the following paragraph is going to make absolutely no sense at all. and it shouldn't make sense.....i was aiming for ambiguity.

sometimes i wish my blog was private so that i could rant about the unfairness of something and the pressure that it puts on me and the lack of credit i get for it. what am i talking about? well i can't say on this retarded blog because then the world will know and i dont want that. oh my goodness....i didnt' think i was mad about this "situation" before, but after last night i realized that it bugs me more than i let on. it's so effing annoying. it's not like i WANT credit but i dont want someone else to get credit for something they didn't do. i gave up a lot for "bob" (the reason i say "bob" is cuzi don't wanna say what he/she/alien/it/him/her/them/they/etc. is; therefore i use the codename "bob") but that doesn't mean i should put in more. but if i don't then nothing will happen and i dont want nothing to happen cuz that would be detrimental to many people. OMG I JUST WANT TO VENT AND RANT but this blog is such a mofo and i can't make it a private post. bottom line: i should not have extra stress and pressure. but i do. and that stress defeats the purpose of me giving up what i gave up for "bob." THREE HOURS! freaking three hours! compared to.......ONE!?!??! THAT IS BULLSHIT.

i could fix my problem, but im a loser with confrontational problems.

waterworld was tons of fun. details tomorrow.....when i'll hopefully be more calm.