i watched ten minutes of a reality t.v show and i was so disgusted i turned it off. the show is called The Swan. it's about these people who undergo plastic surgery to make themselves "prettier". i say prettier in quotes because what defines "pretty" is all relative. so anyways, these two women undergo plastic surgery: lyposuction, breast implants, and everything else from fixing their legs to their face. and after they undergo surgery they have about one month to get into shape for the beauty pageant. and depending on who looks better and who's "improved" more since pre-surgery, that one person gets to advance to the beauty competition. and woohoo, they're suddenly fuflilled.

that show is a piece of CRAP. it promotes low self-esteem and it fosters the already infectious ideas of "i'm not pretty enough", "i dont have the right weight", and blah blah blah. i absolutely hate reality t.v. (yes all reality tv from road rules/real world to the bachelor. the only reality tv i actually don't mind is american idol. i dont watch it because i dont like it that much but it's an all right show). but The Swan really pushes it. *gag*

anyways, it was nice to see people wearing yellow ribbons in support of American troops in Iraq (me included). in no way do i support the war, but i DO support the troops. and i guess, since travis layfield died in Iraq, people at WHS have become more aware of what's going on and how real everything is. well i know i have. it's sad. how you graduate high school, and are just embarking on your life and suddenly you're killed in action. i knew that the death toll for Americans in Iraq was close to five hundred, but i never thought it would hit so close to home. i didn't know travis layfield and i dont know his brother, who's a junior at WHS. so it's not like it's that close to me, but it's as close as i want it to get. it's really a sad event.

what also makes me sad is that today there were yellow balloons everywhere and we were all wearing yellow ribbons, but what about in may? in may we'll still be in the war and there'll still be people dying but i doubt that there will be very many people wearing yellow ribbons by the end of school. i don't want to be a hypocrite because i might not be donning that yellow ribbon either. i think i'll just put one on my backpack (and hope it doesn't get broken off or mutilated) and leave it there for the rest of the year. yes, that'll be nice.

so, this whole travis layfield thing has been all over the news. this morning our principal was talking to reporters from channel seven and who knows what other channels. while i was passing from third to fourth period there were channel five news reporters in the front of the school. and a whole bunch of people were going up to them, since those reporters can't exactly come on campus during school hours. i thought that was retarded. not the reporters thing, cuz they're doing their job, but it's retarded how people went up to them just so they could get a chance to be on television. ugh, that makes me sick.

well i'll be praying for that family. hope they get through all of it all right. im going to go eat grapes now because 1)i'm having a fruit obsession currently, and 2)i like grapes.