trojans is the name of a brand of condoms. interesting. never knew that before....

nothing remotely exciting happened to me today, so i might as well say what happened to me yesterday. matthew and amy stopped by for a visit. i used my keen sense of direction to tell matthew how to get to newpark mall. in this case, keen=retarded. haha. i actually completed all my hw. yay! well, by "all" i mean i sorta studied for history and i did one section of notes for chem. haha.

i just finished a barbecue. i luv zuchinni. yum =D.

ah, i had such a fun conversation with wendy friday night. i was supposed to be doing my chem labs, but oh well, i don't talk to that girl enough. haha, wendy, ur such a hopeless romantic. she was turning my life into a cinderella story. which isn't bad i guess, considering the ending of that fairy tale =D.

car wash today. i held signs with duc and slava for most of the time. i was pretty damn tired when i got home. then i went out to dinner with my sis, her bf, and my parents. it wasn't as interesting as i expected it to be. damn. i wish my mom would've asked some embarrassing questions or something. would've made me laugh at least. haha. im so mean...

eeeks, my sister leaves in four months for med school. so that would be at the end of july. it's freaking soon...dang.

english essay, history test, chem lab book, chem chapter nine notes, and two journalism articles all have to be done tomorrow. along with watching alias of course. huh. i wonder if that's possible.

holy shit, im about to KICK my dad in his head. he just made the MOST stupid, retarded string of comments. and it's not stupid funny either. it's just DUMB. if i tried to type it out or explain it, it wouldn't come out right. what the freaking hell is his problem?!?! he can't talk about things he doesn't know. and he can't accuse me of thinking things im not even thinking. freaking problems, i swear.

got back my english essay today. 88 percent. when i got it, i felt so let down. i KNOW it's not a bad grade. im not a xin or helen, so i know 88 isn't bad. i just wanted ONCE to get an A on one of wallach's essays, even if it was a 90. it seemed like i hadn't improved the WHOLE year. cuz the WHOLE year i've been getting B pluses on the essays, without any sign of improvement. for my essays, the comment he ALWAYS puts is "i am impressed with ur subject choice. it was very difficult to write about and u did a good job, but..." holy crap, im thinking "STOP BEING IMPRESSED AND GIVE ME AN A!!!" hahaha. anyways, i was feeling kinda bummed, but i went in anyways after school to talk to him about it and i came out feeling pretty damn snazzy.

*side note: my dad is cussing like a madman in the kitchen.*

i obviously went in to talk to Wallach about my essay so that i could figure out my mistakes and improve for next time. the second, less obvious reason, was cuz he's like such a good self-esteem booster. haha. that sounds so lame. but really he is. he just told me a bunch of stuff how the reason i pick complicatd subjects is because that's how my mind works, and that's the stuff that interests me. if i pick easier topics then im not learning, and even though i may get 88 percents on harder topics, i'm learning more. he told me that change is gradual and i wont see the improvement in my essay grades, i'll see it in my future writing, and my thought processes.

i dunno. wallach just makes you feel good about your writing and yourself. and it's not like he says this awe-inspiring stuff. he just tells you how it is flat out. and u can tell he's not bull shitting to try to make you feel good cuz he's not like that. and that's pretty freaking cool for a teacher to do that.

what else? um....yesterday i reached my ULTIMATE peak of stupidity. i had the sn for a frigging DAY. ONE day. i had it for 24 hours and i was already going online like every five minutes checking for it. and it's not even a sure 6121154 yet! whooo...being pathetic is so funny. hahahaha.

omg....im getting soooo lazy. holy mother of pearl i'm getting lazy. it started this week. im just so freaking restless, and i'll do anything to procrastinate. like i really do ANYTHING to not do my hw. it's ridiculous. i'll go on aim, i'll check blogs/xangas (that's a terrific way to waste time), and i'll run around like a crazy person. i even check xangas of people i dont know! i'll go to my friend's xanga, then i'll click on one of their buddies, and i'll click one of that buddy's buddies and read that xanga. i know, im stupid, im a loser, i have NO life. i just dont FEEL like doing hw! rawrgers.

i have been on aim SO much this past week. it's getting out of control. it's not like im addicted to aim. i could probably cut myself off for a month and i'd be fine. but i'd just find some other way to waste time. it's just that aim is such an EASY way for me to avoid hw. *sigh*. i wish i was hooked on aim so then i could at least ban myself from it, but in my situation if i ban myself i'll end up reading more xangas and singing more songs to myself alone in my room. hahaha. the semester isn't even half over yet!!! ahhhhhhhhhhhhh. this SUCKS! i was SO excited first semester finals were over i COMPLETELY forgot i still have another semester to go and another semester worth of finals. mother effer.

im going to do my hw now. seriously i will. ah, who am i kidding. im going on aim. haha. NO! i have to resist temptation. im going to my room now where i have NO internet connection. holy crap, im like a drug addict or something. i'm addicted to not doing work and procrastinating. k, im going now. for real...

Your Life: The Movie by mintyduck
Who will play you:	Salma Hayek
Who will play your love interest:	Brad Pitt
Weeks you will stay in the box office:	7
Song that will play during your love scene:	Eels - Restraining Order Blues
Song that will play during your death:	Nine Inch Nails - Eraser
Your name:
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coolness. salma hayek is sooo gorgeous. and i luv brad pitt. im liking my life as a movie. haha.

funny thing happened in journalism yesterday. i forgot the sophomores were in testing so i was looking around the table and im like "where's perry?". and ryan says "in the bathroom jacking off." hahahaha. me and jenn were laughing sooo hard. it was just sooo random. of all the things to say, i didn't expect that. haha.

today in chem slava was asking me for food. since i didnt have any he checked his backpack and found a totally SMUSHED banana inside. it was freaking gross. it was even grosser because it's been in there for a week. and after he found out he's all, "at least i have food now." i asked him if he was gonna clean it out and he said, "yeah. i will. the smell's kinda nice though." some ppl are weird. haha.

EyE AmNuMbEr OnE: shut up
EyE AmNuMbEr OnE: i'm tired
EyE AmNuMbEr OnE: leave me alone
EyE AmNuMbEr OnE: bastard
LiPsOnFiRe19: dude
LiPsOnFiRe19: calm down
EyE AmNuMbEr OnE: no
EyE AmNuMbEr OnE: stuf you
EyE AmNuMbEr OnE: STUF YOU
EyE AmNuMbEr OnE: like a turkey

hahahahaha. for some reaons, i find random insults sooo hilarious. haha. oo! funny stuff. well we all know what a WONDERFUL influence sarmad is. after he started the whole "calm down. goosfraba" thing, i started saying it also. i started saying "calm down" to my mom, and since my mom's cool and all she just tells me "calm down" back. but my dad is like teh BEST person to say calm down to cuz he gets SO mad. haha. here's what happened yesterday at dinner.

dad: move the plate
*i didn't hear him so i don't do anything*
dad: MOVE THE PLATE
me: *moves plate* calm down
dad: DON'T TELL ME TO CALM DOWN
me: calm down
dad: where did u learn that anyways!??! it's very disrespectful
*i learned enough by now not to say calm down again*

it was SO freaking hilarious. the night before that i told my dad to calm down cuz he was getting all worked up over nothing. that was funny too.

me: calm down
dad: i AM calm. don't tell me to calm down
me: no, i think you just need to calm down
dad: *makes a hurrumph kind of noise* don't talk to me like that from now on, OK?!

i was CRACKING up by then, so i couldn't say anything. it's jsut SO hilarious cuz he actually gets WORKED UP when you tell him to calm down, just like in the movie. most ppl i tell to calm down in school just give me look and say "i am calm." they get all weirded out and kinda miffed but no one gets mad like my dad. hahahahha. funny stuff right there =D.

ah!!!!!! i can't beleive i didn't wear green today!!!! i LOVE green! and i have heck of green shirts also! like five i think. well, they're not all mine, but it doesn't matter cuz they were all available for me to wear today! but i TOTALLY forgot about ST.Patrick's day. geez, what's the use of a calender if i don't look at it. funny thing is though, that i have two calenders. i have an alias calender on my wall, and a harry potter one on my desk. so it seems LOGICAL that i should've known. but i didn't. damn.

i want to see the movie moulin rouge. and i want to see les miserables at msjhs. and i want to see chicago at nmhs. haha, im becoming play obsessive.

Which LOTR character (male) would you end up with? by Cormak
Username:
You end up with:	Legolas
You meet on:	February 25, 3028
This is where:	in the Shire
And this is what happens:	He makes love to you beneath the stars
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hehe, i like the part about legolas. the making love part is kinda weird...

this entry will be a sequel type thing to last night's entry. it's just some more stuff that bugs me. hahaha. ppl might get the impression of been in a pissy mood lately, but i haven't. i've still been in a pretty good mood since friday. damn, i need to go on a cruise EVERY week. it'll keep me happy which'll keep me young. haha, that was weird.

ANYWAYS, i don't get it when ppl say "me do this" or "me go now" or "me talk to you late cuz me have to....". what's with the "me"?!!?!? is it so hard to use "i" which is actually SHORTER than "me"? it's EXACTLY ONE letter shorter. yeah, as if you guys couldn't figure that out. stating the obvious is funny though. ANYWAYS, i don't understand it. i mean, no need to butcher the english language more than we already do on aim, what with abbreviating "you" to "u" and "because" to "cuz" and other stuff like that.

i have a lot of aim pet peeves. stuff like "skewl" or "skoo" for school. holy mother, just type school. or how about "produkshun" or "creashunz" for production and creation. it takes me like an extra minute to think about typing words incorrectly. um, what else. oh! these faces -_-. most ppl know that bugs me already. those faces creep me out. these too ^_^ . that face took me like a minute to make. i couldn't find the button for the eyes. haha. just stick with these =D and you'll be alright. im getting used to those faces by now so i won't harm you if u do use them, which like everyone practically does. but if you do the weird aim abbreviations and the "me" stuff, watch out. RAWRG. haha, j/k =P. i still luv everyone.

AH!!!! i found out that for RYLA the rotarians aren't doing interviews anymore!! ahhh!! that SUCKS! know why!? cuz on the paper i didn't bother writing that much since i figured we'd be interviewed anyways. RAWRG! it is SO extremely, positively STUPID to pick three people to go to RYLA based on a RETARDED sheet of paper that is supposed to take the place of an interview. u dont find out about a person from paper, u find out about them from a face to face INTERVIEW. I-N-T-E-R-V-I-E-W. DANG.

hmmm, i noticed that i've been using caps a lot lately. that's only cuz i don't like italics. they make the words all funky and hard to read. haha. i'm wondering if ppl get the impression that i'm shouting at monitor or something when i use caps. haha.

so im reading my friend's profile and this is what it says:

Hey, do you still remember this song?

~I want to stand with you on a mountain
I want to bathe with you in the sea
I wanna lay like this forever
Until the sky falls down on me~

Truely Madly Deeply ~ Savage Garden!

(here i'm thinking "cool! i luv this song". that is until i read on.)

I remember looking in your eye and singing it with you at the Morp Dance (March 12, 2004) There was something I could never describe from your eye. Was it love?

I have been blinded by you, **** ****! Hope you can cure me again!


Okay...that was too much for me. that's like the couple that makes out in front of my locker every day. they've been going out for like a month i think (my friend, not the couple in front of my locker). that last line was too cheesy for me. i know it's sweet and everything, but it'd be even cuter if he kept it to himself. i swear, EVERY day his profile changes to some new way to proclaim his love to his gf who he's been going out with for a month. god, i sound like love-hating biznatch. which im not. i'm totally not. but this *motions to profile content* is over the top.

i miss the days when i used to click his profile and it'd say something unrelated to his gf or love life. ah, w/e. i'm still happy for him. doesn't stop his profile from bugging the heck out of me though. k, that's all. late night ramble. haha, toodles!

Your Superhero Persona by couplandesque
Your Name
Superhero Name	The Nerd
Super Power	Impeccable Hearing
Enemy	The Gangsta
Mode Of Transportation	Volkswagen Beetle
Weapon	Baseball Bat
Created with quill18's MemeGen 3.0!

hahaha. i find that really funny cuz i have the worst hearing in the world.

anyways, after talking to duckie after school i decided that i think too much. well, more like he decided for me...but i agree. i think way too much. the past is done, no use crying over spilt milk. and i need to stop trying to organize everything so damn much. just break it down, make it simple, and do it. haha, duc is a good advice-giver. hmm..i remember reading the book The Giver in junior high. seventh grade i think. i liked that book =D.

i was beating myself up last night thinking of "the incident". i still admit it was dumb. i REALLY want to apologize cuz it was rather rude. but anyways, i just couldn't beleive my lack of confrontation abilities had reached that far. i kept on thinking "why didn't i just go BACK up after i left?" yegh. THEN i did something even WORSE and i thought about the ASSUMPTIONS i made. thinking should be made a crime. i ASSUMED the other party's interest and asked 41177 17 43 111817730 70 73115 01175103. it got worse today when i found out from michelle that 43 851530 1773 70 081763 83681153 415 712131705 1113123 081761176 and 43 11185 1017314. so during school i was obsessing over the bad decision i made when i 851530 41177 17 43 111817730 70 73115 01175103.

but thank goodness i talked to duc who convinced me to stop thinking. haha. and now im okay with all of it cuz it's totally and completely over, and i'll just take things as they come. less thinking involved that way =D.

i think this'll be the last coded entry i'll have. less thinking means less codes =D.

My Celebrity Family by popstarprincess
Your Name
Mom	Faith Hill
Dad	Steven Tyler
Brother	Chris Kirkpatrick
Sister	Stacie Orrico
Boyfriend	Johnny Depp
Created with quill18's MemeGen 3.0!

holy snaps...i like the bf part =D.

Nothing remotely exciting has happened to me. I've been in a surprisingly good mood since friday, if that's news. yeah, like anyone cares about that. whoop-de-doo, steph has been in a good mood. um, i tripped over the coffee table in the living room. it hurt. i suppose i should be thankful. It's not as bad as running into the refigerator. that hurts more.

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i'm really excited about my short story =D. im such a dork. haha.

words cannot begin to describe how amazing last night was. but i like challenges so i'll try:

the yacht was gorgeous. according to chen it was about 10,000 dollars for the night. gotta luv those rich rotarians =D. the milipitas kiddies were imitating the titanic scene on the yacht. haha. at one point the district council had everyone go inside to the second floor cuz they were announcing the check for the wheelchair foundation and a bunch of other "i luv you, i luv interact" stuff. it was crowded and stuffy inside and the boat was rocking so i bolted out of there before i puked on someone. outside it was freaking cold but it was nice to not be sick. i sat up there with paula, duc, chen and michelle.

we went photo CRAZY. cuz we were passing the bay bridge and it was GORGEOUS cuz all the lights were on, and it was so beautiful. we passed by sf, and we saw coit tower and all the skyscapers lit up against the black night sky. we passed fisherman's wharf where u could see the restaurants by the ocean with all these colorful lights. we passed by ghirdelli's chocoloate factory. it just looked so pretty at night. u see sf in the day and it's this bustling city that's split into districts....some crappy like the tenderloin and some really gorgeous seaside districts. but at night it all meshes together and u see this amazing sight. us five were the only ones on the upper deck and we were running back and forth trying to take all the pics we could before the bay bridge passed out of sight. breathtaking..absolutely breathtaking.

then we went inside and got our groove on. hahaha. they didn't play the "big butts" song, but me and paula were ok with that. it was sooooo sweet when angel of mine was playing, and laura went up to the dj and got the microphone; and she's said "i'm dedicating this song to my bf who i've been with for nine months". then she asked him to her junior prom. of course he gave her a big hug and they started dancing. it was soooooooooooo adorbable. everyone was hella cheering and whistling and going "awwww". haha. it was really cool though.

i had a rough week and this was the perfect way to unwind. so that was my friday night. typical for every teenager you know: eat dinner at chevy's, board a yacht, and cruise sf bay.

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i'm a little rusty so there might be hella typos in that up there. hahaha.

i got a 92% on my english test. so now i have a 94 in the class =D. im so super excited. holler! im in a good mood today. i was reading a story out loud in english (thanks to wendy for volunteering me. ahem) and i kept on cracking up in the middle of it. i felt so retarded. cuz the girl's short story was freaking hilarious. i usually read really fast when im reading out loud i have to read slower, so while im reading one sentence my eyes will be reading ahead to the next sentence. there was this one part when right in the middle of a sentence i started laughing my ass off. the class was like "omg! what happened? keep reading! keep reading!" and i couldn't cuz i was laughing so hard. don't u luv those moments. thanks wendy =P.


KnU JaA: lets make a story!
LiPsOnFiRe19: k
LiPsOnFiRe19: steph kills josh
LiPsOnFiRe19: end of story
KnU JaA: nice story
KnU JaA: i like the part wen u wer like
KnU JaA: k
KnU JaA: that was the best part
LiPsOnFiRe19: HAHHAAH
LiPsOnFiRe19: i know me too
KnU JaA: lol
LiPsOnFiRe19: and remember when i said end of story
KnU JaA: it was the climax of the story
LiPsOnFiRe19: that was cool too
KnU JaA: YEA
KnU JaA: it was a turn around


Woot Woot 2 3 4: who is kristen kreuk?
*i paste the message to matthew*
EyE AmNuMbEr OnE: ?!???!!??!
EyE AmNuMbEr OnE: WHAT THE HELL
EyE AmNuMbEr OnE: ...
EyE AmNuMbEr OnE: enlighten him/her!
EyE AmNuMbEr OnE: NOW
EyE AmNuMbEr OnE: NOW
*i tell david*
Woot Woot 2 3 4: i don't think she's that pretty. she's kind of ugly.
*i paste that message to matthew*
EyE AmNuMbEr OnE: ?!?!!?!?!!?!
EyE AmNuMbEr OnE: WHAT THE FRIGGIN HELL?!?!!
EyE AmNuMbEr OnE: ....he better hope he doesn't meet me anytime soon
*i paste message to david*
Woot Woot 2 3 4: i hope i meet him then
EyE AmNuMbEr OnE: sensei skills will erupt

i didn't turn in my registration forms yet. i think im a TAD late. well, FIRST i forgot my proof of residency then after that i just keep on forgetting. i remind myself in the morning, then at lunch, and after school. but i still never turn it in. oh well. i'll get it eventually.

so, i stayed home this morning? why? "cuz i didn't feel well." it was actually cuz i just needed a break. i'm so tired of studying, and i didn't wanna "crash and burn" as david put it. (i luv that song). so i stayed home and studied for chem. it was nice. i went back foruth period though and finished up my day. good stuff.

ice cream is good on hot days. i like chocolate chip and cookies n' cream ice cream. yuuum. those are the best =D

u know what i hate? well, not hate. it's just something that bugs me. it annoys me. "it" refers to how if a guy/girl has a gf/bf, and they ADVERTISE it to the frigging WORLD! i know a lot of ppl have the date they started going out in their profile and all. that's cute and everything. but then there are some people who write stuff like "girl, i luv you. you're my everything. i can't live without you." and blah blah blah. dont get me wrong. im not a scrooge or anti-love person. but do you REALLY need to tell EVERYONE about it in such a BLATANT way? a simple date and "i love you" or "happy 'blah blah' anniversary" suffices.

but when ppl start being purposely SHOWY about it, i start to wonder does this person just have a gf/bf to show ppl they have one? OR are they afraid some person is going to come and rape them if it's not known that they're taken. i mean, as long as you and ur gf/bf know is it really so important that everyone knows? so then i think, maybe that person is trying to make other people jealous that they have a gf/bf. or maybe they're just so full of themselves that they think they're the hugest pimp master in the world to get a gf/bf. haha. that was just a random thought of mine.

i think i lost my journalism floppy disk. whoops.

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for some odd reason i wore a belt to school today. but when i got home, and i took the belt off i realized that i didn't need it at all. so i wore a belt with pants that don't need it. i have no clue why. maybe i USED to need a belt for these pants and i got so used to wearing one, i automaticlly put one on when i wear these pants. but it's rather ridiculous seeing as how these pants look a lot better WITHOUT a belt, which i could have easiliy done but i didn't. oh well. isn't life funny?

the weather is so nice today. this is like the PERFECT weather. not too hot and not too cold. pants and t-shirt weather =D. nice. it's a perfect day to sit in the shade, drink lemonade, eat ice cream, read a book, and take a nap. mmm.....a nap outside. i was in the mood for that after fifth period. in fact, i loved the weather SO much i went home and did my hw like i do every day. isn't that just AMAZING!? unfortunately, school doesn't stop for nice weather. it's retarded if u ask me, but no one ever does so there u go: we have hw on sunny days. i forgot my point. i think when im hungry i get sidetracked. hmm...gtg check my email now. later days.

The english hw was so funny. i didn't know grammar could make me laugh. haha. check it out:

~You will probably need to spend more time and thought in mastering the pair of commas than in learning to handle all the other marks combined, but you will also be more richly rewarded.

~Now if one is using the English language, a separation of the subject from its verb is a pretty serious matter.

~It is so firmly fixed in our conscioness [to have subject and verb together] that we become definitely disturbed if it is changed or broken in any way.

~If we read in a popular thriller, "John killed Mary," we know that Mary is to be buried and John is to be caught.

~"The illustrated magazine suddenly laid upon his knees the old man in the chair which he had been reading the magaznie by the window."

"The illustrated magazine" is asumed to be the suject of a verb, and when we see the verb "laid" immediately following it, we suppose that it represents what the magazine did. When this verb is followed by "the old man," the entire group of words can only be describing a fantastic impossibility.

hahahaha. that last one was funny. "fantastic impossibility." wooo...i had fun doing english hw =D.

it's sunny outside. i like warm weather =D. it's about time we started having some sun. but that means no more funny moments with umbrellas, wind, and rain. haha. oh well.

my sister's in new york for a med school interview right now. she got accepted to drexel, in philly, a couple weeks ago. i thought she was going to faint from excitement. i think she moves over there in august or something. *sigh*. i knew she was going to leave eventually. i mean, she didn't leave for college cuz she went to berekely and stayed in the bay area. and after that she went to a post-bac program at Mills College in oakland so she was still in the bay area.

i guess it really hit me recently that she's going to be leaving. i was working with her on my controversial issue essay for english. she sat down with me and we picked through EVERY single sentence correcting all of it. it think it took us more than an hour. and then a couple nights ago, i didnt' understand chem, so she came home from sf and explained ch.7 and 8 to me.

and i just thought that omg, next year she's not going to be around. she's coming home for christmas and stuff like that but she'll be living on the east coast for most of the year. she's always giving me advice about college and school and guys and everything in between. since she works in sf, she spends most of the week at her bf's place there, but if i ever need anything i call her and she's back home in an hour. she's always been there and in my final year at high school she's not going to be around. she won't be around when i apply to college, when i go to prom, and i dont even know if she'll be around for graduation.

i was just thinking about this recently, that im so used to having her around i can't think of what it'll be like when she leaves. i always assumed that she'd be around until i move out of the house also. i have to admit, she stuck around as long as she could. she's 25 and still at home. it's about time she moved out. i just wish she could do that after i graduate. in the past year or two she's been around a lot less. i don't remember the last time i went shopping or saw a movie with her. part of that is cuz i've gotten a lot more busy also.

my parents haven't always been able to give me a lot. but then i always had my sister so it wasn't a big deal. if i ever needed some extra cash or whatever i could go to her. but now that she's going to med school she's gonna be one broke-ass girl. hahaha. but there's other things. late night talks, all of our inside jokes, our weird stuffed animal obsessions, our fits of laughter, shopping sprees, sister dinners and lunches together, and a whole bunch of other stuff. im just starting to realize that she's gonna be tied up for four years. and after that, she's got residency for two years. i know she'll always be my sister...but she'll be like an absentee one for a few years.

and as much as i want to spend time with her now, i'm always running around trying to keep up with my life. and she's still got med school interviews, a job, and a life outside of the home she's been stuck in for 25 years. it's so hard to imagine senior year without her.

but enough of that, it's sunny outside today.

After trekking around campus for an hour after school today, i decided that im taking ap calculus. the stats teacher, bereinga, is heck of cool. i was talking to him and after he asked me how i was doing in precalc, he told me to go next door and take calculus. then when he asked me what i planned on majoring in, i told him english, and he told me to stay there and take stats. i was like...uhhhhh. hahaha. i talked to joseph and some of her students and they both said first semester is hard cuz it's all new stuff but second semester after u get the basics it's much smoother. and the ppl who took the ap test, whether they had A's, B's or C's, all got fours and fives. so here's my schedule:

AP English, AP Econ/Govt, AP Calculus, Lit Justice & Society, Drama 2, Anatomy

but naturally, after i decide on calculus i think up a new dilemma for myself. haha. i reeeaallllly wanna take hui's class: You and the Law. ah! it sounds so cool! so i might swap that with Lit Justice & Society. and after talking to Bereinga, i found out he only gives out hw 3 times a week. so now i want Stats also! im starting to think that i make up situations for myself to be stuck in. haha. but as of now, i only have one hard class in my schedule: ap calculus. everything else is easy as potatoes.

im considering seven classes, which would give me a zero period. i'd prolly take You and the Law then. hmmm. it's like just when i seem satisfied for my schedule, a teacher pops in and talks about their class. most ppl who aren't idiots like me ignore it and go along with their schedule. but then u got me who gets stuck in a rut after hearing about a cool class and talking to a cool teacher. im just fabulous like that =P.

english test tomorrow!!!!!!!!!

!#$$&^*(*()*&$%%^#$$%@#$!#$^%&*. <----- that's me freaking out. later days.

im losing my mind. for the last two days i've been labeling the dates on my papers 6/3/04 and 6/4/04. that's like nowhere near march.

i found out today that schedules are due monday. so i freaked out cuz i haven't chosen my classes. but now im un-freaking out cuz i've narrowed down my choices to numbers three, four, and six. snazzziness =D.

oh, and sarmad, how is calculus a waste of units? it's ten units per year like every other class....

funny thing happened in history yesterday when mr.hedley (student teacher in morse's class) was talking to the class.

Mr. Hedley: i noticed that many of you like to read the newspaper during class. you don't pay attention to the lesson and read the comics instead.

*sarmad throws his newspaper on his lap to the ground*

...Some of you even go as far as to open up the newspaper and prop your hands up on ur desk, covering ur face from the teacher, while reading the news.

*i realize that he must be talking to me cuz i sit right in front of his desk and that day i was reading the news about the oscars just in the way he was describing*

...All the side activities going on while the teacher is lecturing is extremely disrespectful, not to mention you're not helping urself in preparing for the AP test.

*me and sarmad look at each other like, "hasn't this guy noticed morse's teaching is helpful?"*

... I just wanted to let you all know that. so try to refrain from reading newspapers in class.

Mayur (from the other side of the room): *cough*sarmad*cough*

Sarmad: *cough*zimmerman*cough*

Michelle: *turns around in her seat to face sarmad* WHAT?!?!?

*Bell Rings*

Michelle: i happen to like the comics!

hahahhaha..there was a lot of coughing going on at the end of class. it was funny.

anyways, i was trying to figure out my schedule today and i came up with six different schedules to choose from. hahaha.

1) AP English, AP Econ/Govt, Literature Justice & Society, Drama 2, AP Calc, Anatomy
2) AP Eng, AP E/G, L J & S, Drama 2, AP Calc, Physics
3) AP Eng, AP E/G, L J & S, Drama 2, AP Stat, Anatomy
4) AP Eng, AP E/G, L J & S, Drama 2, AP Stat, Physics
5) AP Eng, AP E/G, L J & S, Drama 2, AP Calc, Honors Physics
6) AP Eng, AP E/G, L J & S, Drama 2, AP Stat, Honors Physics

as you can see, i can't decide what to take. haha. im sure about ap english, ap econ/govt, lit justice & society, and Drama 2. i'm just iffy about my math and science classes. the last two with honors physics are "ehhhhhh". cuz i dont know if want three ap classes and one honors. im leaning more towards three ap and three regular classes. Choice number four is looking good so far. not sure yet though. they should give us like a month to decide our schedule. geez. either that or i could stop being so indecisive but i doubt that's going to happen soon.

so what are all of you, my wonderful friends, taking next year?

my new obsession: william hung. this song was in my head all day:

She bangs, she bangs
oh baby
she moves, she moves

except since he's a fob, he says:
she bang, she bang
oh baby
she move, she move

hahahahaha. i think i was annoying david with my excessive singing. if u think about it, it's kinda sad for william hung though. cuz people are laughing AT him and not really with him. he's famous cuz he's this dorky, engineering major fob who tried out for american idol and didn't make it. so it's like the world is laughing at him and the media made a sport out of it by making him famous. if william hung never got media attn, everyone would look at him like all those other losers who tried out. no one would be running to get his autograph or pose for a picture with him. and he would never have a recording contract. it's amazing what media attn can do to ur reputation. it can really make u big.

im not really criticizing cuz i think he's cool also. but like everyone else i guess i'm laughing at his "fob-ness". that doesn't stop me from wanting to meet him and get his autograph and his picture. haha. but hey, that's just me and my obsession with celebrities and fame =D.

LOTR WON ALL ELEVEN OF ITS OSCAR NOMINATIONS!!!!!!! WOOT WOOT!!!!!!! WOOHOOO!!! and annie lennox sang "Into the West", which made me really happy cuz i LOVE that song!

i was kinda hoping Pirates of the Carribbean would win something. oh well. oh and Finding Nemo won for best animated film. yay! i dont think Big Fish won anything though. kinda sucks cuz it was in all the same categories as LOTR:ROTK.

the oscars had some funny moments this year. billy crystal's really funny. oh and when that guy from School House Rock and Will Ferrell sang a song. hahahaha. i was laughing heck of hard. what else...oh yeah, adrian brody (best actor winner for The Pianist last year) sprayed his mouth before announcing the Best Actress winner. haha. that guy looks so cool. i heard he's going out with Keira Knightley which is weird since he's like eleven years older. anyways. i haven't memorized journalism or history vocab yet, and im going to bed. damn oscars. gnite all!