winter break has been extremely fun. i've never hated returning to school more. i usually relax during winter break but it's never really FUN. but this break has been fun-packed. in fact, i've had a SOCIAL LIFE. shocker. i know. i've forgotten what studying is like. hahaha.

i've put up 11 new things on my wall. my mom almost died when she saw it. she hates my room. it's ok though. cuz i love it. i love how the walls are crowded, and i love how it makes my room seem cluttered. my walls have PERSONALITY.

everyone's been reflecting on the past year. but i can't find it in me to type coherent thoughts right now. i guess mumbled thoughts about the past year will have to do.

the interact cruise was fun. ryla was mind-boggling - it changed my life and i've made so many good friends. becoming lt.gov was one of the best things that has ever happened to me. my sister moved to philly. that was sad. my grandma moved back to china. that was sad too. i'm glad i participated in the wheelchair foundation - it makes me happy that i donated a wheelchair to someone and possibly changed his life. i got a cell phone. now i can't live without it. the last unicorn was a fun play. i made it through junior year, and surprisingly with a 4.0. the reconciliation thing at irvington was good. haven't been to something like that in years. making the guys and dolls play was good stuff. (if this post gets deleted now, i'll cry. i should save this on word).

new paragraph of incoherent thoughts: i've made a lot of new friends that i've become really close to in a short amount of time. i've also become closer with my old friends. DC has been freaking awesome. I have to go back to ryla and how much it’s affected me. I talk about it too much. I know. Deal with it. I must post a conversation i had with rahul about ryla/dc people.....

daislandman69: u kno wut i noticed
LipsOnFire19: im a really cool person =D
daislandman69: yea
daislandman69: i noticed that a long time ago
LipsOnFire19: aw =D
daislandman69: but also that like the people from RYLA that i hang out with now i didnt even really meet there
daislandman69: and like i dont know
daislandman69: all u guys are soo different then alot of other kids ive met
LipsOnFire19: how so?
daislandman69: i dont know like everyone at the sleepover and also on DC
daislandman69: is so open minded and like not judgemental
daislandman69: its kinda nice
LipsOnFire19: yeah i know. i really like it.
LipsOnFire19: like i've only you since august.....and if you were someone i'd just met in school i probably wouldn't have a sleepover with that person
daislandman69: yeah sorry kinda random but just talkin to DC people online even makes me realize how special yall are

(tangent: awwww....isn't that so sweet. i love rahul)

LipsOnFire19: dude...like everything you're saying is what i've been thinking recently
daislandman69: yedah
daislandman69: haha
daislandman69: yeah i was thinkin that lookin at pictures
daislandman69: and like i mean im the type of person that can tell if someone is genuine or not like in the first 5 minutes of meeting them
daislandman69: and like when i met everoyne thats the impression i got right away
LipsOnFire19: michelle and i were commenting on how we're all hecka comfortable around each other. we were all playing twister, telling ghost stories, sharing blankets and all that.....if i did all that with other people, people would be like "omg...what a flirt." but we dont really give it a second glance around each other.
LipsOnFire19: it's a nice feeling
daislandman69: yeah i know its like family
daislandman69: but yea im def lookin forward to the ski trip

so i doubt anyone read that. I generally skip over aim convos posted on blogs/xangas/ljs. Hahaha.

so back to my stroll down 2004 memory lane......I don’t think I’ve had any regrets. There’s some stuff I look back on and think, “dang I was such a dumbass – why the hell did I do that?” but I don’t really regret that stuff. I’m sure if I could go back and redo that moment I’d do it differently, but it’s not anything I brood on. It happened, it’s done, it’s over, I can move on. Like quitting tennis. That was one of the hardest things I’ve ever had to do. But I made my decision and I’ve never looked back. I’m sure if I sat down and thought about that decision over and over again I’d throw myself off of my porch or something. But hard decisions like that are things that you can’t look back on. If it’s something that you’ve thought about long and hard (and for me, prayed about long and hard) then it’s the right thing. Because I quit tennis I was able to dedicate more time to planning the FLC. I’m sure if I had tennis the FLC would’ve turned out a lot crappier. HAHA.

But yeah, regrets can eat you up, and I’ve learned not to happen. This is the cheesiest line in the world but I have to say it: things happen for a reason. I said it – so sue me.

I don’t do new year’s resolutions because I’m too cool like that =P. however this year I have ONE resolution…..to get my damn license.

Alias season premiere on Wednesday. SWEET. I can’t wait. I must work ahead in my homework so that I have two free hours on Wednesday to watch it.

Have fun in 2005 everyone. And to all the seniors: live it up….it’s your senior year. It’s your last freaking year in high school so make the most of it.