rejection sucks. even when you know it's coming, it still sucks.

just as bad as rejection is comparing yourself to other people. so you shouldn't do it. but when you don't feel too hot, you can't really help it. and then you feel like even more crap. it's a fucking vicious cycle.

i hate being jealous. it's a horrible feeling.

it wasn't meant to be. things will work out in the end. they always do. God has a plan for me, and this just isn't part of it. i need to accept it. He'll take care of me. He has things planned for me that i don't see...that i can't even imagine. things will be fine.

even though i know everything will work out, i'm still ticked off.

get over it. it's done. it's over. move on.

i need to go for a run.