oh my goodness, my parents are SO freaking unsupportive. holy crap. i was telling my mom how i got into ryla, and i was explaining what it was and everything.

me: it's a type of leadership camp
mom: you can't be in leadership
me: what?
mom: you're too immature to be a good leader. you're too much like a kid.
me: just cuz i have a lot of enthusiasm a lot of times doesn't mean i'm immature.
mom: really? i don't think so.
me: well, im running for lieutenant governor
mom: *laughs* are u sure u can do that?
me: yes im sure, thanks for ur support.
mom: u just don't have the type of personality or character to be in leadership
me: okay.....that's mean.
mom: u think im mean?
me: yes
mom: *jokingly* fine, ur not my friend anymore
me: that's fine. i don't want friends unsupportive of me. at least my friends think i can do it.

*later on the conversation switches*

dad: yeah, stephanie couldn't do something like a doctor or computer major.
me: yep, i agree. i'm more of an active person.
mom: but u couldn't be a reporter or journalist major. that's not the same type of active as you are.
me: what do u mean
mom: well those people are assertive and strong-willed. you're active and hyper. like a kid.
me: okay, thanks a lot. i appreciate all your enthusiasm for my future.

HOLY CRAP. omg, my parents, especially my mom, just doesn't get it. she thinks that by saying all that, she's helping me out at finding something that i'm good at it. but THIS is what im good at it and she's totally not understanding. Ryla, Interact, leadership, and journalism is what i like and what im good at it. but she doesn't see it that way, so she doesn't support what i do. it pisses the heck out of me. she thinks that she knows me and what i'm like, but she has NO freaking clue AT ALL. i know i act all crazy and hyper at home but who doesn't? that has NOTHING to do with being a bad leader. she has some misconceived idea that a good leader is someone who is focused and serious 24/7. damn, i hate stereotypes. freaking retarded.

in a way, i want lieutenant governor to prove to my mom that i CAN be a leader. im running cuz i really want to be more involved in interact and make a difference. but part of me also wants to shove it her face. but im sure that if i ever got the position she would say im setting myself up for failure. egh, whatever. whenever i bring up something about leadership my mom ALWAYS says she doesn't think i'm a leader type person. and at the end of the conversation, she ALWAYS ends up saying, "ok ok. u can be a leader," just cuz she sees im getting miffed and she wants to appease me. but EVERY time i bring up the whole leadership thing again, she always says the same depressing thing. so in the end, she beleives that i can't do it, or if i AM put in the position, i'll fail.

parents are so damn depressing all the time. oh, and my parents were talking about how whs has gotten really low in standardized test scores. and they started saying all this stuff about certain high schools that didn't measure up to standards.

me: standardized tests are completely dumb and useless
mom: that's what u think because ur a student and u have to take them
me: but they really are useless. they force us to conform to standards and don't take in other factors of our learning. i should know, i wrote my essay on this.
mom: *disbeleiving tone* really?
me: yes, in fact, my english teacher agrees with me. teachers start teaching to the tests so the state won't take over the school, and students stop learning. this actually lowers the standard.
mom: hmm...you're a kid. you don't know what you're talking about. i'm a grown-up. of course i know more about this subject than you do.
me: that's not true...i actually did RESEARCH before i formed my opinion.
mom: hm, this just shows that you're not a very studious person. you don't like SAT's, you dont like tests, u dont like anything except having fun.

at that point i stopped talking. my parents are SO stuck in their ways that they can't possibly change their views. i hate that. what i hate even more is the fact that my parents think that teenagers are dumb idiots who don't know anything. which is totally untrue. i hate ppl who think teenagers can't make a difference or that we don't know anything about the social/political/economic going ons in the world. im not stupid! i have my own opinions MOTHER! damn...

my parents depress me....