it's sunny outside. i like warm weather =D. it's about time we started having some sun. but that means no more funny moments with umbrellas, wind, and rain. haha. oh well.

my sister's in new york for a med school interview right now. she got accepted to drexel, in philly, a couple weeks ago. i thought she was going to faint from excitement. i think she moves over there in august or something. *sigh*. i knew she was going to leave eventually. i mean, she didn't leave for college cuz she went to berekely and stayed in the bay area. and after that she went to a post-bac program at Mills College in oakland so she was still in the bay area.

i guess it really hit me recently that she's going to be leaving. i was working with her on my controversial issue essay for english. she sat down with me and we picked through EVERY single sentence correcting all of it. it think it took us more than an hour. and then a couple nights ago, i didnt' understand chem, so she came home from sf and explained ch.7 and 8 to me.

and i just thought that omg, next year she's not going to be around. she's coming home for christmas and stuff like that but she'll be living on the east coast for most of the year. she's always giving me advice about college and school and guys and everything in between. since she works in sf, she spends most of the week at her bf's place there, but if i ever need anything i call her and she's back home in an hour. she's always been there and in my final year at high school she's not going to be around. she won't be around when i apply to college, when i go to prom, and i dont even know if she'll be around for graduation.

i was just thinking about this recently, that im so used to having her around i can't think of what it'll be like when she leaves. i always assumed that she'd be around until i move out of the house also. i have to admit, she stuck around as long as she could. she's 25 and still at home. it's about time she moved out. i just wish she could do that after i graduate. in the past year or two she's been around a lot less. i don't remember the last time i went shopping or saw a movie with her. part of that is cuz i've gotten a lot more busy also.

my parents haven't always been able to give me a lot. but then i always had my sister so it wasn't a big deal. if i ever needed some extra cash or whatever i could go to her. but now that she's going to med school she's gonna be one broke-ass girl. hahaha. but there's other things. late night talks, all of our inside jokes, our weird stuffed animal obsessions, our fits of laughter, shopping sprees, sister dinners and lunches together, and a whole bunch of other stuff. im just starting to realize that she's gonna be tied up for four years. and after that, she's got residency for two years. i know she'll always be my sister...but she'll be like an absentee one for a few years.

and as much as i want to spend time with her now, i'm always running around trying to keep up with my life. and she's still got med school interviews, a job, and a life outside of the home she's been stuck in for 25 years. it's so hard to imagine senior year without her.

but enough of that, it's sunny outside today.