i'm on an aim strike until i finish my common application.

when did i decide this? two days ago. why? cuz that day i had NO hw. ALLLL i had to do was study for a calculus test (which i think i did poorly on), so i could've worked A LOT on my college apps, and i could've done some gov't extra credit, and i could've done a billion other productive things. but what did i do? go on aim. ugh. i hate being unproductive. i mean, i like relaxing.....but when i have stuff to do and i go on aim - then that bugs me. i piss myself off a lot. i think i can survive thanksgiving break w/o aim....i mean, i'm not addicted or anything. i think.

i'm so frusturated with everything. the majority of that frusturation comes from college apps. i don't understand how people expect us to go to college when they make the effing application process long, expensive, boring, tedious, annoying, expensive, and full of shit. it's not like it's just the application and the essays. it's getting out reccomendation forms, putting in transcript requests, sending in SAT scores, scheduling interviews, and throwing money out the window for all of that crap.

i feel like going to an open field and just screaming my lungs out. if i do that in my house my neighbors might call the cops. it would feel SO good to just let out all my frusturation and energy and yell and scream like there's no tomorrow. it's like i have all this pent up "stuff" that i need to let out.

on the bright side i have three parties to go to in december:
Dec 10: Rotary Christmas Celebration (at Mr.Richard King's house)
Dec 11: Winterball
Dec: 18: It's a Wrap

help. i need dresses.