This is why i love acting.....

so, i had a really crappy morning. i've been taking calculus quizzes EVERY day for the past week and a half, and it gets to a point where i just dont care anymore. i'm tired of doing badly on the quizzes over and over again. then when i got to english, i got back my Novel Q's, only to discover that i was docked 12 points. and then arnold passed back the essays which everyone did miserably on (myself included). i don't think i've ever disliked a teacher like i dislike her. i've always liked my teachers (or at least tolerated them in the case of mr.wharton). but oh my goodness, mrs.arnold is too much. she insults the class every day. "you guys are whisper retarded." "the writing was so horrible." "can't you read with some more emotion?" "you're seniors...why don't you act your age." yuck, gag me. and she TOLD us once that being an english teacher was a tedious job. i mean, what a way to get your class excited about english......by telling them you hate your job. great.

so my morning was just shot to hell. i mean, i realize im a second semester senior, and i don't need to kill myself over my grades. i'm ok with getting B's. but calculus is something i actually want to understand. i put effort into that class and i want to pass the AP test.

well by the time i got to drama i didn't feel like doing anything. (i told ballin yesterday that i would go first on stage so that he could work on my monologue with me in front of the class). i'm doing helena's monologue from A Midsummer's Night Dream, and in the monologue she's pissed as hell. she thinks that demetrius, lysander, and hermia are all conspiring against her. she thinks that they're all mocking her. i was really reluctant to act at first because all i wanted to do was sleep. but once i got up there and ballin started working with me, i got this rush of adrenaline and i just let out all my anger and frusturation through my character. it was so freaking awesome. i totally became Helena and i manifested her feelnigs. when i got off stage i felt great =D.

what would i do without theater?