egh. not a wonderful day today. i got elected CSF secretary. i should be skipping right? not exactly. i feel so CRAPPY. i dunno if anyone is going to get offended by this......i hope not because i'll try to be tactful:

i went to the csf meeting today at lunch, and i had NO intention AT ALL of running for office. but meagan nominated me, and i've never been the type of person to turn down an opportunity. so i accepted. and now here's what i think....

i think wendy should have been elected to office. and the fact that i ran against her for secretary and won, really bugs me. because she's so much more dedicated. i'm not saying i think im a lazy-ass pig and wont do the work. knowing me, i WILL do the job of secretary to the best of my ability. but wendy's just more qualified. i know i've got interact experience but it's like....interact is my thing. csf is wendy's thing. and i feel bad for taking it away from her.

sarmad is my friend, and i know he'll do a good job as president. but i think wendy should've been president. and i think i should'nt have accepted the nomination for secretary. but i did. And as wendy’s friend I should’ve turned it down because she deserved it. But I just wasn’t thinking. I went ahead to make my speech and await the decision by the club. bad judgement on my part. I didn’t consider the situation till I was outside and people were voting. and then we were called in and betsy announced me as the winner.

so i tried to fix it afterwards. i talked with betsy and told her that even though by popular vote i'm secretary, i felt that wendy should be it instead. betsy was ok with it. so then we had to go to wallach and explain the situation. the conversation went something liket his:

wallach: how would it look to the outside if we just made wendy secretary
me: well, she DID come in a VERY close second, so it's not like it's favortism
wallach: to the inside core officers it'll make sense and seem perfectly logical. but to the people outside it won't be right
me: but if i resign you'll have to make wendy secretary
wallach: no. we'll just hold a reelection
me: but if i resign, the person who comes in second should be secretary
wallach: no, we’d have to call another meeting
me: but if we do that then wendy won’t necessarily get the position. It could be someone else
wallach: exactly. Which is why you should stick with it.
Me: if people question what we did, can’t we just tell them it was completely my fault and I was a bad secretary. I don’t mind.
Wallach: no we can’t do that.

Then he started making analogies to government and politics. What if bush said “I don’t wanna do this” and cheney takes over. That wouldn’t cut it. And he made more references to big companies and government agencies and crap. So I told him that this was a HIGH SCHOOL CSF. But wallach’s bottom line answer was: no.

Wallach said that wendy was a strong person and that she’d move on. And he told me to just deal with it. He agreed that it was “foolish” for the club not to vote wendy as an officer because she worked so hard this past semester. But there was nothing to be done about it.

So I’ll do the best job I can as secretary, and to wendy: I'm sorry for running against you and getting the position you deserved more than me.

*end rant*